#commentary asks

Terrifyingly angry. An all-encompassing rage. Between part three and part four of The Last Window, because it’s mostly Izuku’s POV we don’t see AFO’s thoughts, but I’ll share a little bit of commentary on what was written and then some notes on his actual reaction that is very much implied. 

Starting with the doctor: 

Dr. Tsubasa licked his lips. He reached up and rubbed his eyes, adjusting his glasses again. Izuku stood across from him, breathing heavily. Anger and fear tore up his insides.

"Mi- Mi- Midoriya," Dr. Tsubasa stammered. "Mi- you- you took Midoriya."

"What's going on?"

Dr. Tsubasa shook his head. He was breathing strangely, his breaths coming out fast and wheezing at the end. His face contorted.

"Midoriya Izuku," Dr. Tsubasa whispered. He stared at Izuku, the color draining completely from his face. He reached into his lab coat with visibly shaking hands and took out a phone. "What... what have you done?"

"I don't understand."

"You shouldn't- the- Sensei... no, no, no. You've made a mistake. No, no, Midoriya can't be here. No... no...." He wiped at the sheen of sweat on his forehead. "I must go."

The instant the doctor sees Izuku, he recognizes Izuku immediately. He knows in a moment that Izuku has been kidnapped and it terrifies him. 

Why? At this point, the readers have all the pieces of the puzzle. One, that Izuku has been kidnapped and missing for at least a few days. Two, that his kidnappers are “Quirk traffickers,” or a group of people who kidnap victims specifically for their desirable/powerful Quirks for various ‘clients.’ Three, one of the clients is the doctor, and by extension, All for One himself... to use as experimental subjects. 

When you put all the pieces together, the situation is really clear as to why the doctor is ready to lose his absolute mind. That the doctor (and AFO, but you can’t just blame AFO) inadvertently is the reason that Izuku is kidnapped... oh, buddy, you bet AFO is pissed.

A few cities away, the doctor panted as he burst into the room. He fumbled with the door code three times before he could get it right.

"Se- sensei," he gasped. "Sensei, I have news."

"If it isn't that you've found Izuku, then I don't want to hear it."

He wiped nervously at his face. He'd never been one to show his fear so openly, but this was different. The doctor swallowed. Sensei was going to kill him, and there were so many ways to do it. So many ways the doctor himself had suggested, and slowly.

"Well..."

The figure turned slowly. "Well?"

"I did find Izuku," the doctor said, and Sensei stalked over, looming over him. "Oh, Sensei..."

This is one of the few lines of dialogue that you hear AFO say. And I think it’s quite powerful because of what it means. 

After Izuku was kidnapped and hadn’t yet been found by the heroes, his sole focus is to find Izuku and save him. His son is in danger. He doesn’t have time for anything else, the mind for anything else. If there’s news and it isn’t about Izuku, no matter how dangerous or important, it doesn’t matter. 

Because Izuku comes first. 

And then, saving Izuku: 

The ground shook. A distant boom sounded.

Izuku curled up tighter, squeezing his eyes shut as the building trembled. Another boom. Yelling. He couldn’t find it in himself to panic as the sounds grew louder and closer.

So he’d been kidnapped, then abandoned when it hadn’t gone well. And now he was going to die. Izuku tucked his head against his shoulder and wished he could at least tell everyone he was sorry.

The wall exploded completely. Dust rose in billowing clouds, and Izuku blinked and saw someone standing there.

All for One... absolute carnage. He has no qualms about tearing down the place and the people that have hurt Izuku. For the few minutes it takes him to get through, he destroys basically every single thing in his path. Izuku doesn’t see it, but it’s certainly there for you to pick up on.

As for the fate of Kikuta and co, this is something I touch on in part four, though you have to notice it because I don’t outright state so. 

“You hurt everyone.” Izuku sat up. “And Kikuta… what happened to him, to them? Did you kill them?”

All for One was silent. Izuku hadn’t seen what happened to the building he’d been kept in, but he pictured nothing but dust.

In the scene above, when Izuku confronts All for One and asks what happened, All for One doesn’t answer. 

He doesn’t want to tell Izuku what happened because he knows it will change Izuku’s opinion of him. (Of course, it doesn’t matter, because Izuku’s opinion of him is one, already terrible, and two, he answered the question with silence.) But if anyone was ever wondering, there isn’t much left of the kidnappers. They are certainly very dead. 

Hands slipped under Izuku’s neck and legs. The person lifted him like he was a child, and held Izuku close to his chest. Izuku couldn’t make out his face, but a wave of exhaustion swept over him. A deep calm settled in as his hero ran a gentle thumb along Izuku’s cheek.

