#connectwithyourdeck

Today’s meditation was attempted, although I was a bit too restless to actually pull it off.

Today’s draw is the Eight of Coins, which is traditionally a representation of hard work, honing one’s craft, apprenticeship, development of expertise in a craft, and can indicate repetitive tasks (which are often necessary to develop mentioned expertise).

Today is an orders day, which means I need to put into practice my skills and expertise. The affirmation card is a reminder that these skills are an expertise for a reason.  Because I enjoy what I do, because I love creating things.  This allowed me to make a living out of something I love, and that it’s important to look at the work through this lens instead of letting lack of enthusiasm leech in and steal away the potential for pleasure.

DECK USED:  TERRA VOLATILE AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

Mr Lionharts’ #TheNovemberTarot Solitary Tarot Challenge Prompt Questions for November 4th

How can I nurture my creativity or curiosity today? The Seer and Knight of Cups

Stop looking outside of yourself, for that creative inspiration and motivation you seek lies within.  Your intuition and creative spark are related and you find the most enjoyment in your craft and creativity when you allow them (as well as your curiosity) free reign to explore and enjoy.

Why is it important for me to nurture this right now? Lady of the Hedge and Hel

Nurturing this right now will help in soothing your feelings of unrest and anxiety, as well as your feelings of discontent and the leeching of enthusiasm that you’ve been experiencing.

DECK USED: HEDGE GUILD OTHERWORLD ORACLE AND THE WITCHES TAROT

Tarot Nerd’s Better Boundaries Tarot Challenge Prompt Questions for November 1st thru 5th

What is the difference between a wall and a boundary, to me personally?

A wall is to block out something or someone that is usually not life changing just annoying or frivolous (Three of Cups), whereas a boundary is there to promote healthy growth (The Universe).

Where have I built walls that need taking down?

The Fool – The walls that are currently blocking out or tamping down on your enthusiasm for life and new things. You need to tap into that enthusiasm, and there are walls in the way that are separating you from that spark you need right now.

How do boundaries benefit me?

Two of Coins – Boundaries benefit you by providing balance in your life and encouraging a more diverse and healthy use of your time. By having good boundaries in place for yourself and others in your life, you are able to make sure that you don’t focus too hard on one thing and end up neglecting other things as a result.

How do my boundaries benefit my relationships with others?

The Chariot – You are not swayed by peer pressure or conformity. Boundaries allow you the control and independence that you need in your life, and thus shape the dynamics of your friendships, relationships, and interactions with others.

Where in my life would most benefit from stronger boundaries?

Queen of Cups – The desire for emotional mothering is something you need to build bigger boundaries concerning. Every time you think that your mother is going to give you that type of emotional support, you are then crushed again when her true nature shows up to spoil those hopes.

DECK USED: TERRA VOLATILE

(Writing this the day after.)  I went to bed early.

Today’s meditation was skipped once again.

Today’s draw is the Ace of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of the seed (or in the case of the Wands suit, the spark) of new beginnings and the potential they hold in the areas of one’s drive, enthusiasm, willpower, motivation, and passions. This is less about whatever it is that creates the spark, so much as the spark itself as a light within you to drive you forward.

Combined with the affirmation card for today, what I see here is a reminder that inspiration and enthusiasm does not always have to be chaotic or filled with harsh energy. Some things can be approached with an eagerness that is gentle and temperate instead of wild and pushy. What things in your life do you love that aren’t a clamoring cacophony of demand in your life?

I have very few of these things in my own life. My inner dialogue is constant and often overwhelming, and very often loud and demanding. It leaves little room for things that foster peace that I might enjoy. That is something I need to foster more of in my life, and that is where I feel that ideally meditation should step in and fit the bill… except that I’ve been allowing the chaos to push it aside.

DECK USED:  EPIC TAROT AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

Mr Lionharts’ #TheNovemberTarot Solitary Tarot Challenge Prompt Question for November 3rd: Think of something good/nice you can do for yourself today. Draw a card (or cards) for feedback on your thoughts.

Something Nice: Let’s stay away from the games on the phone today.

