I held Jay’s hand and kissed his forehead. I told him how much I loved him. I thanked him for being such an amazing brother and for all the things he has taught me throughout the years. He taught me not only how to be a better person but how important it is to want to be a better person. I thanked him for being such a Godly man and for showing me how to live a life God would be proud of. I told him how proud I was of the man he had become. He was a great husband, father, teacher and coach. I thanked him for teaching me what it means to be a great parent and how to be one. I promised him I would always be there for Aiden and Kailyn as well as Corinne. I promised him that I would strive to always be more like him, to always remember everything he taught me, to say “Yeah Baby” often, and to help to guide his children in the way of the Lord. I told him that I would never forget about him and how much he meant to me. I told him just how much I would miss him. I couldn’t even begin to know how much that was going to be then. I told him over and over again how much I loved him. I cried like a baby on his shoulder. I kissed his forehead again. I kissed his hand that I’d been holding, and I begged him not to go.