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can you write a sainz sister who is also a retired driver born around 1988 and she is lewisโs ex and they breakup due to his commitment phobia and later on she got married to someone else and then divorced and years later, she and lewis give a second chance to their love. write angst.
thank you and hope you are doing well. even though have never meet you but can feel that you are a very kind and sweet person. lots of love to you โค๏ธ
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lewis hamilton x !ex reader
you hadnโt stepped foot in a formula 1 paddock in nearly a decade.
not since you hung up your helmet. not since you walked away from the only world that had ever felt like homeโand from the man you once believed youโd spend forever with. but when carlos called and all but demanded you show up to the spanish grand prix, just to make sure you werenโt crumbling post-divorce, how could you possibly say no?
you didnโt expect the cameras to swarm. you didnโt expect the sudden flood of old memories, or how the air would still smell like tire smoke and adrenaline and heartbreak. and you definitely didnโt expect to lock eyes with lewis hamilton across the garage, as if no time had passed at all.
youโve both changedโolder, wiser, a little more careful. but the tightness in your chest gives you away. some love stories donโt stay buried forever. and maybeโฆ just maybeโฆ yours is ready for a second chance.
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(a/n) : hi love!! this idea was sooooo good, i got started on it as soon as i saw it. im doing pretty well and i hope you are too!!! your words are so very kind and i am sending you all of the love in the world:))))
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flashback
monaco ; late 2014
The sunlight had just started to spill in through the floor-to-ceiling windows when you stirred, face buried in the pillow, a heavy arm lazily thrown across your waist.
You knew it was Lewis before you even opened your eyes. He always clung in his sleep, even when heโd pretend to be all cool and casual about it while awake. Youโd learned early on that his love language was closenessโthe kind he didnโt even have to speak. Just curled fingers in your shirt at night, his feet brushing against yours under the duvet, the slow and sleepy way heโd tug you back into him if you moved too far.
โMm, baby,โ he murmured, voice gravelly, still half-asleep. โDonโt get up yet.โ
โIโm not,โ you whispered, shifting to rest your head on his chest. โNot unless Roscoe starts whining.โ
As if on cue, a soft snort came from the foot of the bed. You looked down to see Coco already sitting upright, ears perked, her wrinkled face staring at you expectantly while Roscoe snored peacefully beside her, unaware.
You laughed, quietly, and Lewis cracked one eye open.
โYour daughterโs got places to be.โ
โShe probably just wants to steal your breakfast again,โ he said, smiling as he pressed a kiss to the top of your head.
Eventually, you dragged yourselves out of bed and padded into the kitchen, barefoot and wrapped in oversized hoodiesโhis on you, yours on him. You made coffee while Lewis fried eggs, Roscoe snuffling around your feet and Coco waiting patiently by the fridge, knowing exactly where the treats were.
โSheโs smarter than me,โ Lewis muttered, glancing down at her. โYou see that look? Sheโs got a plan.โ
โSheโs just ambitious. She gets it from her father.โ
He turned toward you with that easy grinโthe one that always made your chest feel warm, even years later. โSo what do they get from you?โ
You shrugged. โMy patience. Obviously. And my good skin.โ
You ended up having breakfast on the balcony, overlooking the quiet Monaco harbor. No press. No cameras. No noise.
Just the sound of seagulls, the smell of sea air, and the two of you wrapped in blankets, with sleepy dogs sprawled across your feet. Lewis leaned his head on your shoulder while you scrolled through the photos on your phoneโsnaps from races, blurry selfies, one of Roscoe in sunglasses.
He looked over and pointed at a photo of you in your race suit, grinning with your helmet in hand.
โI still think youโre the coolest person Iโve ever met.โ
You nudged him with your elbow. โEven cooler than Roscoe in sunglasses?โ
โBarely,โ he said, laughing. โBut yeah. You are.โ
Later, he made you both smoothies and put on a Marvin Gaye vinyl while you danced around the kitchen with Coco in your arms and Roscoe trying to climb your legs. He grabbed your hand at some point, pulled you in close, and swayed with you like there was nowhere else in the world to be.
