Mar 7
I can't be the only system who genuinely wonders why the hell people want to have DID. Even if they wanna claim it's just the alters, sometimes I get so sick of my head mates. Like no, I don't want you co-con. No, I don't want to hear your thoughts or opinions. No, I don't want to give up front for "just a bit". It's worse when I get pushed from main, it isn't fun, it's never fun. Yes I should probably stop hogging but got forbid I don't want a non masking alter in front at work.
There is no nice part of my disorder, while I love some of my head mates and I'm grateful my disorder pulled me through hell, sometimes it's so exhausting even without flashbacks, memory gaps, and dissociation.
