#cries?

flips threw notes. No definitely there’s something i

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You’re not the typical rich asshole that flaunts their wealth n status to get whatever whenever and he’s just,, not used to it :((( having been forced to harden his heart since birth, it’s unsettling to him,, unnerving even. reminds him of megumi’s mother almost—

no bc... this.... this is a concept... this...

thinking about toji who has hardened himself up with the expectation of sex while being a sugar baby. he just kind of assumes that's what they want and honestly... he thought it was bullshit at first when you asked for only platonic companionship.

he also... thinks it's weird that you're not fucking 70 years old, but around his age. like... it actually kind of pisses him off because he doesn't get it. you're pretty and you're rich so why the fuck are you paying some dude to hang out with you. literally... just hang out?

n he's surprised to find that you actually do just want companionship. the normal kind where y'all go out to lunch or watch movies in a house way too large for you. toji learns about your background, that it's (in a way) a little similar to his. that you're lonely and didn't know how to fix it because if everything feels superficial anyway, might as well pay for it too.

eventually, he starts hanging out without getting paid and literally... surprises himself? he could be making bank but instead, he's sending you a vague text first and showing up at your house and eating your snacks. for like... free. and it kind of pisses him off, the way you curl up on the couch next to him and just... watch the tv... expecting nothing more than a friend. and it pisses him off even more when he realizes that he considers you a friend too.

toji gets a little weird in the middle when he realizes he likes you. like likes you. he really hasn't felt this way since megumi's mother and it freaks him the hell out. even the money feels a little icky now... he just kind of... wants to be near you. in every capacity.

woah.. big one!

an evening in amsterdam, i was on a school trip there. we went swimming in the river, had pizza and weird alcohol that was so delicious and watched the sunset. i still have a scar on my leg from that day.

ironically i don’t talk to any of those people anymore but that moment filled me with bliss

thank you for asking!