Reading Summary: It’s not going to be easy (Valet de Pique) but it will allow for you to nurture yourself in healthier ways that don’t close you off emotionally (Dame des Cœurs) and help get you back on track to the things you should be doing (Le Pape).

Take Away: This is about my addictive nature when it comes to things I enjoy… or can hide within. I have been using the games on my phone to hide from reality, to hide from my feelings, to hide from my thoughts.  To retreat… and yet not rest.

Learning to go back to dealing with things in a different way is going to be healthy for me, but not easy.  Necessary, though.

DECK USED: JEU DE TAROT BRETON

#DiscordTarotholicsNov2021 Challenge Prompt Philosophical Questions for November 3rd and 4th

What harsh truths do you prefer to ignore? Prosperity, The Emperor atop Ace of Swords

You focus far too much on what is profitable, prioritizing it over new ideas that you may want to explore that aren’t filled with as much monetary potential.

There are a great number of things I would like to explore, but put on the back burner due to the lack of profitability. The message here is that I need to focus less on the money factor, and more on how fun or interesting exploring these other projects could be.  Add factors of enthusiasm, curiosity, and potential fun into the decision process instead of basing my decision fully on if I can profit from them.

What do I need to focus on for self-care for this new moon? Grieving, The Empress atop The Star

Stop focusing on the freedoms and pleasures that have to be put on the back burner in the upcoming weeks. Instead, you need to be training your attention on nurturing yourself in all the ways you can, and fostering that connection with optimism that has been faltering of late.

DECK USED: SPELLCASTING ORACLE CARDS AND EPIC TAROT

I got my flu shot today.

Today’s meditation was skipped, although I did take a couple of “pause and breathe” breaks throughout the day today.

Today’s draw is the Queen of Goblets (Cups), which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition. This often translates into themes that have to do with compassion and emotional support.

This sentiment is echoed in the How to Be a Wildflower card for today, which speaks of the shelter that we find in each other through their presence and support in our lives.

In turn, we also provide this support to others. Even introverts need people. They not need as much social contact as an extrovert, but they still need people. People to love, and people to love them in turn.  People to support, and people to support them in turn.

Sometimes I dream of going up into the forest and never returning.  A cabin by a river, a tree with a rope swing.  Solitude.   And yet I know that as introverted as I am?  Even I need people.

DECK USED:  TAROT DEL TORO AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt Questions for October 29th thru 31st

Ancestors hear, come far, come all, I now call you forth, how do you answer my call?

L’Étoile – With eagerness and wisdom, the ancestors come forward to be heard. They wish to instill hope, to connect and communicate through that connection, to support and to guide you forward on your path from one day to the next.

Cards on the table, ancestors respond, show me your guidance from somewhere beyond…

Le Fou atop Le Pape – Be positive. Don’t lose hope. Begin piecing together your inner spirit. You don’t have to be so rigid in your expectations of yourself.  Loosen up and let yourself have a bit more fun.

Thank you for your guidance, through highs and through lows, before you depart, tell me, what should I know?

Deux de Denier – You need to focus on balance. Everything else will fall into place.

DECK USED: TAROT DE MARSEILLE PAR POLE KA

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt Questions for October 28th and 29th

What will I surrender today? Six of Cups and Eight of Wands

It’s time to begin releasing the guilt.  You were raised to be a workhorse and you know that “training” from an early age is why you feel guilty now.  That guilt is preventing you from getting the rest you need.

Release the guilt.  Do it now.  It’s much easier to find balance without that static playing loudly in your head and heart.

What wisdom does bat have for me today? Nine of Wands and The Magician

You’re going to end up going into the customs office today.  Stay friendly, but distant.  You have everything you need to get through the checkpoint as needed, so just relax and do the process.  It takes time, but it doesn’t have to be stressful.

DECK USED: TAROT DEL TORO

I stopped to eat at Denny’s instead of trying to hold out until I made it home.

Today’s meditation was skipped yet again.  I did have intentions, but they didn’t pan out.  Too many orders to get done and not enough time in the day.

