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Block (@JustCallMeBlock) Ft. Coress ‘New Kid On The Block’

Off his Billboard Music project released earlier this year, Block drops his latest effort “New Kid On The Block” featuring Coress, produced by Dangerous MCs.

Borrowing from NKOTB classics “Step by Step” and “You Got The Right Stuff,” Block is bringing a little fun to hip hop that 80′s babies will be sure to enjoy.

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Lame. Oh my God this is so lame. Sorry, I'm not a big letter writer but I guess this is more your thing considering you're a pretty bad texter. Not that you're not getting there because you totally are. Anyway, not the point. I'm sorry, I suck at this. The words thing, the goodbye thing and I wish I could have done this in person. You have no idea how much I wish I could have done this in person but I'm scared and a total wimp so I decided to do this instead.

I don't even know what I'm supposed to be writing. I don't know what to say, what I'm supposed to say. I hope you don't hate me for doing this. You'd have every right to. You tried so hard with me and I let you down, a lot. I'm sorry about that too because I know you were only trying to help and I did nothing but bite your head off-- figuratively. I don't know what I would have done without you there that first night I got back. I'd probably be dead right now, or worse. And you helped me, you didn't have to do that but you did and I am so grateful for everything you've done, okay? I appreciate you so much. But okay, here's the thing. It's not you, it's me.

Yeah, it gets lamer. I'm really lame right now. Either way, it's true. It's a sucky line but it's true. You are so good, and so wonderful and you being a vampire is something you can do. You're so close to being human, you're probably more human than the actual humans. You're kind and honest and genuine. People are so rarely genuine anymore. I know you want to be as far from a 'monster' as you possibly can be, that you want to feel more human but I don't think you could be monstrous even if you tried. Not really. You care too much and contrary to popular belief that is a good thing. That is a great thing. That's one of the things about you that saved me. Because you totally saved me. Whenever I felt like I couldn't do it anymore, you were there. You were always there. You let me into your home, your family when I felt like I had no one. I had no one. But I had you.

Okay so here comes the super lame part. Yeah, it gets worse. So I kind of love you Corey Andrews. And not like a friend. I'm in love with you and it sucks. I hate it. I hate it so much. Being around you is hard and it hurts and it's not supposed to, and it's not your fault. God, it is not your fault because you have done nothing but be good to me. And knowing you, knowing how good a person you are makes this a little easier because I know Ruby will be safe, cared for and most importantly loved. I know you'll look after her even when she doesn't want it. And I don't know, I don't know if this is just a phase, or if I latched onto you because you were the first person to pull me out of this neverending spiral of darkness and pain, and blood but it happened. Maybe it's not real, because I'm a vampire and my emotions are out of control but it feels real to me right now.

That's not why I'm going though so please, please do not blame yourself. I literally forbid you from blaming yourself.

I've done some really bad things Corey, and maybe in a hundred years it won't feel so bad anymore but right now I can hardly face myself. This monster that's inside me. This blood lust. I have felt the most terrifying needs. I've wanted to hurt-- to kill people I love. Wanted to. And I can't continue to put them at risk. Maybe it's stupid and selfish, but hey I'm stupid and selfish. You know that already. So I have to get away, it's not forever, I promise. I just need time. Time to think. Time to do this on my own, to sink or swim. Because it's too hard being here. I'm not brave or strong or smart, and I can't do this.

So go on without me, I know you can. Look after my best friend, and your brothers. Even Chris. Have a good human life if that's what you want because you deserve everything you want, and I want you to be so happy Corey. So happy. So please do that. Do that for me, but more importantly do that for you.

Thank you, I'm sorry I couldn't say it any better but thank you.

Love,

Jess xxx