#constellation.dabri

Okay so I don’t think I’ve mentioned this before and I feel it’s important to know now and moving forward! I did alter the age gaps just a smidge between the siblings in this universe because, well.. I wanted to lmfao. So Fuyumi is a year younger than Touya, Natsuo is roughly 3 ½ years younger than Touya, and Shouto is 8 years younger than Touya. (I’m two months older than Touya, but he doesn’t like when I tell people that 🤭)

The short answer is yes, Touya has and does get jealous when I spend time with his siblings, but how often and to what degree varies greatly from sibling to sibling.

Touya very rarely gets jealous about me and Fuyumi spending time together, but it has happened! When I first started going over to his house in the beginning of our relationship she was SO excited to have another girl around, so I would try and spend a bit of the time I was there talking and hanging out with her, which made Touya jealous. He wouldn’t admit it though, he would just get pouty and make snide comments about how I was there to hang out with him, not Fuyumi. Like I said, it rarely happens now, if ever. Maybe if we're at her’s for dinner or something and we start having a conversation that he can’t participate in he’ll get a lil sulky and passive aggressive, but it’s very rare.

When it comes to me and Natsuo it’s interesting because it comes in waves for Touya. Out of everyone in his family he is closest to Natsuo, which means naturally I’m also really close with Natsuo, and for a few years in the beginning that didn’t bother Touya at all. He actually was happy that I got along with him so well! Once Natsuo turned 20 though it was almost as if a switch flipped in Touya’s brain and that’s when the jealousy started. At first Natsuo and I would just ignore it because, well, it’s Touya, he’s a drama queen about everythinggg. It got to the point though where we were headed for another break up because I was soooo fed up with him constantly picking fights with me because of it. Natsuo ended up having a long talk with Touya about how stupid Touya was being and how he was self sabotaging himself in regards to our relationship. (Natsuo hates when Touya and I break up.) After that it got marginally better, and Touya actively tries to check himself on it when he does start feeling jealous now. And if he doesn’t check himself Natsuo has no problem calling him a bitch for it lmao

With Shouto…. Yeah 😕 And it’s bad. I have never spent one on one time with Shouto because I am genuinely afraid of how Touya would react. He gets jealous anytime Shouto is there when I’m hanging out with his mom and Fuyumi without him. He gets jealous if we’re all together and I sit near Shouto or spend too long talking to Shouto. He gets jealous if I text Shouto. It’s a much trickier situation than it is with Natsuo because Shouto is unfortunately and was unwillingly part of the trauma that causes Touya to be such a jealous person. We talk a lot about Shouto, we fight a lot about Shouto. To Touya’s credit, he tries really hard to be better about it, it’s just very slow going, and I try really hard not to invalidate him or his trauma surrounding it. But yeah, incredibly prone to jealousy in regards to me and Shouto.

Touya and Shiggy are life long frenemies!! People always tell them they’re so much alike and they’re always like “ugh, you think I’m like HIM? 😒” But they ARE so similar and I think that’s why they get under the other’s skin so easily. But get them drunk together? Besties. They will shoot the shit and nerd out and reminisce on the bands they’ve been in together, and then will be all “I love you, man. No one could ever come between us, not even Bri.” And why am I brought up, you ask? Haha…well funny story… you see I have this nasty lil habit of hooking up with Shiggy when Touya and I break up. It’s not every time…. but it is most of them…. (no regrets)

Spinner is Shigaraki’s best friend. Spinner fucking sucks. Spinner called me a whore and Touya beat the shit out of him for it. It made Spinner hate me even more, but that’s fine, because he fucking sucks.

HIMIKO TOGA IS MY BIOLOGICAL DAUGHTER. She’s really in Shouto’s friend group, but she lives with Twice, and we go to Twice’s place a lot, so that’s where I’ve gotten to know her. She’s the sweetest thing and we both have vials of each other’s blood. Touya says we’re clinically insane and pretends he hates us when we’re together, but I know he also has a soft spot for her.

Twice and I met randomly at a karaoke night at a bar where we both got entirely too drunk and were kicked out for singing Fergalicious 6 times in a row. He was WEIRD and I fucked with it so I decided we were friends, and then forced every one I was friends with to be friends with him. He loves Keigo and calls him his best friend, which riles Touya up because that’s HIS best friend and he’s POSSESSIVE >:(

I'm gonna start with Mr. Levi Ackerman, because I feel like I haven't talked about him in sooo long!! I miss this lil guy!!

