#crisp rambles

🌟Joy of Shared Adventure🌟

Energetic • Spontaneous • Youthful

Just two people meeting by chance. They’re college students bounded in an established romantic relationship. Together they enjoy their present day and look ahead for what they can have in the future. Learning love, laughter and everything in between. Their overall relationship is usually a fun and comedy one. I swear these two are the embodiment of being cheesy and so stupidly in love it makes your jaw hurt (from grinning till your teeth dry).

To Allen, Frey is her anchor. The grounded presence that helps her navigate life, the reassurance. The one teaches her many things without making her feel small and looked down. To Frey, Allen is his spark, a chaos he doesn't mind having around. the one who reminds him that life is meant to be enjoyed, not just managed.

It may too obvious .... but, Fureren is basically the ship I use to explore physical closeness as well. They’re just naturally super touchy and comfortable with each other, so it feels right to push that side of their relationship. They’re the pair I go to when I want to try writing or drawing intimacy in a soft, affectionate way. It fits them, and it’s fun for me to explore too. (And a little bit too embarassing, to be honest. I'm always grateful for all my friends supporting all the fureren kissy kissy agenda)

🌿Beauty in Mudane Things🌿

Trust • Mutual Respect • Steadiness

Jake and Rose are domestic partner that took the role of parental figure for the 4 cubs. What began as a temporary arrangement slowly turned into something more meaningful. They’re the type of pair who find beauty in the most mundane things: quiet mornings, shared tasks, raising the kids, just… everyday life.

Honestly this drawing was made because I was getting emotional after reading my friends’ heartfelt reviews about Bear With Us zine… especially the parts talking about Jake and Rose as caretakers together. 😭😭JKRS is technically the oldest ship I’ve had. They’ve existed the longest out of all my octps. But funny enough, their relationship is still the slowest to develop. Since PABear went on hiatus, I’m only now picking them up again, continuing their story from where I left it.

I like on how my friends notices from the book Rose is a person that often 'complains'; she's notices what’s missing, what could be improved, what needs work. Because she genuinely wants things to be better for everyone. While Jake is the grounding presence Rose didn’t even know she needed. He might not be as skilled and competent as Rose but he’s patient and always choosing to see the best in people. Where Rose sees the flaws, Jake sees the strengths. Where Rose corrects, Jake comforts. With this in mind, they balances each other.

It hits so hard because somehow my friends all still here, watching them grow one tiny moment at a time. They’re not an official couple yet, but people still feel their bond. I’m taking my time with them, because romance was never the main focus of PABear. But the slowburn is there. Gentle, gradually building throughout the story. They are still the parental figure of the foster kids, they’re already a family... They will catch up....!!!

🎂Tender Celebration & Gratitude🎂

Yearning • Celebration • Cherished Memories

As their story revolves around yearning one to another, surviving distance, enduring hardship and uncertainty. For them, love is something that grows slowly and accumulates over time. I feel like their finale would have huge 'celebration' implication as it symbolizes “we’re still here" or endless “thank you for being in my life”(s). The quiet truth that this is what you get when two people stay together long enough: a love that’s tender, grateful, and full of years---

Years of shared milestones, birthdays and anniversaries, the softness of aging together. the way George cherishes Darlene, the way Darlene feels loved and seen. It's all about that, honestly.

In this drawing I feel like Darlene is getting pranked so bad to the point she got so teary-ly upset before the cake reveal (she's still as sensitive as she can be) and george is still as goofy as he is... hahaha

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this is me the whole time drawing + writing this. i dont know if im making any sense i just want to ramble nonsense out there. it's いい夫婦の日 after all. AHHHHH i hope i will still have the passion to keep writing them because they are my pride and joy!!!!!!! people i made up and keeping me sane!!

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Q1 : If you remember, how did you first find out about artfight?

I think i hear about it from twitter.... or even the longest, tumblr...? i feel like i've been familiar with people announcing themselves in an event that has color vs monochrome, spice vs sugar thing without actually knowing what event they were talking about..... i tried to backtrack my old posts and i saw i tweeted something like “i wanna try artfight” in 2020ish… but i only finally joined on 2023!

Q2 : How do you handle bookmarks? When and how many OCs do you bookmark at once? Do you clean them out?

i bookmark pretty freely! i put characters i find interesting that caught my interest, or I plan to draw sometime in the future. I cleared them out if i've attacked them.

Q3 : What is something that usually stops you from drawing a character?

Mostly when i feel i cant draw them justice or i dont really have ideas what to do with them! Plus a tinyy specific thing : when I see the user isn't ...actively replying to people when they get comments/attacked.....