Today’s draw is the Justice card, which is traditionally a representation of balance, cause and effect, consequences, and can often indicates a theme of law or justice system involvement.

When I think of balance, I think of Maat’s scales.  The weighing of a heart on one side, and the feather on the other, and the symbolism of finding balance… perhaps only in death.

The reason I feel this way about it is because in life, the world is ever-changing. That means the “scales” that each of us carry with us that weigh and balance the different priorities in our lives and the things we have done, or conscience, and well… everything really.  These scales must be in constant motion, constantly adjusting as the world around us changes, and as we grow and change.

Only in death do the scales still entirely. Only then to we have the possibility of perfect balance.  The cards here today speak to me of that.  Of the fact that although we strive for balance in our lives, that goal is always going to be just out of reach.  Sometimes closer, sometimes further away, but never perfect. Because here in life?  We are meant to grow and change, we are meant to learn and expand.  And with every moment of growth, every shift in priorities, every change in our lives, our minds, our emotions… that balance must shift.  Embracing the changes helps us in making those adjustments go more smoothly.

DECK USED:  ЧЕРНОЕ ТАРО AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt Questions for October 28th and 29th

What healing lesson is waiting for me to realize and accept it?

Nine of Swords (Melas Oneiros) – Your perceptions when you are in a mental health crisis are warped. Reality is not as bleak as it appears to be during these times. Find a better way to tell when you’re in real trouble than just guessing blindly in the dark. 

How can I work on accepting this lesson?

Four of Cups (Echo) atop Death Rx (Hades) – Instead of always looking forward and charging ahead, take time to sit with where you are and more fully explore it.

Your Strength – The Moon (Pan Selene) – You are good at moving forward with surety, even when things are feeling uncertain. As mentioned above though, you need to remember that sometimes moving forward is not the answer.

Your Weakness – Judgment (Dionysus) – You are too hard on yourself and set your expectations far too high.

Advice – Five of Cups (Mourning Orpheus) – Stop retreating. Stop hiding. All it is doing is making things worse. Don’t allow your emotions to control your actions… or more specifically, your inaction and stagnancy. It’s taking up too much control of what’s going on in your life.

DECK USED: ORPHIC TAROT

The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Questions for October 28th and 29th

How will the dark half of the year help me grow? Ten of Pentacles and Wheel of Fortune

It will be a reminder that there are good and bad times, and nothing last forever. It will help you to see that even when things feel like they’re going bad, your stability will not be threatened by the whims of these minor up and downs in life… no matter how major they may feel in the moment.

How will this growth help me love and appreciate myself? Queen of Swords and The Chariot

It will remind you of your strengths and adaptability, allowing you to see that you can continue to move forward with purpose regardless of how you’re feeling by reconnecting with that logical side of your nature that is a part of your history and heritage.

DECK USED: ЧЕРНОЕ ТАРО

Let’s see… I took a nap that I probably shouldn’t have taken.  I also had my smoothie, which was really good today for some reason (as if it’s not made the same way every day or something), as well as my vitamins, tea, collagen peptides, and muffin.

Today’s meditation was skipped because the day started very early and was go-go-go all day long.

Today’s draw is the Five of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of tests, trials, and conflict in the area of ones ambitions, intellect, education, or communications. This often translates into themes that have to do with arguments and intellectual debate, competition (especially at work or involving one’s ambitions), and the mentality of winning no matter the cost.

We all have a competitive side.  It’s a part of human nature.  For some, it can be triggered by just about anything, and for others it takes someone encroaching on what they feel is their territory.

Today’s card is a reminder that it’s okay to be a bit aggro now and then. It’s okay to stand up for yourself. It’s okay to want to win.  It’s okay (within reason) to allow our competitive, contrary, or outright stubborn side to take the lead now and then.  Embrace this side of your nature. Suppressing it just clips your wings.

DECK USED:  LE TAROT DE L’ÉTOILE CACHÉE AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt Questions for October 26th and 27th

What area of my life could do with a bolt of lightening?

