8 DPO So my progesterone was 12.3 at testing. I'm thinking it was only 6 DPO because I got my positive 7 days before. I'm finding that over 10-12 you should have ovulated. So while my doctor isn't happy because it's not as high as he'd like to see on Clomid. It's not so low that I'm completely out. At least that's what I'm telling myself. Is it completely scientifically sound? Maybe not. But I gotta hold onto the faith. So. With my denial based train of thinking here I'm not going to completely give up. Mock me if you must.

CD 14 Positive OPK Day! Yesterday was close but it just wouldn't go that extra inch to be positive. I'm really happy to see it doing it today. It's also really exciting that this happened on Day 14. Most of the positives during my cycles without Clomid came on days 16/17. So this is really early. I'm hoping that's a good sign that maybe the medicine is doing good things for me. It might mean nothing, but it's a small comfort for now. Sex: 7, 9, 11, 13. It's really bothering me not having sex today with the positive but the doctor was very specific about the timing - and when I think about it Day 15 should be just enough to top it off. Might try to convince Stephen to have morning sex anyway just to make sure it's done in time. He's such a grouch when he wakes up who knows what will happen. I am feeling so happy and content thinking about this. There's usually some level of anxiety thinking about getting pregnant. I think it's fairly normal. We don't hade any children and I wonder how it will change our relationship, how our lives will change, if we will love each other the same. That scares me. But starting this process and being more open with our parents and hearing their support I have so much more peace. We are ready for this, we've been saying it for years. Our parents think we are ready for this, they know us best. It's simply our time.

10 DPO - I've tested the past two mornings and both are very negative. I know it's super early and things could change but I'm pretty sure it's not this cycle. I've had some pretty standard PMS symptoms kicking in. Working on just accepting it and focusing on anything else I can control for some sort of comfort. - No results from the MRI before the office closed on Friday so I have to wait through the weekend. I'm pretty anxious. I know that no matter what the doctor says next I will be okay, we will get through, we will not be held back. We are strong and it will be alright. But just not knowing is the worst. - I had sex twice today. And while it's irrelevant to TTC at this point I just wanna brag because it was pretty great.

Spoke with the nurse and I was right, we counted incorrectly. So I am going in tomorrow for my prolactin redraw and progesterone test. I'll be going in between 9-10 am (3-4 hours after I wake up) and I'll start fasting this evening. I forgot to ask how long the results take... Maybe I'll ask the lab if they know. Or I'll call back tomorrow so I'm not bothering the nurse. 24 more hours and I've made it to the next step of the cycle!

5 DPO I'm a massive bundle of nerves, and I don't really know how to make it stop. This is our 27th month doing this and sometime within the next two days I'm getting blood drawn to confirm that I ovulated. It seems like such a small and simple thing but after all this time I'll get a real idea if a major part of this process is even working. Mix that with the fact it's also a re-draw for my prolactin? Man. I just need to know the results and what they mean for us and our journey. This entire cycle feels like it's been going on for ages. I'm very interested to see if my luteal phase gets lengthened at all. 11/12 days is a tad short but I've read that sometimes Clomid helps with that problem. So I can't even count down until my period is due because part of me is hoping it will be later than usual to lengthen that! As far as feelings go ovulation turned me into a massive bitch. I haven't feel that argumentative or wanted to instigate shit in so long. It was actually pretty unsettling because I'm very uncomfortable with the aggressive side of my personality. But I just tried to focus on being self-aware and doing the best I could to get through. The heightened emotions seemed to have settled down. Maybe a little over a week until we find out if this cycle is "the one", eee! (Assuming it was successful ovulation. I guess we will know pretty quickly it's not if that test doesn't go well).

23 hour OPK progression. This is so fascinating to see. As stressful and annoying as these suckers can be it is really fun to watch them progress. I'll be taking one more test around 4:40 again before I officially log it in my tracking notebook and bore you with nonsense thoughts.