#coming_out

I would really appreciate repainting my whole story. Create a new persona. Like in those movies: Love, Simon and others. Well, actually it was pretty easy for him. He is gay. However he had supportive parents. Great friends. He was only scared of nobody accepting him. When he assumed his real self, he went into paradise. He also had the most beautiful first kiss ever. Who in the world has something like this? Everything was perfect. I should've hated that movie. But I do not. Because in all these movies, everybody is so perfect. If they are not accepted they already have someone who loves them. They all are so handsome and has those muscled bodies, blonde hair, blue or green eyes. They might be poor, but they always are gorgeous. When you come from a small town, where every single human being is closed minded, and they believe that the only way to educate their children is punching them as hard as they can, it is not that easy to assume even for ourselves what we really are. And what to say about do this publicly. The homosexuals I know in this town, have the brand of being prostitutes or even worse. In school you would be punched on the face for no reason. I know that everyone has its own issues. Its own struggles. We don't have anywhere to go. We don't have anyone who we can count to. We are here for ourselves. And sometimes we must learn how to live a lonely life. Hidden on the shadows. In the darkness of our closets.

Some of us grow up in the church. Hearing that homosexuality is a sin (believe me, it still happens nowadays). Parents teach their kids that homosexuality is something wrong. So, these kids, most of them, grow up hating, hurting, preaching the hate.

I remember when I was a kid, and everywhere I went, everyone used to make offensive noises. Like gay moans. And most of these kids, boys and girls, were the same age as I was.

Life is not easy. I know. But it gets worse when you realize you are something the world teaches you that is wrong and a sin. And in some countries, homosexuality is pusinhed with death.

Nowadays, for some of those kids, I can't even look at them, 'cause they still think I am gay (even though I really am).

A few times, in my childhood (from my 7 to 10 years old), my own dad used to say:

- If someday when you grow up, you turn to me and say that you're a faggot, I will cut your balls off - he doesn't know about me yet. But it just makes me scared to come out to him. Well, actually it doesn't need to be directly for him, if I told to anyone in this town that I am gay, he would know about it in a blink.

Everyday I have to wake up and see that it's another hidden day. Struggling with self issues. And much more stuff. It is stressful.

I can barely count how many times I fell in love with some boy. Most of them, from what know are straight. There was only one that was Bisexual, however I knew that neither him wanted to be with me. It is funny 😊

The point is, we always dream in have a beautiful story as Simon's. But not all of us are going to have. If you have you have someone to lean on, or supportive parents/friends you are in a paradise.

In the meantime, there are boys out there, boys like me, who dream with a beautiful love story. And we don't have anyone who we can tell these stuffs. We have to hide all inside of us. Or use our imagination and put it in blank pages. And it is tiring. It's really tiring.

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Book Title: Home Again

Author: W.S. Long

Publisher: JMS Books, LLC

Cover Artist: Written – Ink

Release Date: 4.11.2020

Genre: Contemporary M/M Romance

Themes: Coming out, forgiveness, second chances

Heat Rating: 2 flames

Length: almost 30k words/ 97 pages

It is a standalone story.

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(Warning!!! there will be words that will offend people, I apologise in advance but i really need to speak my mind)

I recently watched the movie “Love, Simon” which I enjoyed a lot and I relate a lot too when I was coming out to my parents. It makes me wonder about my school life. When I came out to my parents, they said they would support me (tho they don’t rlly show it) and I was ready to come out more.

But the thing is, that my school can be really homophonic. I hear the term “fag” or “homo” used at least 3-4 times a day. Which really pisses me off because they don’t even use it on people who are gay (or at least 100% confirmed gay/bi/pan/etc). I hate how those terms have basically become another way to say “you f**k” or any over way of hurting someone. I have come out to some people who aren’t exactly in my friend group but I still talk to and they support me but some of them are still being quite homophobic.

It’s also the fact the teachers don’t do anything to prevent any of this. My school is your normal school, they do support LGBTQ+ but when it comes to homophobia, they ignore it. For example: a classmate(let’s call him cal) was getting called fag by people in the same year as him and a fight started . From what I know, he is openly gay. Now, the thing is that the people who insulted hin didn’t get suspended but instead he did which is bullshit because he was standing up for him self and cal shouldn’t have gotten treated like that. Which is one of the main reasons why I don’t rlly want to come out to everyone in my school