Balance and The Lovers – You need to make sure that you are making choices that help keep yourself and your life in balance. Don’t just fall headlong into the rush and forget to breathe. Stop trying to push yourself when you’re not quite ready yet, and don’t have to be quite yet.

What wisdom does the crow have for me today?

Connection and King of Pentacles – Make sure you are staying in close connection with what is going on in your finances right now. Keep that shit under your thumb. Extra monitoring and a bit more tight-fisted control is needed.

DECK USED: WISDOM OF THE SHADOW ORACLE AND GOTHIC HORROR TAROT

The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Questions for October 26th and 27th

What can I look forward to for the dark half of the year? Entrapment atop Inertia, La Papesse atop Le Jugement

There is potential that you are going to go through a period of stagnancy within the dark half of the year. You will need to use your intuition and inner compass to guide you through this time. Don’t discount what they have to say and the guidance they provide. Self sabotage cannot be allowed to be an option.

What are my challenges for the dark half of the year? Secrets, Two of Wands atop Four of Coins

Lack of communication and willful omission have the potential to create a situation where you are left torn between previously made plans and hunkering down in place.

(I’m going to have to remember to draw more cards on this later on.)

DECK USED: ORACLE OF NIGHTMARES AND LE TAROT DE L’ÉTOILE CACHÉE

I went to the dentist.  I really wanted to just cancel and stay home, but I didn’t.

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Today’s draw is the Ten of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of satisfaction and stability in the area of one’s finances, resources, home, health, manifestations, and the physical world.

In the image if this card you see a depiction of something having gone horribly wrong.  The toxic waste cans, the gas masks, the damaged home in the background and jaundiced sky above.  And yet, the family is still all together, close and connected and cared for.

This card combines with the affirmation card for the day to remind us that even when life is a mess, there are still things to be grateful for.  It’s important to look at your priorities and discern what is truly important to you. If you can find what this is, even if the rest of the world falls apart, when you nurture this thing you value and prioritize above all else, you can feel as if you have stable footing and a sense of stability.

DECK USED:  TWISTED TAROT TALES AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt Questions for October 25th and 26th

From my lineage, my roots to my ancestry, what lives on, deep inside of me? Black Cat atop Feather, Judgment atop Four of Wands

The ability and good fortune to be able to choose your own path, to follow your moral compass and what is right for you, instead of being forced to conform or hide.

It was through my ancestors doing the same in their own ways, through fighting or hiding, through travel, sacrifice, or relocation… that I have the good fortune to be open about myself and my beliefs, and that I am able to not need to conform, but instead be myself. They followed their compass, their path, and what was right for them, which has allowed me to do the same.

The witch, the craft, the moon, the veil, what will this Samhain unveil? Candle and Ace of Swords

Purpose and a healing of your ambition that will set you free of the stagnancy you’ve been experiencing.

I can’t decide if I’m struggling with the onset of depression, a general moody malaise caused by Gideon being away on vacation, or just having issues with the transition period between where my focus has been most of the year and where it will need to be for the next six or seven weeks.

DECK USED: SILVER WITCH ORACLE AND ALL HALLOWS TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt Questions for October 25th and 26th

A Problem – The Lovers – Self sabotaging choices and behavior.

During this time of limbo and transition (it’s a bit of both) as the holiday rush approaches and prep for that rush is in focus (or at least should be), I find myself in a place of self sabotage as I drag my feet and want nothing more than to bury my head under a pillow and pretend the world at large as well as my responsibilities don’t exist.

This, of course, is damaging and unhealthy for me on a number of different levels, but even in knowing that? I’m struggling to make healthier choices for myself at this time.

What Action to Take – Four of Swords – Allow yourself the rest and recovery that you need. It’s not crunch time just yet.

This card indicates that it’s okay for me to rest right now instead of “lighting a fire  under my ass” as I feel like I should be doing. It doesn’t help that I feel guilty for resting and not doing prep work… which is making rest difficult.

What to Wait On – Seven of Wands atop The Devil – Don’t fall into battle mode just yet. It’s okay to let those old habits lie and ease up on yourself for a bit longer.

Perhaps I need to return to re-read this reading a few times a day over the next few days or something.

