I'm here I'm here I'm here
And I'm panicking about it
Ahhhhhh
Okay so. Flashback obviously. Brain has been really heavy on fire. And it started when friend came over and gave me a gift.
I learned on my birthday this year that receiving gifts can trigger huge feelings of shame and ineptitude and unworthiness and just. Feels bad!!!! In other ways don't have words for yet.
Okay great info but very difficult to deal with in the moment ahhhhhh
I shall consult the 13 steps for managing flashbacks and see what I can do.











