#cilv

lrb now wait. now hold on. now hang on. im having visions . i need to cook

i do think one of my fave cil pieces of lore is just that he’s bad with money. he’s broke. he doesn’t care. he doesn’t even know. he doesn’t need money. he’s going to get shit for free bc he’s the wol anyway. he gets money. he doesn’t know what to do with it. he gives it to veranus. veranus is stressed out about it.

ive been awake for 2 hours for no reason i think cillien should actively seek out clairvaux while he’s in the city and veranus is not. i think veranus would say just enough about his personality for cillien to be able to find him. i thinkkkk he should chain him to a radiator also. but it would be funny if cillien also just dropped his name out of nowhere to freak veranus out.

see the thing is im down pounding my head against the kitchen floor apologizing for my life and ever entering yours don’t say i’m sorry but this can’t go on i know you’ve got scars of your own but hide my knives before you go i’ll either live or die alone goes so crazy for cilv in like stb post haurchie once cillien becomes more normal and v wants to go do other things and cillien realizes how much he relies on him 😂

i thought about cv first kiss when theyre like young awkward teens but i cant think about that right now. instead i’ll think about cillien crossing a room and sitting down a little too close to veranus and its obvious veranus has been drinking and his flush goes to the tips of his ears and he fumbles over his words a bit trying to make conversation with cillien and cillien’s expression is mildly amused but theres something else there that veranus cant quite place and then cillien takes veranus’ chin in his hand and the words die on veranus’ tongue as cillien looks at him like hes figuring out how best to dissect him and they just stare at each other for a while and then cillien releases him and stands and leaves w/o saying anything and veranus just knows hes supposed to follow him. so he does and then they (sound of a twig snapping) what was that

genuinely hilarious to me if v becomes a woman cillien would just kind of lose interest in her. like he LOVES torturing this sad pathetic twink but it just doesnt hit the same when its a beautiful confident woman