#coffeerant

drinking coffee at this rate has my stomach sick and i know i won’t remember shit tomorrow, but it’s worth it because i need good grades and i need a permit and im afraid to drive 

Sometimes it’s okay to just spend a day in bed Away from the outside, away from the lights To hide your phone, and turn the music up just a little bit louder Sometimes it’s okay to cry To let the tears fall down your cheeks, without wiping them before they fall Some say it’s a sign of weakness, but when the tears have built up, and they’re just too heavy, it’s sometimes okay to cry This isn’t a start to some sad song Sometimes it’s okay to just write down whatever it is that’s in your head I’m sitting here after two cups of coffee in front of a candle that’s flickering, and has a label on it that says “Never settle” I could never stop working towards what I want, and sometimes it’s okay not to know what it is you want Sometimes you have to go through pain, or hit bottom, or even go beyond bottom, to realize it’s exactly what you needed to stand back up Fall down seven, stand up eight. No matter what you are going through, where you are in the world, or what you see ahead of you, make a promise to yourself, to never settle for less than you deserve Never give up on something because it’s out of reach on your first attempt, get a ladder, or find a way to get closer to what it is you want, there will be a way. Or you’ll go through mistakes to find a path that’ll lead you to something you may not have even known was exactly what you were looking for...

There’s more to all this I’ve seen a lot, and I’ve been through a lot I’ve traveled, and I’ve been still There’s more outside of the walls that you’ve built And I get it, I have walls too But I’ve allowed room for a lot of windows If I don’t look out, I won’t learn I won’t learn from the mistakes I have made I wouldn’t have learnt that I can love someone for who they are  I wouldn’t have jumped out of a plane in Africa to skydive over Table Mountain It’s funny to think the walls I’ve built surround me when I’m in my comfort zone, but when I’m free in this world, the walls disappear There’s more to all this 

I always get to order my coffee before some wanna-be hipster who doesnt know the difference between capuccino and latte and decided to do his "research" asking the barista at the cashier...... I just need an espresso porfavoooorrr

Mornings start out in the shower then quickly to the kitchen for coffee. Then in front of a mirror where I'll spend 30-45 minutes trying to cover my face up and the very noticeable dark circles that surround my eyes simply because I'm exhausted, and the fact that this isn't how I want to be throwing my life away.

Coffee prolly wasn't the best idea, now I have all this energy and nowhere to go, nothing to do and my brain is just overthinking everything. I am supposed to be working on an assignment for my writing class but fel like I fucked it all up, and want to start over but don't and just UGH. TOO MUCH ENERGY! EFF.