#convert problems

Somehow this one day is more exhausting than an entire *month* of holiday observances. Then again... at least the high holidays don't involve a ton of family emotional baggage for me and are at least spiritually fulfilling.

... Are they right?!

Unfortunately, I’m not sure what to tell you.... any followers have suggestions for anon?

I need to become stronger in my religion, stronger in my mentality, and — quite frankly — just learn to not give a fuck anymore. I need to learn to say: “If ya’ll don’t accept me because of this religion, so be it. I am still me; in fact, I am a better version of me. Can’t accept that? Peace.”

The Quran is poetry fam. Literally. All those surah’s are poems, so look for poetic qualities in them - repetition, rhym, etc I realized Surah Iklahs lowkey rhymes all the way down, and as soon as I did I had the whole thing memorized & my pronunciation improved!

I live in a town where there is no shul I can find. No listing, no website, nothing. No comunity center or anything iether. But recently Ive been seeing a small handfull of men in kippot around town. I kinda want to go up to them and ask "Where do you even go to shul? Is there some totaly non-listed comunity I just dont know about because I'm a crazy isolated convert wannabe?" I don't drive, and from the closest shul I can find, the last bus to where I live on Friday nights leaves before services start and the first one from here on Saterday arrives after the end of services, so I haven't gone, because I wouldn't be able to attend really. I've been studying alone and trying to keep shabbat and holidays the best I can, till I finish school and can move, but you can't really be jewish alone forever. Or really at all. How do I ask and not make it super awkward? Is that even possible?