#cug

🏒 After Sweetheart, Ethan, and adorably cute, nerdy/geeky, Tommy, I decided to go on a date with tortured soul, Max. Max is truly different from the other guys.

🧐 I thought it was interesting that both Ethan and Tommy took the time to look at all the women before settling on me, while Max didn't hesitate and locked eyes with me straight away.

🗿 During the challenge with the idol of first impressions, Max admitted to have felt attracted to me the moment he heard my voice. He however was fighting the attraction because he wanted to be loyal to Anna. I admitted that I found him direct and respected him for that.

🗿 For the idol of reflections, Max guessed the handheld mirror, which I admit, I expected of him. He's a logical person.

🗿 The idol of the questions you're not asking was a tough challenge for Max. He was torn between being honest with me and being loyal to Anna. He admitted to being torn between his attraction to me and his loyalty to Anna. He also said that he wouldn't act on his attraction to me while coupled up with Anna, which I 100% respect. I admitted to him that I was torn between him and Jason.

🗿 We got some cuddle time thanks to the idol of the held breath. Max was trying hard to exercise restrain. It was quite intense.

😭 I am missing Jason already.

🙈 So, thought I'd compile some of Jason's comments that were either funny or sweet. Something to go back to until we're finally reunited. My favourite was Jason calling me his girl when I leaned into his "Die" joke 🙈

🤯 Wow. Day 4 was a lot.

😊 It had started so well. Jason and I had our chat about our Passion Island dates. We both reassured each other that we were still each other's priority, that we were still committed to our relationship.

😊 The Wheel Of Rewards game was fun for the most part.

😠 I wasn't amused by Anna stating her interest in Jason so publicly without giving me a heads up. Miss transparency, obviously forgot to be transparent about the fact that she's into my man. Max didn't comment on that, but it must have stung. I wonder whether she had already told him or not 🤔

🤬 Maeve stealing Jason was such a blow. Them leaving to go to a resort for 36 hours was even worse.

😢 It was bitter sweet saying goodbye to Jason. I'm grateful however that I got to see him and to convey to him how much he means to me before he left. I'm glad he reassured me too.

😮‍💨 The evening felt really dull after that despite everyone's kindness and support.

😊 I'm glad friendship with some of the girls is a thing this season. Glad I had Kelly and Anna to support me after Jason's forced departure.

😒 Ethan's chat was sweet but I'll timed. I understand where he was coming from. He needed to lay his cards on the table before the new comers' arrival, but, I needed time to deal with my heartache.

😴 I decided to sleep alone. I honestly couldn't see myself sharing a bed with someone else so soon after Jason's departure.

🤔 So, day 5 is bringing in new seekers. I wonder how many there will be? What they will be like? Hopefully they won't bring anymore drama.

🤔 There's supposed to be a coupling ceremony soon as well. I guess it will be after Maeve and Jason return. There's likely to be an elimination too.

🤔 There's seem to be a lot up in the air right now.