i appreciate that i have the privilege of fucking around and finding out tbh. i really doubt any risky thing i do will truly ruin my life unless I really do something crazy and just kind of throwing my eggs in a risky basket is increasingly a thing that feels. just as valuable as putting my all into a more traditional or safe thing. like. I'm not going to find it within myself to be a traditional person. so. i guess I'm given this distinct privilege i might as well use it while not falling for the pitfalls a lot of people in my position might




















