Idk I'm back from break and even after just part of a week without Internet I've kind of just been very plugged in for the half a day or so I've been back and I never actually wrote any kind of post about all the stuff that happened on my short little break from college last week... And I wanted to, since it was a weird bit of time. [[more]] I mean not much actually happened, but a few interesting things did. I helped some lady with her god damn gps for three hours, I fixed my mom's friend's daughter's laptop which had some insane amount of viruses, and I came up with a rough plan for my ridiculous internship this summer. My mom referred to me as she for part of a conversation (?). I don't know what I think about that, I mean it was clearly an accident but it was a strange slip and it was with her friends. I don't know. I honestly don't know what my parents think of me anymore. My dad's really cautious about everything and I'm too dumb to really be like that usually, so I think he doesn't like that about me. My mom worried about everything. I guess that's how some parents are? Idk. But the big things I realized about them this break was that I don't like living at home with them, and that they expect me to live at home with them this summer (and I don't really have any other option unless they pay for an internet connection at my grandparent's cottage again like last summer which is unlikely). I know that they miss me, and they get bored and straight up don't do anything when I'm not around and since I do really like my parents I like being there because of that. But all they do when I'm there is argue about going places they both want to go and watch movies with me even though they both know that I still get stupidly anxious watching most movies for some reason (I don't really understand it, I've been like that longer than I can remember) and generally avoid that. I actually talked to them about that again this break and I think they get it now maybe, but there's only so much they like to do and that's about it. The worst thing I think about this break parents was that it really was clear that they're getting older. It's hard to say really what I'm seeing but my dad's almost 60 and my mom's not much younger than that and I've never thought of them as old but they're starting to feel like my grandparents, which is a little weird. I'm going to leave it at that, I tried to summarize why that's a confusing thing but there was too much to say and it didn't all make sense. Long short: it's good to be back, I'm not sure I want to go home again soon but I will, oh shit I didn't do any homework. none
