I find myself trying to tackle this project again and again, and it is something I want to do, but whenever I try to make progress on it I find myself stuck. Like I have a clear idea for what I want to work on, what to change, but when pen meets tablet my hand just stops. I initially thought this was just art block or something like it, but I've come to terms that its not.

I've since made other projects after putting CRPR on the shelf and MCHA, Minecraft Horror Asks, has been doing well over on TikTok and has since taken up the space for my side project. I also plan to be working on a MLP Infection AU as it has gotten some hype as well. Compared to the work I'd put into CRPR, those two projects have gotten actual success way faster.

So what does this mean for CRPR?

Well, I don't know. The last thing I want to do is cancel it and throw everything away, but with how things have been towards the project I think a full redo is what it needs. CRPR is my first project that did get attention, both good and bad, and helped me get that starting experience and even a small audience. I don't want to just throw it away but instead preserve it. I want to remember it as a stepping stone towards what I want to do with my life.

In short...

CRPR, on Tumblr, is cancelled.

I've made my final decision on the series. It won't be a comic, and it won't be an ask blog as I now already have one. Instead, it'll be going to go back to it's roots as a fully written series of short stories. Its only one part of what I had originally planned, but its something I could actually manage alongside everything else. There won't be a set schedule for when things are posted because I'm not going to make this as a main project anymore. The full reboot of it isn't gonna happen for a while though as I'm gonna have to remake... well everthing! Just keep an eye on my main blog and socials if you wanna follow along on. And hey! Maybe you'll like some of my other stuff.

So whats gonna happen? Well, a lot. I'll be moving everything over to TikTok and Instagram, and by everything I mean art and updates will be on there. The actual stories will continue to be posted on the website which will once again be getting a rework as I've found better platforms for them.

What happened?

Heads up, this section is gonna get kinda venty but if you're an aspiring creator like me I think reading about my experience could make for a good cautionary tale.

The original plan I had for it was something big, this was more than a side project it was a full on main project. But as I went on and did more and more work for it I found a voice in the back of my mind. I always wondered why I'd included Buddy when he didn't exactly fit in, and thats because he was a sub-concious reminder of what was important to me. My original creations, my full creativity that wasn't just basing off something already popular.

CRPR was meant to be an outlet for a fixation, it was meant to be a side project, but the moment I saw it get some success and had an outside influence warping my view I forgot what I was doing this for. Originally I was going to work on this, finish it up, and then go to my actual main projects with the hope that any audience I did make through this would check it out, but then my anxiety took hold. It continued to cause me to add more and more to the project because I didn't want it to end. That fear that nobody would want to check out my original series made me expand this into a project that was far too much for one person to handle.

Once CRPR went from silly ask blog to adding stories and then two entire seperate timelines on top of multiple comics and making a whole team that I alone had to manage without any experience, I got overwhelmed. I'd tell myself that when I got home from work I was excited to sit down and spend whole days sketching out pages and concepts and rough drafting and editing and not taking breaks until I burnt out and neglecting myself and worse of all not spending the bit of time I had left with one of the most important people I had reconnected with in my life... until I got hit by the final burn out that still had a hold on me.

CRPR went from a fixation, to a fun side project, to practice, to a full project, to a lesson. And I'm thankful for everyone who helped me see it. Despite where it led me to, I'm happy I got to have fun with it when I did. This projet, although mismanaged, still helped me try out new things. I developed my artstyle further, learned new skills, tried out tweening animation, met cool people who gave me advice and helped me grow, and more. And even if I made so many mistakes with it, I'm glad I did so I could learn. I don't want to just throw away this blog though so it's going to be repurposed.

Hopefully I can get it done soon but I'm going to reuse this blog as a space for my first main project, a comic series heavily inspired by Johnny The Homicidal Maniac and Beneath the Trees Where Nobody Sees, featuring an old favorite character of mine.

Stay tuned, friends. - 🌷