What positive generational gift has been passed down to me from my ancestors? King of Cups atop Six of Swords

The ability to know what you truly want and go after it, abandoning what isn’t healthy for you in the process.

I have displayed this behavior again and again throughout my life from the rejection of my father’s demands on my choices to emancipating from my parents at sixteen. It is displayed in how I run my life, the relationships in my life, and how I deal with employment.

DECK USED: TWISTED TAROT TALES

I had my smoothie, and my tea.  Although… I missed my vitamins.  And I discovered that at least one night this week, at some point, I missed my nighttime meds.

Today’s meditation was skipped again. I’m working on the not just not doing something because of emotional “meh” feelings, but I didn’t manage it today where meditation was concerned.

Today’s draw is the Nine of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of anxiety, worries, insomnia, nightmares, and depression.

I think sometimes we forget just how amazing some of the most simple and small things can be. Take a flower, for example.  In the theme of today’s draw, someone can be filled with worry and anxiety, stressed out and restless and absolutely miserable.

But, in taking just five minutes (that’s 1/288th of a day) to focus on said flower mentioned above, to linger and admire the shape of the petals and shades of color, the sparkle of iridescence on the petals and delicate bits and parts.  Just in taking that five minutes to look at something so simply, ordinary, and every day… we can lower blood pressure, ease anxiety, and give our minds a moment’s rest and a bit of “fresh air”.

That is the basis behind the phrase “stopping to smell the roses”.  Sometimes, we need to look at the little things just to give ourselves a breather and a moment of peace in times when there is no peace to be had anywhere else.

DECK USED:  BEAUTY OF HORROR TAROT AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt Topic: Do Spread #3

Smoky Quartz: How can I best purge negativity from my life to develop greater stability?

Guerra – Battle the negativity by arming yourself with truth, faith, and hope as you move forward. Allow these qualities to lift you up and strengthen your foundation as you resist the negative inner narratives trying to take hold.

Apple: What insight is needed to improve my physical health at this time?

Radix – Dig into the roots of what is causing you to feel restless and out of sorts. Where are you struggling and why?  What is creating that “going nowhere fast” struggle in your soul right now.  Don’t ignore it or try to bury it.  Ask Gideon for help in digging it out if you are struggling to focus on it on your own.

Chrysanthemum: Where do my defenses need bolstering to foster my growth?

Somnium – You need to find a way to get some useful rest. You’ve been doing a lot of “trying to rest” without actually managing to really rest at all.  You need true rest, not the rest of the restless. Your balance and equilibrium can’t recover without it.

Aquamarine: Where can meditation bolster my confidence by promoting more calm in my life?

Saturn – Meditation allows the ego to ease and quiet within the brain, providing a different perspective and distance from the inner whispers that try to take up the whole of your mental narrative the rest of the time you are awake, and even at times when you are asleep.

Mint: What factors in my relationships need reevaluation and (possibly) adjustment?

Unitate – Take some time to consider if you are getting what you need, or if a shift in power might help you feel more settled. “A balanced diet creates a balanced mind and body.” – Dominic Murphy

I am not feeling the need to top, nor to express aggression in a physical way.  At all. I think this is what the cards are hinting at, and perhaps the encouragement here isn’t so much about changing anything, but taking a bit of time to consider where that more aggressive side of my nature has gone and why it hasn’t raised it’s head in so long.

Carnelian: In what ways can including more creativity in my life lighten my daily outlook?

Devil – Tease that addictive quality of your nature to lean into the more creative side of your business. Feed that creative spark and set it ablaze.  It will peter out eventually, but during the busy season it will bring a greater amount of joy and pleasure in your work, and a feeling of accomplishment you wouldn’t have otherwise.

Pomegranate: What wish of mine is ready to be manifested into reality at this time?

Wheel of Fortune – Dependability is all about adaptability.  You have the ability, the skill, the experience, and the strength to shift gears at the drop of a hat.  The problem is, this transition period is moving slower than you are comfortable with.  As always, there is a liminal moment of limbo here in the time between prep and the beginning of the holiday rush. Don’t worry so much about if it’s going to be a success, just focus on keeping your feet steady and being ready for when the wheel turns and things start moving so fast you have to rush to keep up.

