#crashing 2016

Sam is living a lie, he’s literally a realtor. He lies about his wants, he hides away in his asshole persona because that lifts the burden of being able to Actually trust others as well as even the slightest chance of being known, of anyone finding out the truth.

Fred is great, the only one I can believe actually going to therapy in this show but there is a literal self-harm threat made by him in the show and his relationship with Sam is an extent of that. He doesn’t realise how much his way of going about life is hurting him.

Kate is so anal, she doesn’t love her fiancé, she doesn’t orgasm, she’s deeply unhappy but that’s the life she set out to have for herself. And she Knows Anthony does not love her but maybe that’s what makes it so comfortable, maybe she even chose him specifically for that (she knows of Lulu at the start of the show and she’s not an idiot). She chose a life full of people who don’t love her and partys she can’t have fun at (because she always knows where the treasure is, there’s probably a metaphor there for someone smarter to figure out).

Anthony is childish and aimless, comfortable in the mundane. That’s why him and Lulu get along so well, they’re both stuck in their childhood jokes and pranks with the constant motif of bullshitting even though they’re supposed to be the two people who know each other best in the world. His most telling scene is asking Lulu to tell him what to do because that’s what he wants most. He wants to be told how to live his life. Maybe because he’s just like that, maybe because he’s missing half of his heart (Lulu has been gone for a long long time). That’s definitely why he picked Kate, at first glance a woman with a plan, who has her shit together, who is more comfortable doing everything herself and that’s why he tries to make it work with her so badly. He picked the easy way out, the non-choice, the just leave it be and let others decide and that’s what makes him so miserable.

Lulu is on the path to self distruction from the moment we meet her. Yes, she didn’t move to London to break up Anthony and Kate but she did stay to hurt herself. She loves him so much it hurts and the worst part is that they are perfect for each other they just can’t do anything about that. So she fucks Sam and gets drunk all the time and can’t think of a future for herself. Because the only person who truly loves being around her is Anthony and he’s engaged. And she has to bullshit her way out of every situation, can’t have a honest conversation even though that’s what she craves most - truth (like the songs)

i spent longer on this playlist than the runtime of the entire show.

listen here.

Jonathan Bailey as Sam in Crashing Season 1, Episode 1

CRASHING (2016)  Episode One.