#confirmedfurry

oh no

LAURENT WAKING UP AND SMILING UPON SEEING WHO’S IN BED WITH HIM

‘sentiment?’ ‘something like that.’

THE INN SCENE, THE WHOLE INN SCENE, the dinner, L learning a new trick, ‘control yourself’, L leaving the water for D, D leaving food for L, THE TALK, L laughing against D, ‘giant animal’, the rooftop chase, ‘it’s the game i like’

‘you’re alive.’ ‘i’m alive.’ they were gazing at one another. ‘i wasn’t sure you’d come back’. ‘i came back.’ 

L fighting Govart (and kicking his ass) 

when D saves L’s life by throwing a goddamn sword !!! 

when Damen is ready to ride out and leave and the men gather to see him off and ‘it was an honour to serve with you’ i am cry 

okay i need to control myself 

damn, only five?! this is impossible

when Kyle finds Ravishan’s bones and they become one (!!!)

‘stay and keep me safe’ and the whole thing before and after that (’sometimes they remind me of you. ‘mushrooms?’, and strawberries, and then the morning after with the ‘bellybutton’ whispers and smiles and “it was Kahlil’s turn to have a lover. this lover.’ does it count as one scene? shhh

the breakfast scene in Nayeshi (back when everything was cute and innocent and fragile)

the sparring scene

every Kyle/Pesha scene tbh (trainings and Kyle being a gentle teacher, talking about the Rifter and Pesha being cute) 

also: when John teaches Ravishan how to feel the gray space (the bowl of water and everything aaa); when John closes the god’s razor and slays; when Kyle is supposed to take a package to Jathi’baye and Jathi’baye almost kills him (hah. i’m a masochist i love that scene); every freaking mention of plants and flowers curling into John’s hands when he walks nearby; the talk when John tells Kyle that he and Ravishan are the same person, the same very brave and amazing man; when Kyle reminds the council that John is the freaking Rifter and says THE PRAYER; the bathtub scene with Fenn, J, and Samiura (♥), also “my god will save me” !!! 

ok i will stop