bc like. it’s one thing to have been planning the chris/axel romance from the start

but i really just didn’t read their relationship as romantic??? like at the start they had a little chemistry but that was mostly like. “ik how straight people write romance”. the show went on and it seemed to get a lot more platonic

and then we had fucking inga (/pos), chris is a russian lesbian spy, and she has such intense lasting feelings about her ex-girlfriend/-handler that she’d let inga kill her gun to her head— so clearly chris is not over this woman

inga DIES, so i guess we’re killing our goddamn gays but chris is still a badass so it’s fine it’s fine it’s f

and then she. kisses axel.

and the thing is— i get the “last day of the world, no regrets” thing. i really do get it. but then you see axel’s expression as she leaves

and it’s fucking raw.

i feel like it cheapens the intensity of chris’ relationship with inga for her to be kissing axel as anything less than a half impulse desire thing. or as a rebound.

but i also think it is such a massive cheapening of her very deep and very new relationship with axel that she’s suddenly kissing him?? on a half baked whim??? this guy who hasn’t had aclose relationship since he was a kid, who spilled his entire tragic backstory to her, character with his suitcase packed who finally found a place he’d like to stay—

and it just seems cruel.

kill me with knives if i am being that one person who hates women getting in the way of male relationships……like please trust me i dont think im being misogynistic with this but tell me if i am

BUT. AUGH. idec about axel being gay i just wanted a strong platonic friendship between a man and a woman that didn’t uave to be romantic, i was so damn excited, chris could be a female character NOT tied to a man as this sort of “ultimate” narrative purpose (which is what the kiss felt like to me)— a woman who was still allowed to love and be vulnerable (can we talk about the fact that she is either a lesbian or bisexual) AND THEN GOODBYE????

I just finished up a new anime and needed something a bit happier than the angsty Whumptober I've been doing, so here's a happy fic for the LAZARUS anime

If you haven't seen it, go watch it. It's by the creator of Cowboy Bebop and it's really good

Enjoy!

they look like they adopted him

no fuck you

i love that they all trust each other as more secrets about their past come to light and theyre really feeling like a fucked up family but a family nonetheless. the scene where axel consoles leland whos crying but doesnt make fun of him will stay in my heart

also im SO glad they didnt use the miscommunication trope more bc it wouldve just been annoying