#cliqbaits

everything is falling apart. it feels like a cruel joke – being given a solid five minutes of joy & hope & peace only for it to be taken away when she least expects it. they were doing so good. edge of great is still getting traction as they speak & people can't seem to get enough. they were so close. but this is hardly just about the band. if this was only about the band, she'd find a better way to cope. they brought so much more than music into her life. it's a bond she can't imagine replicating for as long as she lives – especially the one she has with luke. there's a string tying her soul to theirs & she's scared to find out what will happen to her the moment they fade from her life. she's scared to go back to the dark place they found her in. & she doesn't trust herself enough not to fall back into isolation & anger, feelings she's far too familiar with. feelings that have no right to come back when she's been doing so well. a deep sigh flees her, full of frustration as his hand passes through hers. " there's nothing to figure out, luke... " the hopelessness wrapping around her words is enough to break her own heart. " you have to cross over. you can't spend eternity in that place & you won't get destroyed by those jolts, not if i have anything to say about it. " a beat. " i'd just... give anything for a fourth option. "

[ 📲 • favorite drummer ] she's really lucky to have you

"Fuck it babe, my dad should be on the list." If there was someone up there on his list next to Sidney, it was Hank Loomis. The abusive alcoholic who couldn't be bothered with his son. "He should go for sure." He took a long drag off the joint they were sharing before he passed it to Stu. "Then we skip town and take this thing across the country. Really have some fun together." He leaned over and pecked Stu's cheek. He wasn't the most affectionate some days but it helped to be stoned. "And we don't have to hide being together."

@cliqbaits // dom cobb

she doesn't take rejection well. there is very little she's been denied her entire life & even the things she couldn't have at one point fell into her possession sooner or later. people are more complicated... & she's very much excluding kelso, also known as cheating bastard at the moment, from this list. hyde has done a bang-up job of completely ignoring her pleas not to let her go to this dance alone. a girl has a reputation to uphold. showing up to a dance alone is social suicide ! so, when he'd said no, despite instincts that told her not to, she'd settled. it was last minute & no offense to the totally flaky jerk who's left her hanging, but she clearly could've done better. " so, you don't care. " arms folded over her chest, feet firmly planted on her porch, she looks at him as though she's trying to do the most complicated algebra. & more often than not, that's exactly what being around hyde feels like. she might not have the softest spot for math, but the same can't be said when it comes to him. sue her for falling for intelligence wrapped in a hot & broody exterior. his heart is surrounded by the toughest shell she's ever known. she supposes it just hasn't come across the jackie burkhart brand of persistence yet. but she can't get started if he won't even look at her. " steven, this is bogus ! i'm not going to climb in a car with you just because you suddenly decided you feel guilty. i don't need or want your pity. "

it was a good question. thinking back on the first time they ended up in bed together, she could only think of one thing – great job making the list, sherbatsky. it's not like there was room to process how she felt about what happened between them. she was just left guilty & questioning any shred of self respect she'd ever thought there was. but that was then. & things have changed. they keep changing. she's not saying their secret summer affair is particularly healthy, but they went into this on the same page – wanting something casual & fun. not being able to stay away from each other. the type of thing people might call a ticking time bomb. there's a reason nobody knows, after all. still... that ticking is louder than it's ever been, harmonizing with the beat of her heart. " i – " she hears herself asking him to stay & panics when he questions it, gaze shifting to the side. sleepovers weren't part of the deal. not explicitly. but for once, she can't stomach the thought of waking up to his empty side of the bed. " – just don't want you to run into ted, it's better if you stay. he chugged a lot of coffee, i think he's staying up to work on his first day teaching plan tonight. " relief fills the breath that leaves her as he pulls her close, arm wrapping around his middle & head tucked in the crook of his neck, gluing herself to his body. she knows she's not fooling him. & he's not fooling her, either. but she'll happily play along. " ah man, you got me. morning sex was totally my ulterior motive. "