Q4 : Have you ever attacked a user the following year again that wasn't a friend or mutual?

Yeah! As revenges tho, it happens they attacked me again in the following year :D

Q5 : Do you attack people more because of their art or their characters? Be brutally honest

Hmm, tricky question... I’d say both!

I usually pick characters that I find interesting or fun to draw. That said, the way someone draws their characters also matters. If I enjoy their artwork and how they present their OCs, it’s more likely to catch my interest to attack.

NGL, I do take a person's art into consideration sometimes. If someone has a really cool style, I get curious about how my OCs would look drawn by them 🤣 Even if they don't end up revenging, there is a chance we might click and become mutuals or friends later on. And honestly, that's how I've met a lot of awesome people since my first year on AF !

Q6 : Have you ever started a drawing but deleted it or continued with a different character instead because you lost interest or it didnt work out?

yeah yeah! plenty times! we love trial and errors hahaha

Q7 : Are your character profile images showing your own or other peoples art more?

it seems my character profiles has more of my art as their references this year! it means i'm happy with my drawings & draw a lot! (i used to struggle so much being not confident that i cant draw my ocs right like how i visioned them, sometimes people draw them better, thats why i used commissioned art instead as refs) proud of myself for that improvement 🥹

Q8 : Have you ever donated to artfight, or bought something from the merch shop? If so, what was it, and if merch, do you still have it?

I've considered last two years, but i haven't! And perhaps would be unable to do so in near future due to recent economy situation OTL

Q9 : Do you show character importance in your character names? (e.g. with hearts or other symbols)

i put a ⭐️ symbol to give mark that they come from the same story and allowed to be drawn together

Q10 : Is your favorite character your most attacked character?

If I remember correctly, Gracie a.k.a Allen still the top one most attacked character of mine.…happy for my girlie...

Q11 : How do you usually find and search targets? What places, strategies and activities do you like?

During my first year, I mostly browsed through tags. However, I eventually realized that method wasn't really suitable for me, since some characters I found interesting ended up belonging to users who were barely active or not participating at all.

Nowadays, I don't actively look for targets. Most of the time, if I see an attack or character that catches my eye; whether it's from a friend, mutual, or complete stranger's page-- I'll check out their profile and poke around their gallery. That's usually where I find my potential targets!

Q12 : What is the most common arttype you receive? (e.g. colored headshot, full scene, pixelart)

Hmmm they came with pretty various artstyle and finishes- but its commonly digital drawings and occasionally sketches/traditional art

Q13 : What do you typically like to attack people with? (same as above)

Colored digital drawings! With animations whenever I saw the chance to animate it. The body level and art approaches may vary because I experimented a lot....

Q14 : If there was a 100% guarantee you receive art back of your favorite character, who would you attack instantly? (you don't have to name drop, can be "person who does plushies" for example)

AHHHH i really want animation of my OCs.... so someone who can do 2D/3D/Pixel animations? That would be cool! i would love to see them come to life (despite being someone who animate alot, i rarely do things for my own OCs LOL) Also I love illustrations that have some interactivity (especially for multiple characters) or depicting a story in it. so I'd love aim for people that seem excel in that :eye emoji:

Q15 : How do you feel about long, detailed (character-)permissions?

They are alright. I read them because people put them there for a reason. (unless they're a super long wall of text that also written on a customized CSS thats lowers the readability ...i give up)

Q16 : Do you attack characters from all sorts of artstyles or choose those who's styles tends to be similar to your own?

i tend to attack whose style similar to my own! or at least, having similar genre of OCs.

Q17 : Do you fill other peoples hitlists?

Never done that! but sometimes i open people’s hitlist to read form to see whats it all about...(??) I thought of making a hitlist myself this year but....maybe next time...

Q18 : Do you actually read whats written on other peoples user profiles before you attack them? (skimming counts)

i always read them all! it serves as a vibe check to determine if i vibe with this user and whether i want to attack them or not...

Q19 : Do you enjoy attacking "beginner"- artists and/or characters?

If they have design that interests me, yep!

Q20 : How do you feel about mass attacks, do you want to be included in them?

i find them a really cool concept! Something funny, though: I clearly stated that I don't want to be included in mass attacks, yet I've still had plenty of people include me in them 🤣 Sometimes I wonder if people missed that part from my permissions... but no hard feelings! Most of them have been really cool, and I'm happy they thought of my characters... (my PABear family being featured in Modern Family parody mass attacks is still mind blowing. I LOVE THAT SERIES) I might tweak my global permissions and remove the mass attack restriction someday... we'll see!

