#constantly overthinking

Due to my interest in philosophy and psychology I am cursed with a thirst for understanding how people think, even if the thinking is different from mine. The cost of this eldritch knowledge is questioning everything in my existence, the unpacking of traumas I didn’t even know I had, and being unable to put anything—and I mean anything—into neat categorized boxes. It also has a side effect of being 10% “sad okay” 90% of the time because you are Thinking your Thoughts constantly (subjects include: “wow that was way more messed up than I thought it was when I was a child” and “what does it mean to be happy? Truly?” and “I am listening to a song while I have another song stuck in my head also I want this song but specifically the vibe not the song so now I’m gonna try a third different song entirely”).

My life is full of things that do not make sense.. things that won’t ever make sense.
I have thought and overthought about many of these things and it has only driven me mad. I know I will never understand the lot of it, but I will overthink about it all until my very thoughts turn me into dust.. and I am halfway there.

Today's been off to a great start.