thank you! i already feel wise beyond my years

hi, willow!!!!

3. what fic are you emotionally attached to?

lover, these hands carry by asifnotbound. I'm not just saying that because the fic was updated recently. But dear god I'm so invested in the concept (the chapter starts with a starter word for wordle!) and the slow-burn nature of the relationship. Joe sees Nicky on the train with him on each morning commute, and there is something very beautiful about how their romance sloooowly evolves from their friendship. asifnotbound does a marvelous job of finding the beauty in the mundane actions of everyday life.

wait i was supposed to talk about one of my fics.

Uhhhh... I am deeply attached to all the night-tide for various reasons. 1. This is How You Lose the Time War is a banger of a novella that we need more AUs of. 2. Blue/Red parallels Andy/Quynh, the idea of two immortals learning to fight side by side only to be separated by tragic circumstances. I also worked really hard on restraining my usual style so that I could evoke the novella's better. Plus, how could I not use Edgar Allan Poe as an inspiration for the title?

12. What’s your perfect environment to create/write?

It's an early morning in my apartment. I have already said hello to my neighbor's cat who likes to wander the hallway. My buttered toast with eggs has just been eaten. The playlist I've curated helps ease the story to life. I am content.

20. What's the greatest gift you've gotten from your writing?

Simple: G rated masochism, that's all it is. It hurts to see our favorite characters reduced to shells of their former selves. Some being perfected to unlikable levels, others demonized to impossible levels. It hurts our hearts and makes us rage. But, damn it, we know we enjoy it on some sick, twisted level. Why else do I love to keep rereading those damn fics The Last War and The Real Us?

...

Those fics.  Those two fics. 

angie, I am so sorry for making you read the real us. 

The hatred is strong, and oh my god just full of ??????!!!!??? and ?????????????!!!!!?????!!!!!!!!!! with a steady string of ??????????????????????????????.

I have read some really squicky things, but holy shit. I--so underage--what the fuck--a part of me had died a painful death. 

Oh Zadi, we’ve ALL read the fics…Those glorious, glorious *clenches fist* GLORIOUS out of character fics….A sick pleasure, it is….

We deserve medals and more therapy. 

I have been dead inside since 8:00PM last night, Zadi. I am at this state of screw everything but also hope for the future.

i’ve been dead since, oh, two this morning, i think? 

you know when you’re a child and you have this idealized idea of what our country is supposed to be? and then you get older and those rose-colored shades get cracked and broken bit by bit? because of history lessons, because of the things they don't teach you in school, because of micro aggressions that you and loved ones face? 

‘but america isn’t like that!’ people say when you try to voice your worries. ‘you’re worrying too much! no one actually believes in those ideas!’ 

and then this happens. 

well, not just this, but the build up of events and how people aren't listening when you’re saying that there’s a problem. 

and then this happens. 

And from the werewolf side honestly Leah was the most interesting of them all and she got nothing but endless bullshit from the characters and the story....

Yeah! She is like... the only female werewolf in existence and maybe the first one in her kind and everyone hate her guts because she loves Sam (and he a piece of shit).