“Oh, Izuku,” he murmured. Izuku felt heavy as his head dropped against a steady chest. “Little bird.”

Oh, yeah, I love this part. TLW part three ending scenes were definitely my favorite to write and I’ve said as much, because it’s just so packed. 

The instant All for One sees Izuku, it’s like flipping a switch. Stepping over that threshold, he reins in his fury and it just becomes this very tender, loving moment of relief. His son is here, he’s going to save Izuku, and take him away like he’s always wanted to.

He also uses a calming/safety Quirk that shows up in this part and the next. This is something I’ve headcanoned in the past before as All for One (DFO) having, which you’ll see also as a little Easter egg in my other fic given if you can spot it. It’s not something that Izuku is necessarily aware of. 

So at this point, All for One’s focus shifts away from getting to his son to now having him, and caring for him. 

“... ‘ight?”

“It’s alright,” was a whisper as a hand passed through Izuku’s hair. Izuku sighed.

Around them, the world fell apart, but as Izuku was carried away he only felt safe.

The final line of part three (from Izuku’s perspective) captures, I think, the whole of All for One’s reaction. The world is falling apart, but the only thing that matters is Izuku. 

Like I write in the last part, “nothing matters,” All for One said. “I would take apart the world for you. Anything. All for you.” 

All for Izuku. All for one.

Alright Char anything for you!

SO!

Fucking, this was my first fic where I got a real notable specific reader request like this and I loved it, we need more plus sized reader stuff for sure. It was a two parter with the first one being with Billy and Stu and the second part being Take It From Me.

I really enjoy this one. I rememebr the evening I wrote it, this one was so easy, it just flowed out in such a satisfying way, in like one shot. Love when that happens. The idea of the reader being so down on themselves and then getting, this line- “He would fuck those feelings out of you.”

Really sets this right. Like that is the tone for sure. It is hot and short and to the point. He is gonna fuck you until you admit that you are attractive and that you ARE worthy of his affections. It feels so throughly Bo ya know? It is such a HIM thing to do, finger you and touch you and make you beg that if he does fuck you then you better stop talking down about yourself, it just fits him so well and the dirty talk still hits so good, like- “There ya go. Keep on makin’ those pretty sounds for me, can ya do that?”

I don’t care, that is hot and I adore it and just imagining him saying that is amazing. Also having him do this with the reader bent over the counter also hits because it adds that other element of the potential of getting caught which is always good too! I would totally do a part two to this if someone asked BTW. 

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A Freddy fic huh? Aight. Let’s get to it. How abouuuuut-

I Don’t Ask For Much.

Now this is one no one requested. I got the idea for this one all on my own and simply had to do it. I remember it was a Friday, I had the weekend off, I settled in and I proceeded to go the fuck off. I watched two movies back to back while I wrote and got it all down and fucking LIVED that night. 

The implication again of a long term hook up situation with Freddy is a fave of mine but I feel it really shines in this one. So many small moments in this hit, the dirty talk, the teasing, asking for permission, all great but the fic was built around the idea of the ending to this, that is what inspiried this whole fic.

And do you know where that inspo came from?

Wellllll...

A lot of the dialog you see in my fics, positioning, ideas, set ups, a lot are inspiried by Bex’s real life is all I will say. Now how much is direct one to one I will leave up to your imagination. But as I have said, my life? Wild.

This is probably my fave moment of this fic tho-

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You tried to fight it, tried to loosen your legs a little, hoping it would ease the friction on your clit but his glove gripped harder, preventing you from moving your legs even an inch. You whimpered and tried to take it, tried to hold out,

“Don’t.”

He warned you and while it did sound serious you swore you could hear the hint of a smile in his voice, unable to tell if he really was smiling because his face was still buried in your neck, another bite and you groaned his name. It’s like he wanted you to fail on purpose, like he was doing every little thing right, just trying to see how far he could push you before breaking you down, splitting you open.

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December

I have a weird relationship with this piece because when I posted it, I didn’t think it was up to much. I wrote half of it in the car on my phone and finished it in the nick of time to get it posted for Whumptober, and it was done, and that was it. I didn’t proofread it. I never fixed the line breaks.

Then it turned out people really liked it, and for some it’s their favourite of my pieces! And from the perspective of a reader, I can see why.

It’s the first piece where you learn about Alistair Engels. Outside of Ellis’s perspective, where he is kind, authoritative, somewhat enigmatic, and all-knowing in a way Ellis can’t quite figure out... This is Alistair being human. We learn that he has a family. He has a disabled father whom he cares deeply for and financially supports his parents. They have Christmas traditions. His parents call him Ali.

