Hey what's up guys!!

i feel great now... end of, no complaints whatsoever!! I'm actually going to write about the good things im going through and what i have to look forward to for once ;)

I finally found what i was looking for, i found an amazing woman and got a relationship with her and she's just beyond anything i could've hoped for; beautiful, caring, considerate, funny... She seems to support me what i choose to do and she likes me for me which is amazing as i don't come across a lot of people who really understand me so to have that one person is fantastic, incredible that it's her!

I can sense my resurface on the BBC front again now, I'm making some music which i know is going to kill that radio station and change a lot of perspectives on me, for good or bad, i will probably lose a lot of fans with this next album but i'll gain a lot more respect and i'll probably manage to vent all the tension inside. I'm really looking forward to people's opinions on my new material, i've started making this 4th album so quickly that it's having promotion issues with my third album which still isn't released yet!

I'm getting to the point now where gigging is becoming a must, which is a stage im really looking forward to, i'm finding myself addicted to that buzz when i see people getting into it and i've realised there are so many different reasons people like it, some like the flow, some like the lyrics and the message, some just like it to like it... SUPPORT IS WELCOME THOUGH! :P

I'm really looking forward to seeing where my life goes in the next year because i feel like i'm stronger than i've ever been in a long time and everything is within my control and capability again!

Okay so last night was one of my friends 18th birthday parties... awkwardly enough, my ex's best friend! So i decided to go with my best friend, take it slow (i am possibly the worse drunk who ever lived! i end up passing out disgracefully over anything that will support me... off like 2-3 pints when necked!) and have a dance.

The evening was great, people congratulated me on my success with the BBC and asked me all sorts of bizarre questions, hugging me, kissing me and some flirting with me, which im pretty sure wouldn't have come without my recent success, as i am awful with women haha! 

I go and talk to jermaine about it and all he said to me was "welcome to the game buddy, you're gonna be famous, you gotta deal with this now" and i immediately knew what he meant (not that it's a difficult job, but on a deeper level), it struck me that if everything kicks off for me in February, i'm going to be famous and have some success with the music... how will i ever know if a girl im with likes me for me, or me for the spotlight!