#contalks

description: your life is pretty unremarkable. but you see wolf and maybe thats enough as you bide your time.

tags: wolf typical violence, lowkey everything as the same as the last two chapters

a/n: sorry this chapter hasnt come out sooner!!! ive been having a hard time lately...

word count: ~4,000

previous chap.

your life for the most part is uneventful. 

school, part time job, stalking wolf, and home. 

…

completely normal activities for a teenage girl. 

lately, you’ve just been biding your time. school doesn’t matter and you start to care less as the days go on. your expiration date coating your life in monotone color. 

you plaster a smile for work and nod at classmates. a completely normal girl. you think if there was a light shined upon ganghak, you’d completely fade into it. taking in all the light and not reflecting it. a completely unremarkable person. 

you have nothing to think about except this. except the money you’ll make and give back once you’re dead. and the peacefulness you’ll feel when you are gone. 

your thoughts are all consuming. you’ve long since stopped trying to distract yourself from it. you pay enough attention in class. do just enough school work. grin just enough at customers to get by. 

a completely ordinary life.

(sometimes you wonder what it would be like if you were never born. if you had never wasted such space in other people’s lives with your useless one. or if you were born as a more exceptional person.) 

(well.) 

(there’s no use in thinking about such things.) 

(either way, you’re going to fix the mistake god made by letting you be born.)

so you live and lament the fact that work is occupying your time instead of getting your daily hit of emotion through your lovely neighborhood delinquent, wolf keum. 

will be posting again when it’s his birthday in my own time zone

attack my little wolflings!!!!!!!!

really itching to write that royalty au or android au… they’re so stupid…..

because who said authors write for anyone but themselves? but themselves and the want they have to create.

i’m not a great writer. i don’t even think i’m super good but that’s the point. i write whatever I want. yes, i do write for my readers after a while because they keep me motivated and i LOVE them. but that doesn’t mean it’s not still coming from my own want to write.

never stop writing.

yes, that sentence was beautiful. yes, compare the character to a flower. yes, that transition to the new scene was shocking. yes, the description of their appearance and the metaphor matches perfectly.