And then you play that, structurally, against Ellis’s experience of the holiday. Lying on the floor, locked in a bedroom, with barely anything to eat, no source of warmth but the warm water of the tap and the regulated showers, unable to bring himself to break the rules to get warm. Only able to beg for help from someone who never answers instead of taking his survival into his own hands.

Lying on the floor next to a fully made-up double bed and never once thinking about getting into it. Staring in dread at the snowfall that provides the Engels family with a picturesque white Christmas.

That starts leaking into Alistair’s sections, and the two sides of his life come together and all Ellis’s suffering does is contribute to his lovely day. If anyone was yet unconvinced that Alistair is a sadist, despite his pretensions, this should have sealed the deal.

More details slip in to add to this. Alistair has a history of violence. He’s had incidents in his childhood that some of his relatives hold against him. His cousin Rae recognises what he’s like. The only reason his mother, and by implication the rest of his family, don’t recognise what kind of person he is, is because he’s used his power to condition them against it.

His mother, well-trained, breezes past them and sings his praises. He’s whispered unconditional love into her dreams since he was nine years old. 

I suppose what I didn’t realise at the time (being the writer, who knows all of this already) is that this was really the reveal of just how horrible Alistair really is.

And also, how pathetic. Ellis is begging on his bedroom floor inside his mansion for the sake of a vanity project, and his family is celebrating Christmas, and he’s fuming about how his Auntie Mags still holds it against him that he taught her son to shoplift when they were fourteen, while he thumbs the smart controls on his central heating to keep Ellis just barely alive. (I wish now that I’d put that detail in. Alistair was in control of the temperature the whole time.)

ah,,, im not too sure on how to explain this one other than... arthur and alin especially know lukas a lot better than he thinks they do. theres not that much to it, really, but its a concept thats gonna get expanded on for sure (its like. literally the bit im trying to write rn)

lukas' response is, as usual, him trying to deflect conversation away from his feelings for mads, because, again, hes scared about what theyd think. theyre his best friends and his flatmates and he doesnt wanna get kicked out. even when it becomes clear that theyre pretty chill about that kinda thing, its still embarrassing, you know?? hes never really talked about his feelings to people

the pair of them... i guess its up to you whats going on between them, because i really cant decide. theyve definitely been close for a long time, but i dont know if putting them in an actual relationship would have an impact on lukas' story in a way i dont really want it to. also he probably wouldve noticed considering hes lived with them for a couple years now. alin at least is not as dead straight as lukas thinks he is

i think alin speaks first and brings it up because, well,, hes just more open about that kinda thing. its not that lukas and arthur arent as close, but neither of them are particularly forthcoming with their feelings. theyd just sit there in silence when it got tough if alin wasnt there to worm it out of them. its not that arthur doesnt talk about things with lukas - he does at the end of,,, ive forgotten which chapter,, chapter 5?? - but hes a lot more cautious about his boundaries than alin. which is pretty good for being comfortable but in this case that doesnt get much done, huh

THREE! You asked nicely uwu

I’m proud of the QWW I did about the gecko! There are a lot of little geckos around here that get into buildings, so it inspired me. It’s one of the few I really pictured myself in because I was raised to help creatures all the time, and wouldn’t it be funny to scare him with a little critter?

I also like this QWW in the arcade. I think it’s a cute AU! Maybe when I have more time I will revisit the shy gamer idea.

And lastly, I am proud of this kinky number. Writing smut can be awkward, but this was a fun one to do. It’s also one of my longer pieces (no I’m not thirsty).

Thank you for asking, my love!

Director’s Commentary Meme: Baby I’m Trying

For the park scene, it’s Lily and James starting to realize that they’re falling into something like a family. More than just her individual love for James and Harry, Lily loves them as a unit, as her boys. Even though she’d not remotely planned on motherhood, only a few months later, the baby is starting to feel like hers. And on James’s part, he realizes that he can balance having Lily and Harry in his life, and he’s considering the possibility of pursuing his (mutual) feelings for her.

ah nice. 

ok so there’s a couple of stuff going on here actually lol. on one hand, it was just really exciting to build up nyma’s character and show her off as this cool, kinda grungy gorgeous girl that i suppose could present as a threat to keith but doesn’t really. i liked her and lance’s dynamic in canon and wanted some of it in here lol.

she’s also kinda one of the reminders that lance has a pretty lengthy history when it comes to sleeping with people. and that there’s a time where keith maybe is a little jealous, even though it has nothing to do with him. 

there may or may not be a quick mentioning of this squeaked into the last chapter where lance reveals whether it’s true or not, so im not gonna say anything. but yes, nice spot. nice spot.