I think it comes as no surprise to anyone that the love language Levi speaks is acts of service. He will do anything to make my life easy and comfortable, and I really mean anything, the man basically keeps my entire life in order. He drives everywhere, he loves to cook for me, he does my laundry, he loves to clean, and anytime I feel guilty and ask if I can help with any of those things he shoots me a look and a quick "don't you dare."

But it's more than just chores around the house - if my hair is all tangled he'll brush it out for me, because he knows it's hard because of the length and thickness. He'll notice my meds are getting low and ask if I've sent a refill request, and if I haven't do I want him to get send the request, and then he always is the one to pick it up for me. He carries me to bed when I'm too tired, he gives me massages if I mention something is tight or hurts. If I'm struggling to do something he is immediately there to help, which is exactly how he's been roped into doing my eyeliner everyday :) (he gets grumbly about this one, but he still does it)

What's the love language he seeks from me? Quality time. He just wants to do things with me, or just around me. There's plenty of nights spent us in the same room, reading our own books in the most comfortable silence in the world. We just like being around each other. We're really each other's best friend. :')

On to my lil freaky boi Keigo!! His main love language is physical touch, he both speaks it and seeks it. The second he's in the door he's hugging me and not letting go for a good 10 minutes. I've said this before, but he loves to man handle me, which is in direct correlation to his love language being touch. Why ask me to move if he can just move me? Why ask me to come sit on the couch with him when he can just go get me and bring me to the couch with him? The snuggliest boi there ever was, and he pouts when he doesn't get to touch me, ohh does he pout!! I toss and turn a lot when I sleep, so my go to with sharing a bed with someone is usually I'll snuggle for a bit, and then break away to sleep. Keigo has learned to be okay with this, on the one condition that I at least am touching him with my foot or hand or SOMETHING. He especially loves when I play with his hair, but we both already know how that always ends ;)

Lucky for me he's a D1 yapper, so my need for words of affirmation is always met. He tells me he loves me at least 50 times a day, if not more, he'll introduce me to people as his "favorite person in the whole world." Anytime I feel insecure or need reassurance he is always there to lift me up with the sunniest smile in the whole world.

Last but certainly not least, Touya. In true twin flame fashion, we have the exact same love languages. Also in twin flame fashion, we're both super intense in our own ways about it. Touya is incredibly, incredibly extra about quality time. It's the reason you will very rarely see one of us with out the other, the reason he won't shower if I won't go with him, or won't go to the grocery if I don't go with him. I think it physically pains him to not have me experiencing life with out him. Lucky for him I also cannot get enough of him.

Words of affirmation is the most important thing in our relationship I would say. We're both incredibly sensitive to feeling rejected or abandoned, and have a tendency to perceive the lack of words of affirmation as just that. As we've gotten older we've become better about it, so even if we're having a fight we're able to stop and say "you're pissing me off, but i love you more than anything in this world." so we don't crash out thinking the other person doesn't want us anymore.

On the flip side, we've been together so long we know exactly what the other person needs to hear to feel loved. Touya always needs to know that he's important, and that he's worthy of me and good things and love, and I always need to know that he's not going to get sick of me, that I'm not too much. We both so naturally are able reaffirm each other of those things in our day to day. We know how to love each other so well it makes me sick. Ugh. I'll never get over him

We’re gonna start with Touya and a little bit of our lore!!! Touya and I met in class on our first day of high school, and the class in question was Music Theory I. Our connection to music is such a huge part of our lil universe so I’m going to try and keep it brief and Normal but… no promises 😇

Touya and I have two songs that we would consider “our song.” The first one I’ll talk about is I Will Follow You into the Dark by Death Cab for Cutie. Waaay back in those early days during the very brief period of being friends before we started dating I had mentioned how deeply I loved the album that song is from. Fast forward to about a month into dating, we’re in his room after school one day and he said he had something to show me and proceeded to grab his guitar and play it for me 🥺I t’s sooo cheesy, but we were fifteen and in love!! We’ve probably listened to it close to a million times at this point, but it never gets old. We find an excuse to put it on nearly every playlist we make, and every time it comes on we still get a little moony about it. He’s a softie and a romantic underneath it all, never let him convince you otherwise!!!

