#clexacru

I’ve never really had triggers, or at least none that I came in contact with through pop culture, but now the 1OO has become a trigger in it’s whole. I can’t even think of watching the show, not even the old episodes, because I get overwhelmed with fear and I get cold sweat whenever I see certain clexa gifs, I can’t read any non AU fics (I know this isn’t in any way important but it was something that made me happy in the past and I’ve lost that). And I hate that I know this isn’t even anything remotely resembling what some other kids are going through now, I just have to get this of my chest. I’m endlessly glad for this fandom, I was so scared right after 307 aired that I would fall into depression, I’ve been struggling with that since I was eleven and I’d been doing really well for almost a year, partly thanks to this show... but mostly thanks to this fandom. I don’t know what would have happened to me had it not kept existing in the way it has, so I guess this is just a giant fucking thank you to everyone in the fandom, I’m going to tag a couple blogs in particular that really helped a lot, I feel a bit weird about that but I really want to say thanks.