Tommyinnit God au where Tubbo's dies and Tommy says no.

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No no no no

There was so much blood. Not his. Never his. Tommy didn't bleed. Tommy wasn't as fragile as mortals, as Tubbo. But Tubbo was dying. His best friend had been stabbed through the chest by his brother and was dying.

Technoblade yanked the sword from Tubbo's chest, kicking his body away. "Government corrupts, Tommy. He was dangerous." He was still talking.

Words buzzed against his ears, static washing over him and paling his skin.

Oh gods

Blood is pooling beside the prime path, in front of Her temple. There is people watching, no heroes. Faces and colors blurred, friends and enemies and no one is helping Tubbo.

Tommy is falling beside his best friend in an instant, looking up to the sky. "You can't have him! He was mine first!"

The ground shakes and air buzzing like somthing greater than a lighting strike. Tommy throws his open hands against Tubbo's chest, one slipping and plunging into the bloody gaping hole in Tubbo's middle. He keeps it there. His hand grips the wet grass underneath.

'The whole server is here,' his mind provides helpfully. He doesn't care. 'Let them know.'

Tommy can feel himself drawing up his power, The usual trickle coming from the world around him, swirling like a storm, a hurricane. The surrounding area floods. Energy pours from him, glowing like a star, to blinding like the sun. Wind presses against him, drawing him closer to the body. Whips of yellow light flying like solar flares, blinding. People are backing away.

Is the whole server here?

Someone is screaming. Maybe it's Tommy. He feels like he could. He can see it. Tubbo's very essence is glowing green in front of him and he will not let go. Tommy is reaching up and grasping it, bringing it back down to the hole in Tubbo's chest. That's all it is. A hole. An inconvenience. Tommy's dealt with bigger things than death. Both hands are bloodied up to his elbows, holding Tubbo's life down firmly. Bones click into place, organs readjusting and mending, skin stitching together around his arms. He's can do this. He is life. He can bring it back, put it back where it belongs. He's never done it before but how hard can it really be? There is no bottom to his well of energy, relentless as the ocean, He is the ocean. Tommy is the ocean, the forest, the mountains, and life.

He pulls away at the perfect moment. It has to be perfect. His deciple cannot die. That would be very rude of Lady Death and He'd have to have a word with Her. But the skin has finished melding, and there is no new blood. Tubbo is alive. Of course he is. Big man Tommy Innit wouldn't let his best friend die. Tubbo is ok. He is sleeping, head tilted towards Tommy and forehead resting against his knee. Tommy pushes away the sweaty bangs, brushing fingers across Tubbo's hair. Tommy's chest heaves dangerously and his eyes burn. Tommy is very angry.

"I am very fucking angry."

The earth has grown around them. Vines twirl up the Church and flowers sprout around them, like a wild garden has been nurtured there for years. The crowd flinches. Some gasp. He can feel their fear.

Ranboo is here, running to them and Tommy feels his fists unclench. Technoblade is reaching for the enderman. Tommy flicks a finger. A large tree sprouts between them, roots and trunk tangling together, upwards. Leaves and blooms scatter along it's branches. It brushes against Ranboo's suit, and pushing Technoblade to the ground. Ranboo is beside Tommy now, holding his husband's hand and crying.

"He'll be ok. He's gonna feel like fuckin hell but don't give him anything. It could mess up his head if he-"

Ranboo throws himself at Tommy, shoulders trembling and curling around him. Words of thanks spill over. Tommy just rubs a hand against the taller's back, the other holding him close.

"He's ok, Ran. We're all ok," Tommy speaks gently, excess power still slipping away, gently now.

We're ok.

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My clingy duo headcannons !! :

Tommy- Adhd gremlin, c-ptsd, BPD, trans (ftm), neoprnouns user and racoon hybrid

Tommy: guys this is not me being clingy

Tommy: Well, how long will you be gone?

Wilbur: Well, I'm not going to eat it ON MIC.

Tommy: NO! Eat on mic! Nobody minds!

Wilbur: Do you want me to autotune eat a hamburger?

Tommy: YES! That will help, actually.

Wilbur: Okay, do you want me to be there for the beginning? Is that what you want?

