â COYOTEFACED, in his LETTERS TO THE CAP'N:
   charring meat. a line of dusky purple out along the horizon that turns the sky an ugly, bruised color, the very shade of a rough night out on the town. perhaps only for the likes of them, though. town sat fifty miles north, and consisted of maybe a gas station, if they were lucky. a bar, should Lady Luck be that much kinder. but no safety lay in the neon lights of civilization, not right now, perhaps not for a while. just salvation in what little glow they can make themselves between the god-monuments that broke the skyline. he flicks the meat off the fire with his knife.
   â you should eat, tooâ
   if you can. if you want to.
⯠OH, THIS IS RATHER SWEET, ACTUALLY, IN THESE CHILLING
  WINDS OF AN ARIZONA EXPANSE HERE AS THE DAY DUSKS
  GRACEFULLY WITH THAT SHADE OF PURPLE YOU CALL A BRUISE
  BUT FOR I, A LIGHTLESS WRETCH FROM THE COLDEST DEPTHS OF
  THE HOUSE OF JUDECA, EVEN THIS LIGHT IS A BLESSING FROM GOD.
  YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE COLD AND THE DARK BENEATH
  FROM THE PLACES IâVE BEEN
  TO THE PLACES I WILL RETURN
  A PRISONER AND ALSO ITâS REVOLUTIONARY LIBERATOR.
  BUT FOR A FEW MOMENTS LIKE THIS, around the campfire
  inside this quiet hideout cave retreat we make, roasting bison
  getting dirty and greasy with our hands but itâs not so bad,
  because here in our arid, rugged, rocky shore itâs just you,
  and I.
AND JESSE BREAKS THE GOLDEN silence that was otherwise washed, bruised, and battered by the incessant crackling of wood as it burns to cinders, Lord, this heavenly sound by campfire that some city folk just never live to hear. He hears a viper rattle some many yards due West, and the thought of a diamondback makes him smile. Heâs distracted, distant, sitting away from the fire, perched on a rocky protruding formation that allows him to peer at the caveâs entrance like a stalwart sentry. Or perhaps that is too glorious and dutiful for this outlaw refuge, think more of a shifty lookout, perhaps, ready to move out when they see the law riding out this way. THE KNIGHT AND THE GUNSLINGER, itâs a rather romantic tale, I think. In no other time, in no other life could you hope to find a niche romance that caters to warrior priests and gangsters alike. Nicholas Spark, I have you beat.
YOU SHOULD EAT TOO, he says. And his head turns to Jesse immediately, his own deep thoughts pierced, broken, and shattered by the suggestion. You should eat, he says. I HADNâT CONSIDERED IT, really. Itâs such an intrusive, disruptive thought that the realization makes him uncomfortable. Youâve unsettled the man now, but it makes him chuckle, shoulders relaxing, jumping with the laugh, softening expression as his eyes veer off the horizon where he patrolled for miles off like an eagle, and narrow down in what is just beyond him, this thing he loves. He tilts his head, enamored. It lets him know you care.
â...â his most famous line. THE THUNDERER descends off his rocky throne, one foot landing at a time like an angel before you, but no loud thumping upon the cave flooring could be heard. Now thatâs unsettling; perhaps he truly is Gabriel upon thee, Mary. But with Gabriels like this [...]
âSure. Could use a bite. What kinda man donât reap the bounty heâs put on the table, ainât it? Amen.â THERE WAS NO TABLE SO TO SPEAK OF but then again, there is no amen so to speak of. The graces fall upon deaf ears. Saint Alexander approaches and sits besides him by the fire, the soft glow and tints of orange upon his tanning complexion. Itâs good to be out here in the sun, in this scorching Arizona days to give a little life to his visage that had been so sickly pale and neglected and shunned away from Godâs own light. BARE HANDS INTO THE FIRE, pulling a piece from the rather large chunk of the roast hung over their fire, he takes a serrated blade and rips himself a large, albeit still bitesize piece. Inspects it with great care, pondering the implication of what heâs about to do, this sinful, heinous crime. To eat like the common man. Thereâs that greasy, small, thick cube of buffalo upon his hands, it still bleeds lightly pink when he squeezes it. God, itâs just fucking right. He looks into Jesseâs eyes to ensure heâs paying very close attention to what heâs about to witness, smug, playful look of mischief. You may never see him do this again, with him, every small thing is a matter of discovery and reformulating world views contrary to what the madres at the abbey or the orphanage taught you. For these answers you seek would never be found at home.
âItâs a lilâ raw, I reckon.â The pinkish grease sliding down his wrist and not much further, but with eyes still locked on his, St. Alexander sucks the dancing tips of the flame into his lungs, these reactive, combusting gasses still lit and, with a lot of dexterity, blows it directly upon the raw face of his meat cut, searing it shut. A bit of smoke rising out of his nostrils as he exhales. He canât keep a straight face, breaking into laughter, eyes close, face shying away but that bright smile he tried to conceal. This playfulness, the magic tricks, the silly eyes and the wanting to entertain another: it hadnât felt like him for a while. âPerfect now. My compliments to the chef, yeah?â And he slipped it up his tongue as though catching a popcorn with his mouth in the movies. And he remembers when Raiders of the Lost Ark was on screen.