If you're wondering why I dont want to be included in the first place : i have this restriction to NOT have my ocs being drawn with other creator's ocs without permission. Being in a mass attack means my characters are surrounded by many ocs from other creators and i dont wanna risk the possibility of my characters being depicted out of character...yeah thats mostly it.

Q21 : Are you fancy with html profiles and all that, or just use good old text /or minimal formatting html?

I love a good amount of simple formatting! Dont @ me for this, honestly profiles with too much customization (especially when its heavily changing the layout and color themes) confuses me and i find them hard to navigate... 😭😭

Q22 : What is your main #1 reason for joining artfight?

For the love of the game yeahhh. Mostly because i love the spirit of giving and receiving! I love drawing for people and making them happy, and I also like...winning points for that haha! :")

Plus I love having little surprises to look forward to everyday in the whole month <3 <3

Q23 : Do you check the account out when someone follows you?

Yup yup I always do! though i'm not always following back everyone immediately, its still a great way to discover new people and targets.

Q24 : Have you ever made an attack for someone that wasn't a regular drawing? (a craft or animation for example)

i did animations if that counts!

Hapiharo au excitement!!:DD I'm so happy to draw this ideas that been roaming on my mind since last year! Allow me to ramble about the working process of this set

— 01/10/2024

As an opening to October... Initially I wanted to make animation out of this Wolf drawing. Like the classic scene whereas the wolf were caught doing her thing (re : munching her brunch). Yet she immediately noticed your presence few meters away. By the sound of your feet stomping on the leaves? Or perhaps your smell?

I figured out animations would took too much time. 😓 Regular illustration would be good enough with this time restraint!

Took a quite a while before I decide how the final art would end like. Asked my risma pardner for the wolf's eyes treatment. I decided to go w/ the 1st version this time. That eerie feeling... looks nice. At least to give an intimidating first impression before the truth unfolds >:)

This wolf drawing could be seen as her first encountered either with the red riding hood and/or the hunter. The prologue, for sure.

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— 03/10/2024

Gun down or gun up?

I asked few friends' opinion on my sketches... Most vote went to the 1st one a.k.a gun down! I personally like that one too, i want to draw the hunter as hot cool as possible (trying! my best)

I like how the 1st choice got interpreted as "The Hunter is appearing cautious--all skeptical--as he searches for the feared beast. He lowered his rifle as soon as he realized something is off. Well, it's still the prologue after all!"

So I proceed with that first sketch. My only concern was that his holding-the-riffle pose wasn't clearly visible when cropped to the composition. I still keep the other two version of the sketches, I could still use it for something in the future. Also IDK how to draw riffle for real. JKSDAJKFS BUT thanks CSP gallery for having that free 3D asset. Huge lifesaver!!! I can draw hapiharo doujinshi!!!!

This Hunter drawing was finished and published 5 days later, irl coming in the way @ most of part oof.

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— 11/10/2024

Finally getting the time to start working on Mikakazukin!! he he he. I came up with various sketches (there are 5 of them but I decide to only show these two!)

As usual, asked my risma pardner to vote again.. The 1st one has a pretty good composition and pose! I like it... but the foreshadowing-lore-accurate sketch was the winner. 😇 (aka the second sketch)

The Red Ridng Hood seemed like she was caught off guard. Looking down, realizing that she might've stepped...onto..something. That led to her first encounter with the wolf.

I thought the second one also has a matching vibe with the rest of the set. The first one is like.. good for aesthetic-purposes.

Writing "Red Riding Hood" takes too much space on the ribbon. So I decided to stick with "The Villager" title for her. It matched the whole set better 🤝😉 Since lil red riding hood wasn't the main focus on this AU, villager suits her too story-wise hehehe

The Red Riding Hood drawing completed the quickest among the other two. I didn't spend too much time pondering what to add or what to fix. It was posted on the next day.

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Ok maybe thats all the rambles for this set! Crosses finger I could somehow draw the stories as comics. I feel like I've been cooking quite well for this AU ^_^ if not this month, definitely next year.

Hopefully i'll be able to cook one more thing by the end of october :D

od im so slow... but thats okay i'd like to take all the time i can to pursue what i passion for. Commissioning someone else for this AU been a very hard to achieve due to lot of reasons. So i'll try to cook it myself!!!!

Darlene

When i was writing her in early development. She was unnamed yet, she's a typical woman with the habit of using various pet names toward others. She says "oh dear," frequently and address her children or husband with "honey, sweetheart, darlings" etc.

