It's been a while since my first transition related post so here is some more info on what's been going on with that.
I went to my first appointment at CHPL, I can't remember the exact date (not home right now so I can't check, sorry) and it didn't go very well. I was in a packed waiting room for 3 hours because my psychologist was late. The waiting room wasn't a super pleasant experience because several people waiting for other mental health appointments had breakdowns or were just visibly distressed while being ignored by anyone that could help them, and it made my anxiety 10 times worse.
The appointment didn't take very long. I walked in, Dr. Catarina asked me a few questions about me being trans and my family. The whole thing lasted about 10-15 minutes and she was on the phone discussing personal issues for half of it. In the end she asked me to write an essay about my "personal history" and bring it with me to our next appointment.
I also sheduled an endo appointment that day and was told I would receive a letter with the actual date.
My next appointment with Dr. Catarina was on April 19. While in the waiting room she walked past me twice and didn't aknowledge me at all. After a while a woman on the waiting room started screaming and becoming very emotionally and physically distressed over her phone, the man who was with her grabbed her by the neck and threw her into the chairs, restraining her there while she kept screaming while the staff watched and did nothing. It was incredibly upsetting.
I waited for 5 hours and my name didn't get called so I headed to the check in counter to ask about that and was informed that the doctor had already left. That was literally all the info I got after 5 hours of waiting, she just left. None of the staff knew what to do or who to talk to, I was so upset, didn't know what to do so I asked to reschedule and left.
About a week later I got a letter about my endo appointment at CHPL and found out it had been scheduled for the next day, I wasn't going to be able to go so I called the hospital. I called 6 times with no answer and when I finally got someone to talk to me, she started yelling at me for not being able to make it to the appointment.
At this point I'm considering just not going to any more appointments because the stress and anxiety that going to the hospital causes me is getting harder to handle each time, and on top of that I've been having a lot of problems at home so everything is getting a little too much to handle. I'm looking at private clinics where I could transition in a much friendlier and more helpful environment, tho due to my problems at home and how expensive it would be it will still take a while.
