#counciler

I miss having someone to talk to to, who isn't going to judge me for my warped opinions. Who will tell me that I shouldn't be ashamed to need a wheelchair, a crutch or a cane sometimes, but its perfectly okay if I wont use them. Explain to me why I have such a strong desire not to appear weak in-front of anyone including complete strangers or my closest friends and family. I need someone to agree with me desire to work even though my student finance is liveable without a job because I need to feel useful. All I've ever wanted is to be able to support myself and at the moment I'm not sure if ill ever be able to do that. Most of the time I'm in complete agony, I spend a lot of time putting on a front so people don't notice, sometimes it slips though. I spend an awful lot of time confused because of said pain, drowsy because of a mixture of pain meaning I don't sleep and medication and struggling to keep myself steady because of medication and pain. Basically I've had enough. I'm not sure if I want to do this any more. And I reckon most people would be so much better without me as a burden in their lives, constantly slowing down or just being a grumpy twat because I'm in so much pain.   

Just kidding I hate everyone.