The second song we would consider “our song” is Cemetery Weather by Isles & Glaciers. The line “I will love you until we’re buried” has become THE way we express how much we love each other. The song has this almost rainy, dreamy vibe to it, and honestly, it’s a great song to makeout to lmfao

Church by Fall Out Boy is biblically accurate Touya+Bri vibes. It’s dramatic, a little haunting, and the lyrics are dripping with intense lovesick devotion. “My sanctuary, you’re holy to me // if you were church, I’d get on my knees” Even if you took the lyrics away from the track, the instrumentation mixed with the choral vocals in the background sounds like the physical feeling I get when thinking about Touya and how I feel about him. It’s powerful, it’s potent, it’s obsessive, and it’s so fucking romantic. This song also might have come on the few times Touya was trying to fuck the sad out of me… and it may or may not have made things 100x more passionate…. I don’t kiss and tell though, so who’s to say?

Numb Without You by The Maine is another one that really encapsulates how I feel about Touya. He manages to hit every single polarizing nerve in me. He makes me feel my absolute best, and my absolute worst. He is my glitter and my gloom. I wouldn’t want it any other way.

Okay okay, I’m gonna wrap up the song portion with just one more!! Then we’ll move on!!! Still Into You by Paramore. I’ve spent nearly fifteen years with this fucking freak, and even through the highest of highs and lowest of lows, I’m still just as crazy about him now as I was back when we were skipping class and sharing earbuds underneath the bleachers.

In terms of concerts Touya and I have gone to soooo many over the years. Like I said before, music is such an important part of our relationship identity, so whether it’s a big name or a local show in a dingy basement, we’re there. People love asking us to go to concerts and festivals with them because we’re pros at it, and it’s always a good time.

You can find these songs - and many more - on the official 3 hour (and continously growing) Dabri playlist: Scar Crossed Lovers.

OKAY ON TO KEIGO THIS IS SO LONG I’M SO SORRY THERE IS MORE.

I don’t think Keigo and I have ever specifically named a song as our song, but if I had to pick one I would go with The Last Of The Real Ones by Fall Out Boy. As long as Keigo and I have known each other there’s always been this intense, gravitational pull towards each other that came with this hunger to know the other person inside and out, and also the need to lay bare our entire soul to the other. We’ve always felt there was absolutely no one else in the world who was capable of understanding us as well as we understood each other, (This is called being in love btw, but we didn’t really figure that out until much later lmfao) and I feel like this song really encapsulates that feeling!! I also just love the imagery of writing our names in wet concrete, it feels very us. Also, any time we have to drive anywhere we put this song on and absolutely belt it out, and Keigo will always kiss the back of my hand and say “but you really are the last of the real ones.” and I roll my eyes because it’s CHEESY!!!! He’s so CHEESY!!! (I wuv him)

Touch by The Maine brings me back to when Keigo and I first started hooking up. It was amazing, but everytime after it would get better and it would get hotter as we learned what the other person was into… It was all consuming.

Keigo and I have gotten freaky to Skin by Mac Miller so many times I think that we have accidentally pavloved ourselves into getting horny within 10 seconds of the song starting. We love The Divine Feminine album sooo much, but we cannot listen through it when anyone else is around purely because it is damn near impossible to not fuck when it comes on…

I Wanna Be Yours by Arctic Monkeys and Liar by Paramore always make me think of the night when we finally went from just being friends with benefits to an actual couple. Coming to terms with the forced denial we had been feeling for months, the almost avalanche of confession about how badly we wanted this, wanted to be together for real. When I say we talked it over for hours that night he stopped me from going on that other date, I truly mean HOURS. He came over at 6pm, and we didn’t go to bed until 3am. It was so raw and vulnerable and beautiful.

In terms of concerts, we’ve been to a few! I really got him hooked on The Maine, and they’re almost constantly either on tour or playing a festival. They have this song called Girls Do What They Want, and when they play it they have this bit where they pull a guy on stage to sing it, and Keigo soooo badly wants them to pick him, so I foresee a lot of The Maine concerts in our future until he inevitably gets picked.

The Breigo playlist is still cooking, but it's almost at a place where I can share it!