And honestly?
There wasnโt.
Not that day.
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01/07/2015
Youโd told everyone you were going to keep it lowkey this year. No big party. No celebrity guest list. No wild night in the city.
Heโd just turned thirtyโan age that felt too surreal to him, too heavy in meaningโand you knew what he really needed was something slower. Quieter. Something that felt like home.
So you rented a secluded cabin in the Swiss Alps, just the two of you and the dogs, the kind of place where the snow muffled every sound and time felt like it paused. You flew in two days early to set everything up: his favorite wine already uncorked, candles in every room, a Polaroid camera on the table, and a string of printed photos from every year youโd been together, clipped up across the windows.
The night before his birthday, you made pasta in the tiny kitchen and danced to Sade in wool socks while Roscoe and Coco tried to chew your slippers. You lit a fire and curled up with him under a blanket, his head in your lap, your fingers lazily carding through his curls while he talked about the next season, about his goals, about how weird it felt to be thirty.
โFeels like I just blinked,โ he said, voice low. โAnd now Iโmโฆ here.โ
โHereโs pretty good,โ you whispered.
When the clock struck midnight, you kissed his temple and whispered, โHappy birthday, baby.โ
He didnโt say anything at first. Just looked up at you, eyes a little glassy, and tugged you down for a kiss. It wasnโt rushed or heatedโjust soft and lingering, like he wanted to memorize it.
โThank you for still being here,โ he said against your lips.
You blinked. โWhere else would I be?โ
He sat up, held your face in his hands, and whispered, โYouโve been with me through every high and every low. Since before Roscoe. Since before Mercedes. When I was still figuring myself out, and I didnโt always get it right.โ
You pressed your forehead to his. โAnd Iโll still be here, thirty years from now.โ
The morning of his birthday, you woke up early and made pancakesโburned the first batch, naturally. He wandered into the kitchen in one of your hoodies, sleepy and smiling, hair a mess, Roscoe waddling behind him like a bodyguard.
There were presents, of courseโvintage records, a framed photo of him and Roscoe from his first championship, and a leather-bound journal engraved with โwrite it all downโyouโll want to remember.โ But the one that made him go quiet was the small box at the bottom of the stack.
Inside was a delicate silver chain with a tiny charm, decorated with your initials, you had custom made, nothing flashy, just something that sat close to the skin.
โI know you donโt wear much jewelry,โ you said softly, โbut I thoughtโmaybe you could keep me close, even when weโre not in the same place.โ
He didnโt say anything for a moment. Just pulled you into his arms and held you so tightly it knocked the breath out of you.
โIโve never loved anyone like this,โ he said into your neck. โAnd I donโt think I ever will.โ
You spent the rest of the day curled up in bed, watching the snow fall, Roscoe and Coco wedged between you. You barely touched your phones. You lit candles and played records and took blurry Polaroids of each other laughing and holding coffee mugs and slow dancing in the middle of the living room in your pajamas.
It was nothing extravagant.
But it was everything.
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mid season 2015
It had been a quiet evening.
You were in Paris for a few days between racesโboth of you grateful for the rare pause in your schedules. Lewis had made dinner reservations, but youโd ended up skipping them, ordering room service instead. He wore sweats and no shirt, hair tied up, one leg lazily thrown over yours as the two of you shared a bowl of fruit in bed while an old movie played in the background.
It shouldโve been perfect.
And in a way, it was. Until the moment you asked.
You werenโt trying to ruin anything. It wasnโt a test. You were justโฆ wondering. Hoping.
โI was talking to a friend the other day,โ you said softly, twirling a strawberry by its stem. โShe and her fiancรฉ are house hunting. In Spain.โ
Lewis hummed in acknowledgment, eyes still on the screen.
โAnd it just made me think aboutโฆ the future. Likeโhave you ever thought about marriage? Or kids?โ
His body went still. Barely. But you noticed.