Take a second to think about how deeply the traumatic experiences C!Tommy has had affect him. It’s worked into the lore and canon really well in terms of acting and logistics, if you think about it. I think Tommy has PTSD.

the criteria for ptsd are as follows:

“Exposure to actual or threatened death, serious injury, or sexual violence in one (or more) of the following ways:

1) Directly experiencing the traumatic event(s). 2) Witnessing, in person, the event(s) as it occurred to others. 3) Learning that the traumatic event(s) occurred to a close family member or close friend. In cases of actual or threatened death of a family member or friend, the event(s) must have been violent or accidental. 4) Experiencing repeated or extreme exposure to aversive details of the traumatic event(s) (e.g., first responders collecting human remains; police officers repeatedly exposed to details of child abuse).”

criterion 1 is fulfilled easily with several examples:

- final control room, where he was killed by Dream due to Eret’s betrayal

- the multiple threats by Dream toward his life during exile

- the multiple threats by Dream toward Tubbo’s (and the other L’Manberg residents) life in exile

- Tommy’s second death at Dream’s hands during the duel.

criterion 2 is filled by:

-witnessing Tubbo’s death at the hands of Techno (his brother)

-witnessing Tubbo’s death (again) at the hands of Dream

-watching Dream, who already killed his best friend once, threaten the life of his friend and blame him for it

-watching Wilbur’s death at the hands of his father (in a way that was almost assisted suicide)

-seeing his home blown up not once, twice, but three times

criterion 3′s examples all come from the two aforementioned categories, similarly with criterion 4.

The next segment of ptsd diagnostic criteria is as follows:

Presence of one (or more) of the following intrusion symptoms associated with the traumatic event(s), beginning after the traumatic event(s) occurred:

1) Recurrent, involuntary, and intrusive distressing memories of the traumatic event(s). Note: In children older than 6 years, repetitive play may occur in which themes or aspects of the traumatic event(s) are expressed. 2) Recurrent distressing dreams in which the content and/or affect of the dream are related to the traumatic event(s). Note: In children, there may be frightening dreams without recognizable content. 3) Dissociative reactions (e.g., flashbacks) in which the individual feels or acts as if the traumatic event(s) were recurring. (Such reactions may occur on a continuum, with the most extreme expression being a complete loss of awareness of present surroundings.) Note: In children, trauma-specific reenactment may occur in play. 4) Intense or prolonged psychological distress at exposure to internal or external cues that symbolize or resemble an aspect of the traumatic event(s). 5) Marked physiological reactions to internal or external cues that symbolize or resemble an aspect of the traumatic event(s).

Criterion 1, 3, 4, and 5 manifest themselves in Tommy attaching himself to Techno after escaping from Logsteadshire and the domain of Dream, especially when the two go close to the ruins of Tommy’s old home and he says “I can’t be alone right now, please stay near me, Techno.” As well as when the two stumble upon the Final Control Room and Tommy has a full on flashback (unable to move, reliving the event over and over until Techno physically removes him from the triggering situation.) Even the presence of Ghostbur, (a not-quite-living reminder of the dead brother who’s suicide he witnessed), seems to evoke an almost depersonalized state in him.

Tommy also displays persistent avoidance of areas, people, and objects associated with former traumatic experiences like the final control room, logsteadshire, and even snowchester because it’s on a beach, he says, just like logsteadshire, where he would wake up drowning every morning. He would even avoid Dream and alivebur up until the point where he absolutely had to face them.

The final criteria are maladaptive thought patterns:

Negative alterations in cognitions and mood associated with the traumatic event(s), beginning or worsening after the traumatic event(s) occurred, as evidenced by two (or more) of the following:

1) Inability to remember an important aspect of the traumatic event(s) (typically due to dissociative amnesia, and not to other factors such as head injury, alcohol, or drugs). 2) Persistent and exaggerated negative beliefs or expectations about oneself, others, or the world (e.g., “I am bad,” “No one can be trusted,” “The world is completely dangerous,” “My whole nervous system is permanently ruined”). 3) Persistent, distorted cognitions about the cause or consequences of the traumatic event(s) that lead the individual to blame himself/herself or others. 4) Persistent negative emotional state (e.g., fear, horror, anger, guilt, or shame). 5) Markedly diminished interest or participation in significant activities. 6) Feelings of detachment or estrangement from others. 7) Persistent inability to experience positive emotions (e.g., inability to experience happiness, satisfaction, or loving feelings).

Tommy demonstrates almost all of these (with the possible exception of crit.1) over the course of his struggle to process the trauma mentioned earlier in this essay. He repeatedly vocalizes his persistent and exaggerated negative beliefs, literally “i am bad” and “it’s my fault”. The self-blame (in part from repeated placement of blame upon him by trusted adults), also manifests itself in alignment with criterion 3. Even now, that he has a stable life with Sam Nook and Tubbo, he struggles with the feelings of estrangement and detachment described in criterion 6.

Therefore, in accordance with the previously explained reasons, I believe Tommy in the dream smp canon, is suffering from ptsd.

thank you for coming to my ted talk. 

Us: (not believing them, knowing they'll probably never do it bc we've learned) "yeah, sure"

Tommyinnit, Ranboo, and Tubbo: "we'll be doing/making/releasing [insert thing here]!"