#crimson.task

III. REGRET

 Weekly, we will be giving everyone an optional writing exercise via prompt. This should be placed on the dash as a self paragraph to answer the question. You can speak from a first-person or third-person point of view, or answer the question in story format—however feels right for your character ! We hope this will help with developing your characters, and maybe act as a fun little writing exercise to keep muse levels high. This is an optional task, but if you’d like to get your creative juices flowing and pump some new muse back into your character, we highly encourage completing the prompt.

IV. CHILDHOOD

Weekly, we will be giving everyone an optional writing exercise via prompt. This should be placed on the dash as a self paragraph to answer the question. You can speak from a first-person or third-person point of view, or answer the question in story format—however feels right for your character ! We hope this will help with developing your characters, and maybe act as a fun little writing exercise to keep muse levels high. This is an optional task, but if you’d like to get your creative juices flowing and pump some new muse back into your character, we highly encourage completing the prompt. 

II. Sacrifice

Weekly, we will be giving everyone an optional writing exercise via prompt. This should be placed on the dash as a self paragraph to answer the question. You can speak from a first-person or third-person point of view, or answer the question in story format—however feels right for your character ! We hope this will help with developing your characters, and maybe act as a fun little writing exercise to keep muse levels high. This is an optional task, but if you’d like to get your creative juices flowing and pump some new muse back into your character, we highly encourage completing the prompt.

V. GREED

Weekly, we will be giving everyone an optional writing exercise via prompt. This should be placed on the dash as a self paragraph to answer the question. You can speak from a first-person or third-person point of view, or answer the question in story format—however feels right for your character ! We hope this will help with developing your characters, and maybe act as a fun little writing exercise to keep muse levels high. This is an optional task, but if you’d like to get your creative juices flowing and pump some new muse back into your character, we highly encourage completing the prompt.

what was the last thing your character deeply regretted?

When I first came to this country I was faced with many trials. It was difficult for me to adapt, due to cultural differences, and language barriers. The family that I had built up in my head were isolated from me due to my own false judgements. I believed they wanted to keep me from learning about their lives. I thought this Russian-American family, might as well be, just typical Americans. I judged them on how they acted towards me and it resulted in me choosing to isolate myself. Another year has passed and I have started to come out of my shell, so to speak. I am more open with people, developed stronger friendships with my cousins, and have learned to express myself.

It’s hard when you come from such a soviet country where you’re used to doing things in this way. There’s no small talk, no friendly hello’s on the street, and the people are driven towards working hard. I thought some of my family were just these lazy or stupid people. There was even a point in my life where I was willing to leave it all behind. Move out completely from the Vasile manor and focus on just getting money and running back home. I have more of a voice now because I have chosen to work through my relationships with them. We might still have different opinions over certain topics but that is the beauty of family. We can have those differences but you will always know they have your back.

My family are strong people and I have seen what they would do to people who betray them or hurt them. The moment I witnessed someone get tortured because they tried inflicting pain on me was the realization that they will protect me. I will do whatever I can do protect my family and the people close to my family. I regret the ill thoughts I had towards them and will work on myself. I am a Vasile and I will not run away from my problems. I will show these people that I am here for them and I will get them out of difficult situations no problem.

what was the last thing your character deeply regretted?

I remember that moment. The moment I woke up in that hospital room and remembered feeling regret as I thought about her. I regretted entering into something I knew was taboo. I regretted allowing her to see my vulnerable side. I regretted not trusting her judgement as she reached for that vase and hit me upside the head with it. Diamond is someone I care about deeply, and just the thought of me believing she had betrayed me, corrupts my every day thoughts. 

I wake up and she’s there. She’s beaming next to me with this sensational, angelic smile that captivates my very existence. Her presence alone is something I want to keep around me for as long as I can. When we’re on cloud nine our bodies, soul, and typical routine just seem so perfect. When she’s feeling down and has entered that abyss where no one shall enter, God, it  makes me want to smash down those walls and help her. I never thought about loving someone as much as I do, Diamond. I never thought in a million years I could find someone that fills me with such passion--words can’t  describe it. Words can’t do it justice. 

She is my love, someone whom I feel will be very important in the future. I also regret the day I might end up hurting her. The day  I will have to make a decision where it’s either my family or hers. This family, The  O’Shea’s, even the fucking Walsh’s, are people that I have given my loyalty to and have taken me in. I would do  everything in my power to make sure they rise to the top. However on this journey, I realized something, that one person could change my perception. She might bring me to that traitorous title. A title I never wanted. I pray that one day I’m able to express to the family my love for her and how I can’t see myself with anyone else. 

My deepest fear is also my greatest desire. I wish to stay with this woman and I regret that small bit of myself that doesn’t believe in this relationship.