You didnโt look at him right away. You just kept picking at the fruit, trying to pretend your heart wasnโt suddenly in your throat.
After a moment, he cleared his throat. โYeah, I meanโฆ I think about it sometimes. I guess. Not right now, though.โ
You nodded, even though he wasnโt saying what you needed to hear.
He leaned back against the pillows, arm resting behind his head. โI just feel like thereโs still so much I want to do. With racing. With life. I donโt know if Iโd be good at all that domestic stuff. Settling down, being someoneโs husband, dadโฆโ
You laughed, but it came out thin. โYouโre great with Roscoe.โ
He smiled faintly. โYeah, but Roscoe doesnโt need me to give up half my life.โ
And there it was.
You let the silence hang for a moment too long.
โIโm not saying we need to figure it out tomorrow,โ you said gently. โI justโฆ sometimes I wonder what the point of all this is, if weโre not going anywhere.โ
Lewis looked at you then. Really looked.
And he said, quietly, โIsnโt this enough? Right now?โ
You wanted to say yes.
You really did.
But something inside you shifted in that moment. Something subtle but irreversible.
Because you suddenly realized that maybe what you wanted wasnโt right now. Maybe it was forever. A house, a wedding, a baby crawling between Roscoe and Coco on a lazy Sunday morning. A partner who wasnโt afraid to want the same.
And maybeโฆ Lewis wasnโt that person. Not yet. Maybe not ever.
You leaned your head on his shoulder, even though your chest ached.
You still loved him. You knew he loved you, too.
But love, as you were starting to understand, wasnโt always enough.
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end of 2015
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f1gossipgirls : Sources close to the couple confirm that YN Sainz and Lewis Hamilton have officially split after five years together. The pairโwho began dating in 2010โwere known for keeping their relationship mostly private, but fans have followed their quiet love story for years. From paddock walks and matching bulldogs to late-night post-race snaps and birthday tributes, they were one of the most iconic duos the sport had seen in years. Rumors of tension began circulating over the summer, with fans noting fewer public appearances together and cryptic captions on YNโs posts. Reps for both parties declined to comment, but a close friend told us:
โThey still have a lot of love for each other, but theyโre in different places in life. It just wasnโt aligning anymore.โ
YN has reportedly been spending time with family in Madrid, while Lewis is said to be focusing fully on the final stretch of the season. Weโre sending nothing but love to both sidesโwe know the Roscoe x Coco joint custody situation will be the real heartbreak here. ๐พ๐
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username55 : roscoe and coco better be okay, someone check on them immediately
username8 : i feel like this is gonna hit carlos more than anyone else tbh ๐
username11 : the grid wonโt ever have another couple like them. you just had to be there.
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end of 2015
You knew before you said it. Before you even opened your mouth.
You knew by the way your chest ached every time you looked at him lately. You knew by the way his eyes never quite met yours when you brought up next year. You knew by the way you felt lonelier beside him than you did when he was away.
So when he came home lateโsweat still clinging to his collar from training, Roscoe at his heels, smile soft and familiarโyou almost didnโt say it. Almost folded. Almost kissed him like nothing was wrong.
But then he wrapped his arms around your waist, pressed a kiss to your cheek, and murmured, โYou good, baby?โ
And thatโs what did it. Thatโs what shattered the dam.
You pulled away gently, hands resting on his chest.
โI canโt do this anymore.โ
Lewis blinked. โWhat?โ
You stepped back, your breath catching. โUs.โ
He stared at you, brows furrowed, like the words didnโt compute. Like you hadnโt already been drifting apart for months. Like he hadnโt dodged every conversation about the future with that careful, evasive smile.
You tried to explain, voice barely steady. โIโve spent the last five years loving you with everything I had. I gave you my heart, my time, my patience. I showed up. Even when it was hard, even when I was exhausted. I showed up.โ
โI know,โ he said quietly. โYouโve always been there for me.โ
โAnd I kept waiting,โ you continued, voice cracking. โWaiting for you to meet me halfway. To talk about a house. A future. