#cybilliam

So yeah, I’m moving on with my life, I’ve changed, I’ve grown, I’m moving on, moving out of my home town and starting fresh a new chapter.

I’ve made friends, lost them, joined communities, watched them grow and then bid my farewell. Sagas of tension and drama, battles of thick and thin. I just want to say my piece to know I actually tried and said something before closing that chapter and writing a new one.

So, to those who were part of the journey (DO NOT HARASS ANYONE MENTIONED):

SpooksterTTV and Community:

I miss you all and I really enjoyed the time I spent with you guys and I’m happy I could share my insight and knowledge in the art channel, I occasionally see some of your guys’ art and I love to see that you’ve grown and advanced so far.

I do see that some of you stalk my TikTok occasionally, I understand if you just want to check in but you’re more than welcome to just follow me but I’m sure you may just be relaying what I’m doing to the Community.

Speaking of which, I was banned from the community, I found out while I was at my towns local fair. I never got a reason, I never got to properly say goodbye, I felt I was robbed of my friends and community but I managed to reach out and find the few who stuck around

I was banned because Spook and I split and I shared some not so good details about it. Spook and I split in late July of 2025, and we have not spoken since. Him and I do not speak, I love the community and what I had while I was there but I am not “Spooks GF” or “Spooks EX”, I want to be Cybilliam, that is who I am and who I will be, all I ask is to no longer be associated with Spook. I will accept remembering me in the community and what I’ve done within it, but I would like to be recognized as myself and my own community going forward.

Serena Foxx (or B4BYFAC3)

Last time we spoke was a bit rough, and I know I have been blocked on everything, it hurts but I am a little glad I got to look through the past one more time before moving on. I hope you’re doing well, I know the last time we spoke you were going through it, I hope life has led you down a bright path, and I’m happy to see you are still nerding out.

I always admired how you were weird and owned it, and I’m glad to see while I could that that aspect of you hasn’t died. I miss when we made cringe edits or spammed the shipping bot in your servers, making memes or cringe TikTok’s. I do dearly miss when we were friends and I wish we could go back, but I know and understand that may be unrealistic. Just wish I could continue forward with you around, being weird with me with no shame.

I know the last time we spoke was super rocky and tense, I just want to say I know I didn’t handle it properly and I am sorry for any hurt or distress I may have caused. I hope you’re doing well, Serena

ThatBitchKarma:

Unfortunately for you, I am not sorry for breaking off the friendship. You want to act like you’re my sister when to my face you called me stupid and that you hoped I should never have children, that I’d be a horrible mother and wished upon my boyfriend that he is infertile just so that I can’t have them. To me, the person you always entrusted your son with, me, who taught him how to process his emotions and express how he’s feeling, who would actually play with him instead of ignoring him to binge watch Steven Universe. You called me guiding, kind, gentle, nurturing and the biggest word, Maternal yet I’d make a horrible mother to you?

On top of that, you want to act like you aren’t a “fake mf” when I have seen you “not condone” transphobia yet every other weekend when my best friends weren’t over, you constantly told me “he isn’t a man, he will never be a man, idk what that is but it’s not a man!” You would constantly try to convince me to not see or treat him as his identity, you insulted his relationship, you told with confidence “don’t lie to me, you’re embarrassed by him and you don’t like him” right after you asked me to honestly answer “do you like ****?” To which I said “yeah. Why?” Constantly trying to drive everyone away from him but any time you spent time together, you told him you loved him. He looked up to you.

You expect me to stick around with the person who insulted my relationship and my future to my face while also dehumanizing and disrespecting my best friend? You think I’d sit idly by while you two faced my best friend within the same weekend? I’m sorry, I’m not sorry.

That is my piece with you. You don’t have to worry about their experiences “warping” my perception of you, you already did that yourself. All I hope is the kid is okay and if any need, I’d be there for him in a heartbeat.

That is my piece. Thank you and I hope to see you on the next chapter