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Time stopped and euphoric youth ran through our veins. You were the best damn drug I’ve ever tried.

I was so in love with you.

Missing you comes in waves of grief and so many questions.

I think the answers are just ones I’ve avoided, ones you’ve avoided too. Too scared to hurt me. You loved me, you weren’t ready, you didn’t want to bleed on me but you did love me— at least for a time. Nothing can change my mind about that. Absolutely nothing.

Months later you still had the picture as your screen saver. My dog as your profile picture and we were tip toeing around making each other jealous.

I was a fucking mess. You loved me as much as you could and I am so grateful to have known you in that time. So grateful.

We both realized that it had to end. We were two car crashes who couldn’t stop staring at each other.

I miss you, always.

I’m a disabled guy on Newstart, and I plan on using Jack Monroe’s Cooking on a Bootstrap to 

not starve

not feel completely deprived

However, since I’m in Australia, much of their estimations for how much things cost don’t apply. 

I’ve already started doing some calculations of how much things cost in Australia, but can’t find the notebook since I just moved house, and thought I might as well make a blog so that other people can use the calculations too.

Things I won’t do: reproduce Jack’s recipes here. I’ll link back to Jack’s website instead. I haven’t asked their permission, and this isn’t meant to replace their website. If I wind up putting any recipes up, they’ll probably be my own, or things that you can’t find online.

Things to bear in mind:

I’m vegan, so stuff that isn’t easily turned vegan I’ll probs skip.

I have fatigue, and so this will probably be updated infrequently since I am usually lucky to cook twice a week, and I’ll probably revisit recipes regularly.

//whispers

Recipe at Cooking on a Bootstrap here.

Ingredient substitutions

The original recipe calls for baked beans, since they’re supercheap in the UK. They are not similarly cheap here in Australia, but you can replace them with another tin of beans since the sauce is not used.

Stock powder seems to be cheaper than getting stock cubes, so I’ve used powder in the estimation below.

Price breakdown

Serves 4 at $1.48 per serve

1 x 400g tin of red kidney beans, $1.50 (Annalisa red kidney beans)

1 x 400g tin of baked beans, $1.50 (Annalisa borlotti/butter/cannellini beans)

1 onion, 41c ($2.5/1kg onions)

1 fat clove of garlic, 15c (90c per bulb of garlic)

4 tablespoons oil, 55c ($4.40/2L Homebrand canola or vegetable oil)

3 teaspoons paprika, 28c ($3.80/190g, Hoyts sweet paprika - you can get Hoyts sweet smoked for slightly more)

1 x 400g carton or tin of chopped tomatoes, 80c (Woolworths Select Diced Italian tomatoes)

1 tsp veggie stock powder 15c/10g ($3.70/250g Vegeta Gourmet Vegetable Stock Powder)

1 teaspoon sugar, 1c ($1/1kg, Homebrand white sugar) 

Total cost $5.93

Further notes

If you go to an Asian or Indian supermarket, you should be able to find cheaper paprika than Hoyts. 

Recipe at Cooking on a Bootstrap here.

Price breakdown

Makes 12, at 8c each

50g dairy-free margarine, 33c ($3.30/500g Nuttelex)

2 tbsp sugar, 3c ($1/1kg, Woolworths Essentials)

3 tbsp peanut butter, 36c ($2.40/500g, Woolworth Essentials)

75g self raising flour, 6c ($1.50/2kg, Woolworth Essentials)

4 tsp jam, 10c ($1.40/500g, Woolworths Homebrand)

Notes

The recipe says ‘4 tbsp’ of jam. It is wrong. I diligently spooned out 4 tablespoons and wound up using a third of that and promptly realised that it’s a typo and should be 4 tsp. Like, maybe a skerrick more wouldn’t go astray? But four tablespoons is A LOT when trying to plop it on top of biscuits that are the size of a squashed marble.

The biscuits look ridiculously small when you spoon them out!! Just so small!!! I nearly made them double-sized and was glad I didn’t when they E X P A N D E D in the oven. Not for nothing are you using self-raising flour.

Chapters: 10/? Fandom: 終わりのセラフ | Owari no Seraph | Seraph of the End Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Hyakuya Mikaela/Hyakuya Yuuichirou Characters: Hyakuya Yuuichirou, Hyakuya Mikaela, Hiiragi Shinoa, Saotome Yoichi, Kimizuki Shihou, Sanguu Mitsuba, Ferid Bathory, Hiiragi Mahiru, Ichinose Guren, Hiiragi Shinya Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, Romance, Action/Adventure, Humor, Superhero!Mika, Anal Sex, Smut Summary:

It was then that Yuu took a moment to fully let the situation at hand sink in. There he was, wearing nothing more but an oversized, white T-shirt, his elephant designed boxer briefs that Shinoa had given him as a gag gift for Christmas last year, and a lot of fatigue while he stared down at the unconscious superhero that saved his life only about an hour ago.

or

Yuu is a university student that tends to live for the moment. Mika is a cynical superhero that’s more super than a hero. Fate is a bit aggressive with intertwining their lives.