#countygirldatingproblems

Super cute. His eyes give me Jackson Avery (grey’s anatomy) vibes in person. He’s average build, short-almost shaved brown hair, blue eyes. He was wearing dark parts and a quarter zip grey knit sweater with dress shoes. Sooo cute. Very soft personality as well. Passionate but kind and somewhat quiet. He didn’t leave any lulls in conversation but you can definitely tell he’s the guy who would be okay with silence.

I met T about 7 months ago... he was working at an axe throwing company. I went for my best friend’s birthday and he was the teacher. We were flirting quite a bit. He’s got beautiful blue eyes and a nice beard. And all the girls were talking about how cute he was and how I should ask him for his number. By the time we went to finish up, he had left already, his shift was over. I was soooo sad. The girls at the party were trying to help me figure out how I could still get his number. They thought he was super hot and very flirty with me. The next day I found him on Instagram and added him. He accepted and immediately messaged me.

T: “... you were at axe throwing on Saturday right?”

K: “yes..”

T: “ you must have done some digging to find me??”

K: “yes, sorry if that’s weird. But I thought you were so cute and you had left before I could leave my number...”

T: “don’t be sorry! I thought you were really cute too... I was definitely checking you out.”

Anyway we texted for about a week after this and nothing came of it. About a month later he randomly messaged me and we talked again for a short period, at that time I was going away on vacation, when I got back.. things had petered off. At some point in there he randomly added me of Facebook so I knew he was still thinking of me. Sometime after that I got some liquid courage and asked him if we could just get a drink to break the ice. We agreed on a date and it didn’t work out last minute.

Last week I posted something on my Instagram and T messaged me about it. We got to flirting and he started texting me again. Then asked for my Snapchat. We talked for a couple days and again agreed we should hang out. He talked to me everyday leading up to it. When the day came I thought it wasn’t going to happen because we hadn’t picked a time or what we were doing. Thankfully we finally did. I went over to his house and I was super nervous. I texted him before hand and said

K: “so before I come I wanna be clear. I’m not looking for a one time hookup. Im not judging if you are but it’s just not my thing so I’d rather be upfront about it before I get there. I’m also not necessarily looking for something too serious but definitely not a one time hookup”

T: “that’s not my intention either. I do plan on kissing you, and I’ll probably try to grab your butt... but I’ll also ask you to do it again.”

K: “I’m good with that. Sorry that’s awkward but I just wanna be upfront”

T: “I like your honesty, it’s refreshing”

Anyway so I went over to his house. We talked for a long while before he finally kissed me. He’s a good kisser. Starts soft and then builds. But never too aggressive. We kissed A LOT and cuddled and he tickled my leg and my side and held me tight. We watched a small bit of YOU before falling into each other and moving into the bedroom. He’s very sexy and soft and gentle yet firm. And definitely knows how to make me blush. We didn’t go too far, but just far enough. And I definitely want to do it again. Soon.

So B and I had what I thought was a perfect second date. We went to a park for a picnic, we laid in the grass for hours and chatted and kissed and touched and cuddled. He said a lot of things to me. Even told me that I wasn’t like other girls and that he was looking for a relationship with me but that he didn’t want to rush into anything. A whole lot more happened but in short it was very comfortable and affectionate. Then Monday he messaged me this (on the left). Obviously, there was my response. Respectfully I didn’t have a lot to say but I also wasn’t going to not respond to him. Today he messaged me again (on the right). Listen B - the problem is that at this point, it’s no longer about you. You’ve said your peace. I responded respectfully. Now you’ve messaged me again, and made it so that I now have to comfort you and make you feel better for not liking me? I get that you’re young. But this is something you need to realize. At this point it’s no longer about you. You need to leave it alone.

But my question now is, why say all of the things you said to me. You met my family and when I told you you’d have to you said “well I assume I would have met them eventually” okay? I took you somewhere I love and you said “I’m guessing I’ll be coming here more often now.” Why? Why say those things and then pull a 180. I talked to my sister tonight about it. And I remembered lying in the park with you and vaguely brushing over the topic of exes (not even trying to!!) and you shut down. “Well some shit happened but that was so far in my past it doesn’t even matter”. Are you shutting me out because you’re afraid. Because you don’t need to do that!! I can wait. I can help. I like you. I liked. You.

So much shit going on.

The chronicles continue.

Finally went on a second date with B. I’ve stopped talking to the other guys.

B is so cute and sweet. We went on a picnic and just laid together and kissed and cuddled and chatted. He’s very touchy feely. And he kept saying that he liked me. Told me his favourite thing about me so far is how humble I am. I asked him what he’s looking for, and he said relationship. And I kind of made a face because his profile said “I don’t know” and he’s like “I didn’t think I was. But I like you. You’re not like other girls”

K: It's okay, I live in _____. I'll meet you there.

K:I live in ____, I can just meet you there..