#continuousascendant

So first I'll give you the bare bones of the reading, pick and chose what pieces you think fit ;

You - Five of Cups -- Suit Meaning : spirituality, water, emotions, and feelings -- Number Meaning : power, conflict -- Card Keywords : self pity, guilt, regret, stagnation, depression

Mituna - Five of Coins -- Suit Meaning : materialism, earth, wealth, and physicality -- Number Meaning : power, conflict -- Card Keywords : recession, adversity, isolation, unemployment, ruin

Dynamics - Reversed The Hanged Man -- Card Keywords : willfulness, useless sacrifice, rushing, thoughtlessness, martyrdom

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now ill give my interpretation! of course take my interpretation as a grain of salt and feel free to come to your own conclusions on what this reading means to you!

okay, so, i know the cards seem very sad/negative but honestly i didn't really read them that way, especially in the context of this reading being from your perspective. The way I see it is that you had a lot of unnecessary self blame, this idea that you would forever be unchanging and stuck in a feedback loop. Whether it was a situation where you needed to forgive yourself, or you were unfairly blaming yourself to begin with would be easier for you to tell. But, this makes sense with the suit, cups being a suit all about emotions and feelings, it would make sense that your personal conflict would be something that was more emotions bound. This probably causes a conflict with a lot of your relationships and this one was no different.

Mituna on the other hand, was probably struggling with self isolation, which, if your canon is like canon, could have been because of his incident. That would make sense for the physicality of the suit, for him there would be a much more physical barrier between himself and his peers and this more than likely played a role in your relationship. He probably had a hard time finding a place to fit, constantly pinging from one situation to another that made him pull away from everyone.

Then for the dynamics, I read it as you guys really did care about each other, though the willfulness to help each other was sadly at your own cost. Constantly putting yourselves in front of the other in a means to protect them from a threat that either isn't there or can be handled by the other perfectly fine. That's where more of the conflict probably came in, the idea that one of you knew what was best for the other put a strain on the relationship but I don't believe there was any malice behind it, even if it did lead to the end. The bulk of your guys' time together was probably a situation of right people, wrong time as there was a genuine connection but there was a lot of baggage on both sides that took the proper chances at a relationship from you guys.