Been really deep in Disco Elysium lately... Theres never been a more relatable protagonist than Harry Du Bois.
And... I find him an inspiration, honestly. He's a huge mess. He's done so much wrong, and is dealing with such severe depression and addiction and grief. His actions are a great big ball of unraveling insanity.
But he's still out here trying. He's still pushing and fighting and existing. He's still getting things done.
Ive been going through shit lately, as im sure most people are right now, but i want to live and enjoy life and build a future. Ive found that within myself, despite my depression and health issues, but ive been struggling to find the energy to push, to fight. I keep getting knocked back down! I keep making ridiculous mistakes! I feel like i am acting without thought more often, ive been feeling more creature-like than ever. I am definitely feeling like the hugest failure.
But if Harry Du Bois can be the actual biggest mess of a being and still solve a murder and maybe change the fate of a whole district, I totally could, too!