DECK USED: DOMINIC MURPHY’S SECRET TAROT

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt Questions for October 24th and 25th

What wisdom does the owl have for me today? The Angry Mob atop The Black Cat, The Star atop Two of Swords

At the moment, you are sitting at a crossroads, struggling and unable to move one way or another.

It is with the help of others that you can begin to move forward.  Allow those around you to lift you up and set you in the direction you need to go.  You have the ability to write your own future in this moment.  Don’t let it pass you by, but instead turn this moment to your advantage.

Where should I be flying higher? The Seance atop The Healing Witch, Eight of Swords

There is encouragement here to allow the spirit guides a stronger voice and more open hand in your life. Although you’ve been working on becoming more in contact with them and having a more open relationship with them, there is still a great deal more to be done.  Reach deeper, seek more.  Allow them to help you and heal you.

And…. I just realized that in the first part of this reading the “others that can help me begin to move forward) wasn’t talking about L or Z or Gid. (Having one of those hand-to-forehead-slapping moments.)

DECK USED: MILDRED PAYNE’S ORACLE OF BLACK ENCHANTMENT AND BEAUTY OF HORROR TAROT

I had my smoothie today.  I also made sure that I got some actual quantifiable work done today instead of continuing to put it off and avoid it.

Today’s meditation was skipped.  I just didn’t do it.

Today’s draw is the Knight of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of an active beta energy, personality, or person in the area of ones passions, drive, principles, and willpower. As with all wands, this isn’t about a physical thing, but rather about that inner spark of energy that “lights a fire under your ass” and “makes you tick”.

Sometimes?  That fire that’s lit under our ass actually comes from someone else. Today’s cards are a reminder that it’s okay to take inspiration from other’s kind words.  When someone says something that they admire about you, or speaks encouraging words to you, don’t allow them to roll off your back like rain off of a slicker.

Instead, take a moment to enjoy them and let them sink in.  Allow them to lift you up and inspire you. It’s okay to feel good about yourself, and those good feelings, no matter their origins, are a healthy way to spark your inspiration.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF HAUNTED HOUSE AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt Questions for October 23rd and 24th

I know without knowing, I feel in my bones, that this could be one thing, that I am to hone: Retreating Shadow, Raging Dragon, The Chariot

You need to work on how to better discern when it is time to walk away when things get too hot. There is a great deal of power in a strategic retreat.

Gentle and easy, or passionate thrills, what is a desire, that I should fulfill? Hearth, Home, Three of Pentacles

Now is the time for you and L to work together and find your groove. Get things ironed out now for the harmony of your home over the busy season ahead.

A message from my spirit guides for me today.

Ten of Pentacles – More gratitude is needed for all that you have accomplished and all that you have.

DECK USED: THE HOLLOW WOODS GAME CARDS AND OLD WHISPERS TAROT

The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Questions for October 23rd thru 25th

What can I expect ahead of a merge between myself and my Alter Ego? Bottle Tree, Justice atop Two of Cups

A time of kicking myself for my priorities as things feel out of balance, followed by a merging entanglement of two contrasting sides of the same coin that will most easily be sorted out through pause and reflection.

How will this merge help me heal? Conch Shell and King of Wands

It will help you find your groove in both your passions and responsibilities, as well as in your need for self care activities and adequate rest.

How will this merge help me connect with my intuition? The Mockingbird and Queen of Cups

As finding your balance always does, it will open up your intuition for easier communication, and allow a more fluid and comfortable connection with the different voices your intuition has to offer in its communication with you. Everything flows better when there’s not a bunch of crap in the way… that includes conflict and opposition between the alter ego and self.

DECK USED: THE SOUTHERN GOTHIC ORACLE AND TAROT OF HAUNTED HOUSE

I forced myself to have my smoothie even though I really wasn’t into putting in the work.  I’m trying to not allow my emotions to dictate so much of what I do…. or, more accurately, don’t do.