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The City Must Survive!

Soon.

Before YTGaming launched, I was certain that it’d be a great platform for livestreaming and discovery - at least better for smaller broadcasters, such as myself. Turns out, I was somewhat correct.

Twitch is definitely a platform I want to use, especially since YTGaming isn’t anywhere near as open, and the streaming aspect still feels like an afterthought rather than a main feature. Where Twitch lets you customise your entire page to fit your needs, YTGaming has a lacking UI and has no customisation at all - at least none that won’t make your main YouTube Channel look awful. I love that I can use things like TwitchAlerts and have follows and donations shown on-screen while I stream - again, something that YTGaming cannot do.

So what’s my plan? Starting tomorrow (September 7th, 2015) I’ll be using Twitch and YTGaming for different things.

If I’m streaming something that is a current series on the channel (Software Inc., Star Wars, Mad Max) then it will be on YTGaming, as well as anything that has recently been, or will be, a ConflictNerd Plays. This way, it’s easy for followers of those series to find the stream. These will likely be available as VoDs a day after the broadcast.

There seems to be a lot of confusion around the schedules that I showed in the first episode of Inner Conflict - specifically regarding my inability to stick to that schedule. Now while I’m famously bad at sticking to my schedule fully, what you have to realise is that any plans I make, dates I say, or spreadsheets I have are there to aid me a million times more than they are there to aid you. I love sharing that information with all of you, but a lot of people haven’t grasped how they work.

First off, my schedule is always flexible. YouTube is not my job, and I have a lot of commitments to fulfil outside of making videos, and sometimes these will get in the way of content and result in things getting pushed back to a later date. I don’t like rescheduling content, I don’t like pushing things back, but there’s only so much time in my day and it all needs to be balanced appropriately from one day to the next. Some days content will take priority, some days other things take priority.

Secondly, and finally, I should never have shown off those schedules in the first place - and won’t be showing off any more of them. I didn’t explain how they work and I can’t explain how they work to each and every new person that may see them. Spreadsheets and behind the scenes information need to stay away from the public eye, and I’ll be keeping it that way going forward. I won’t be pulling the first episode of Inner Conflict down, and those images I showed do still apply, but don’t think they’re set in stone - anything can happen, and anything can change. Just know I’m doing all I can to stick to the schedules that I’ve set.

Thank You.

Let’s skip formality and get right to the point here - I’ve been awful at keeping plans and schedules for the last couple of months.

I’d love to say that my lengthy run of illness has come to an end and that I’m feeling a whole lot better, but honestly I’m not. While my illnesses are subsiding and I physically feel healed, I still feel mentally exhausted which is draining all of my enthusiasm for everything. Creating videos should excite me, going outside into fresh air should feel good, having a good sleep (which is rare) should feel excellent - but none of that actually happens. Recently, when I feel a burst of energy, I put it in to either a livestream or an episode of KOTOR, which I’ve fallen in love with playing and recording.

So what’s the problem? Well I think the current issue still stems from my bout of illness. While I was ill, I could barely move without being in pain and that resulted in me spending a lot of my time in bed and not really doing anything. Being ill so long allowed that to become a routine, which I’m struggling to break. My body was completely broken down as it was hit with sickness after sickness, which is why it became so easy for me to continually get worse. On top of that, my body was working so hard to fight everything off that I had very little energy to do anything else. Now that I’m not ill, the energy I would have had seems to have completely gone, with no real sign of returning - and that’s kind of crappy.

I’ve already spoken to my therapist about this issue and the advice I’ve been given, and that I’ve been thinking myself, is that I need to go outside a little more, eat better food, and spend a few more hours a day away from my PC. I’ve actually been trying the “time away from my PC” thing these last couple of days and it’s pretty great. The real world has decent graphics, and easily hits 60FPS, though the community is kind of shitty.

In conclusion, and joking aside, it’s going to be a little while before I’m back to my regular old self. The energy you’ll see on a livestream or in a video for the next while is something that I’m learning to cherish as opposed to taking for granted. Sometimes that energy is spent on something completely different, out in the real world. I’m already doing what I need to do to build myself back up to where I was, and I’m determined to get there. I’m sure you’ve all been able to work out that I’m pretty stubborn and don’t really let myself rest and recover as much as I should - but I am trying.

The message here is, essentially, there are still going to be gaps between videos and series that I would rather weren’t there at all. I’m still working on fixing that.

I’m not one to get overly soppy when it comes to YouTube - I quite like my cynical/silly front to remain in place. That said, I just want to take a moment to thank all of you for the comments, tweets, and messages of support today regarding me being ill again. I hate that these last couple of months have seen a lapse in content several times due to my health, and I hate that I’m repeatedly announcing that there’s going to be time without any content on the channel.

With all that said and done however... you guys never cease to show love and support for what I do. Even if it’s a dumb filler video because it’s all I can do while I’m ill. The support and kind words today are somewhat overwhelming (in a good way), and I’m truly grateful.

Regarding my wrist, I’ve spoken to a doctor and he’s confident that it’s a small ganglion cyst that should be cleared up within a few days. My better half has also told me that a hot compress on it will help ease the pain a lot, and she’s been completely correct, so I’m going to be doing more of that to help ease my wrist over the next couple of days.

In regards to my work on content going forward, I’m going to be adding another Let’s Play to the channel on top of everything that’s currently going on. It’ll be a more ‘traditional’ series of a more ‘story oriented’ game (not sure which game yet) that will allow me to record it in bulk. This means that if there’s a time when I can’t record, this series can still be released and you can still get something while I recover. As I’m sure you know, this isn’t possible with Cities: Skylines and Software Inc. because I review comments between episodes. This new series won’t take away from either of those two, it’s being added to the regular content output.

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