his words felt like a slap in the face, and the petite blonde felt her eyes well up with tears despite her best intentions to remain calm in this conversation. the minute lucas mentioned marriage, it was like a bucket of ice water was dumped on her and sophia could only stare up at him, tears rolling down her flushed cheeks. they’d been together for enough time that she’d assumed eventually, she’d know everything about his job. she was even foolish enough to think that someday, they could be together and have normal jobs, not a life where she sat up all night waiting for him to come home covered in bruises or blood. what had started out as a conversation about that future had spiraled into yelling at each other, emotions heightened and careless words tossed about like they were nothing. but it certainly didn’t feel like nothing, the ache in her chest feeling as if her heart was cracked open. “you want to talk trust? let’s talk trust, lucas. you say you trust me, how about you show it? you are my entire world, a-and when you shut me out, or don’t tell me where you go for days at a time, i feel as if i need you more than you need me, and that’s fucking terrifying. i'm trying so hard not to push you away, lucas, i am holding on for dear life, but i need you to need me back. why won't you ever just let me all the way in?” at this point, her palms pushed at his chest, tears streaming down her face as she let out all of the frustration and anger she felt towards him, all of which came from such an intense love for him that it felt as if her heart was breaking. @coochicatcher