I empty-headedly calls her Darlene—something that sounded similar to darling. It had became her name now ; v ; <3

George

okay so the name "George" randomly sticks in my brain when I saw his visual. I feel it resonated with him. So i just go with it without much thinking~ Then I remembered that name came from the classic movie Back to The Future, George Mcfly. I was like.. oh..! OHH..?!?! These two are similarly boyfailures who were fortunate enough to meet their true love after falling from a tree or fences! Haha. (ps. editing this gif outta the movie clip makes me nostalgic, i'm going to rewatch this movie sometime soon :D)

Allen and Frey

's names were randomly picked. No special meaning behind it, wasn't expecting i would be greatly attached to them.....i used to regret on how poorly they were named.. sadly I figured out it's too late to change their names LOL (Unless i extremely changing my mind in the future)

However i coped by giving middle + last names that i like for them and accepted it just fine now! Additionally they share similarly AL in their names...(which has become an advantage for their story ;) they noticed each other presences in class because their names are next to each other on the student list hehe)

Allen Gracelaine (fullname)

I found the word "Elaine" on google that means bright, sunray, shining light. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. Allen Elaine funnily rhymes with each other, but its too short. So I mashed it with the word "Grace", its second alternative that i liked for Allen.

Bam! → Gracelaine. If you put together, Allen Gracelaine could be roughly translated as a rock that shine brightly with gracefulness.💛 I really love her name... Tho im not sure if she has a family name included. It might have some connection to her family background that yet to be revealed.

the jaiden siblings

As Frey was previously explained above, 'Mika' was also randomly popped out in my head, I think its cute! When I brainstormed for the jaiden siblings full names. I browsed through "christian baby names list" on google..... until i can find something that resonated with them LOL.

Michaella was fitting for Mika's fullname. I like how Rafael rhymed with Alfrey, as if they were reversed. Suitable for brothers who are twins.

By the way, I feel like if Alfrey wasn't named Alfrey, i'd call him "Nathaniel" ... i decided to put it as his middle name. The rest of his siblings' mid name are still wip tho X9

BONUS : Waffle the dog

I... dont quite remember why i named him Waffle exactly. Pretty much randomly thinking food names that matched him. But in the story, he does have a reasoning of the name. In his profile, it's written ;

Puppy Waffle used to sit watching mom cook every morning, making him smell like breakfast. For the most part, it'd be waffles. :)

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i think thats all i could write for allen & co. casts for now. The rest of side characters' name are mostly randomly picked, not yet published for public even. Will update it once i have new characters with established design.

I've written the PABears as well, but I might.....just post it separately because ;) it turned out even longer and its better if i make a specific post.

[ artist : kowori ]

Last month I discovered this artist opened a new surprise me YCH with a cooking game theme. I immediately, excitedly, tried to send a request for Jake and Rose!!! Oh look at how cute they are.. I've watched this gif for days...!! T__T

I love it so much! I love how they incorporated the lil details, decorations and color palette to match their worldview and visual design 🥹🥹 Please notice that Rose's cooking skill is LEVEL MAX!! Well-deserved...

ALSO ALSO, I wrote whether If it's possible to include the 4 kids cameo. 👉👈 My proposed idea was... what if the kids shows up as judges who rate the dishes that jkrs made? (to replace the stars rating)

And I was surprised to see the final result!! I appreciate that they willing to do it!! Aaaaaaa this GIF is absolutely adorable and the best thing I received that month ;.; i'm so in love..

(?????? yuki disapproving avocado toast is coincidentally very in character … 🥑)

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I'm a big fan of their pixel artwork! It's sooo cute. i commissioned a pixel clutter for furerenmika and been using it for their toyhouse icons! I thought it'd be nice to have my other OCs getting one too. Their ych is always adorable as well... (Sketched out a rough draft for Eli's pixel clutter long time ago... havent got chance to comm her to complete the set..)

Though i'm unsure if i can send a request again without bothering them with my comm request.. :.) let's see... <- too anxious of being a repeat client

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ANYWAYS!!! I'm very glad that i've been slowly trying to comm people drawing PABear on skeb... (最近はPABearファミリーもskebで絵をもらえるようになって嬉しいです！) So here are some compilation from 2023~April 2024!

[Artist credits from left to right : melome, shima, takoya, karu, toriba, inonino]

Most of the artists drew my OCs plenty times already and I'M SO HAPPY to get chance seeing PAB family to get drawn by them!!! They are adorable... <3 ;o; thank you so much!!!!