#crushedcandy

Red is the color of joy

that i see 

when you are with me

Blue is the color of peace

which i feel

with you beside me

Pink is the color of sweetness

something i always hear

whenever you speak a word

Purple stands for courage

which i see much

when you take a stand for me

Brown is referred to as fear

a feeling that strikes me

whenever the thoughts of loosing you occur

Green is the colour of safety

which i feel much

with you around me

Black is for sadness

that i received

every time we  fought

And white is a sign

from me

Some flowers are red 

often the sky is blue

Whenever i think of you 

the world becomes new

Nights are not always starry

Some pictures are blurry

As our fights brought us near

Your friendship to me is always so dear

Hearing the jokes that make me laugh

Still feels incomplete without you

Though i know you're not here

I glance everywhere to check if you're near

Every moment is endless

Thinking of you is what i call happiness

i'll keep on waiting

be a sitting duck

ceasing  on to time

till i see you on the other side

reaching out gripping on to my tear-filled damp hand

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Second part :

If i could go back 

change the tide of time

i'd wipe your tears

Solitary i keep waiting for you 

to come

end this infinitude

oh the hopeless

Life is like a palate of colours ,you feel everything is wonderful and "colourful" but as soon as the colours either start to dry out or the paint  goes away with the picture ; the palate remains empty and it looses it's values....

Just like that life fades away at a certain point of time but then the palate is again used to fill images with colour. Which is why people shouldn't give up , they ought to look around themselves and find happiness within the small things that surround them.

I was a suicidal person..... I am a suicidal person , not because my parents' pressurize me bcoz they don't . I might be the most "filled with guilt" person anyone would ever meet. My best friend

 came second for the first time , she usually comes 1st and i blame myself.I am an introvert. i bottle up emotions and yet the jar is never brimming with guilt.Some how it fits inside.

i'm writing this blog because i wanna be heard , i wanna tell people how i feel so that maybe they can soothe me. i am a baby who needs crooning. i'm not above 16 or anything i'm only 14 hell i became 14 on 28th jan..................... THe only reason i'm able to write this is bcoz of my best friend ******(i;m not supposed to say her name so we call her Ivy) She consulted me and gave me faith.She'd  be shattered if i kill thyself........................................................................................

until next time