So at level 45 you get artifact gear of what your specific class wore and, well, for some reason summoners in FF wear horns on their head and instead of being confused like I am, Alex decides to crack a joke at my expense.

Heartless bastard.

I COULDN'T STOP BURSTING OUT LAUGHING BECAUSE WOW--

I say as I remember my phase wherein I listened to Gravitation music a lot even though I never liked Shuuichi because Ryuuichi please my happy smiling Ryuu-chan who is more than just a silly amazing singer and hnnnghnajfawfhbauwfjhnfe 

Shelby - I really honestly can't write something like this and not start with you. It's unfair and might make others feel they're not as special, which is utterly untrue and just silly, but your name is honestly the first that came to mind because I cannot thank you or appreciate you enough. Though you have so many things that hurt you and bother you and make life just difficult for you more than daily, you're always accepting and willing to listen to my silly woes and simply be there. I don't know how I even came to be as close to you as I am now but I am so utterly thankful and I can't say how much I love you enough for standing beside me and being level headed when I am beyond such. For all the times you had to listen to me, for all the hurt I've caused you by simply talking to you, for all the tears I stained your shoulders with -- thank you so much for being my friend, my best friend and the one friend I simply want to be happy because there is nothing, nothing in the world you deserve more. 

Selphie - I know I've already said as such, but I still don't know how you can be so strong and kind and loving when the few times you've allowed others to see your tough times, you're always instantly there to support the people around you and to tell them that they're cared for and loved. You don't know how many times your messages in my inbox made me feel so loved and important when I felt anything but because I couldn't see how someone like myself could be worth anyone feeling that for me. Thank you so much for being the light when I am only ever able to look down. Thank you for helping me lift my head up and feel that I am important and that I am worth something and that people care for me. 

Sanna - I will forever think of you when I think of the song O Joanna because I still want to follow you around and breathe heavily at your sheer presence. I know we're not as close and I know that is utterly because I am constantly unable to truly hold conversation with anyone and hold myself back because I am in a constant worrying and fearful state that I am not entertaining enough or that I will eventually bore you and other people. You always, always make me laugh and smile with your posts on my dash, your utter distaste of puns, your love of cheesy puffs, your love affair with pineapples and your warming relationship with Shelby. I want so much for you both to be able to be together and do all the silly little things I always see you reblogging because it's awful not being able to do something so simple with someone you love so much. And despite not being as close as I wish and want us to be, you're always so willing and ready to provide an ear and a shoulder and unbiased advice. There are times where I wish I could be as confident and sure and strong as you, but I know I shouldn't because I can only be me but I want to be able to be as sure as you, as confident and as strong. I know this is entirely not much, that I can't say enough about how much I am thankful for you and for Shelby, but please accept how little these words are as they come from nowhere else but my heart. 

Aniki - We've only started speaking recently and obviously we don't know each other very well and you still intimidate me but not for any scary or bad reason -- you're just really someone I don't know how to speak to because you're the type of person, the type of friend everyone wants but very few ever get the chance to find and I don't know if I'm worth any of the trouble to be called a friend. Like with Sanna, I want to be able to get to know you more, but I'm an entirely and wholly boring person with nothing to offer but it doesn't mean I don't appreciate all that you've done for me when I've really only offended and hurt you. It's always fun to play Tera with you, it's always great to see others tease you about your likes or your Shrimp fetish and I still will forever picture you as Aomine with only legs. I hope and wish and want for you to continue to be this amazing person and friend for not only to Shelby and Sanna, but to all those who are lucky enough to have your unwavering support. Thank you for allowing me to even the chance to talk to you and to think I can be called a friend. Just thank you. 

Whisper - There seems to be a trend of me wanting to be closer friends with people, but unable to because it's scary to open up and because I just can't spread myself so thin. Like Aniki, you intimidate me but not in a bad way, more of in an awe-inspiring way. We rarely even speak but just... you really have helped and just your words of support, kindness and encouragement, of telling me I'm not alone, that I'm not the only one scared and that it's okay to fear the things I do, to be frightened... thank you. I can only hope I can provide the same comfort and support to you in turn and I can only hope I can manage to keep you in my life for however long you'll allow it. 

I know these words are hardly enough to show my full appreciation to each and every one of you and please do not look at the length of any and feel as if you don't mean as much. I'm just really awful and words and expressing my feelings until it all reads the same and no, no none of you deserve repeated words when you all have done so much for me.