#creativekas

It’s been a while

Was bored and decided to play with filters

Hmmm...Sit and you really wonder if you’re still overthinking situations.....it’s probably just because of what people put in your head, now its kind of stuck and make you start to second guess everything but one thing is for sure... your feelings... you’re just really confused about everything and not sure how to go about any of it. you have an idea but now you’re second guessing yourself. 

When you feel like you're not good enough....it can be a disappointing feeling...feels like you've been waiting for something but now you start feeling as if you're not wanted. You feel like you should walk away for the person to be happy but you don't want to because you feel as though you make them happy but you're not sure. Now you lay there confused. Not sure what they think. Not sure what they want. But you're sure you want to be with them but can't even say those words. All you can do is show them and hope they see that you truly want to be with them....

What did I do? Is there something wrong with me? Why don't you trust me? Why do you see me as such an unloyal person? I'm know I'm pretty odd but I'm an introvert. I like staying to myself so why would I bother talking to other people. People get on my nerves lol I'm as odd as how people explain what a camera is. A camera is a box with a hole in it. In the simplest of terms, I'm a unique weirdo lol ha I like that ~creativekas

Staring at my hands, I reach out up above. Wondering what will I grasp. Is it love? Is it a dream? Will I find myself? Or will I fall to the depths of a lonely path? Think of yourself at a ball and dancing all around the room. It seems as though you’re laughing and smiling and dancing all around but the moment you open your eyes. You realize… it was only you in that ballroom. You weren’t dancing with anyone. You were alone. ~

It’s not good to hold things in. Holding in emotions, feelings about a situation, or anything of that sort. You’ll only become a ticking time bomb just waiting to blow up. And believe me, the blow up won’t be pretty. We’re at a time in life where there shouldn’t be anything to hide. Just say how you feel when you feel it. It’s a bit understandable when you’re upset because you don’t want to say it and be rude about it. I always try to wait when I calm down first. But I know some people aren’t very good at getting their feelings across or you may feel like your feelings don’t matter in general. That’s understandable as well but you may hurt the person who actually feels as though your feelings matter when you don’t even care about your own feelings. I would know. I’m used to saying “fuck it” when it comes to my feelings. It’s only because I eventually get over it. But going back to the topic. Don’t hold in emotions, especially to people who care for you. You’ll only hurt them in the end and possibly push them away. Then you’re back to square one, being lonely and hurt.