#chud diary

i was sceptical of santa being fake when i was younger but one memory prevented me from surpassing it. i was always jealous of my siblings gifts, i always had girly toys despite telling santa the things im interested in, my brother got puzzles. i loved puzzles. my older siblings got pokemon. i loved pokemon. i really wanted pokemon too so i wrote on my wishlist for pokemon cards. i ended up getting what i wanted, my mom was suprised too, but i wasnt able to open it. we went to walmart and she returned it for money. i cried. cried cried cried. she said she'll buy me smaller pokemon but she didn't and she lied. and i cried loudly on her shoulder. i thought santa was real because she didn't know i got that gift. it was the program that gave to the poor. if we wasn't poor i wouldn't have gotten pokemon at all. i was so jealous my whole life.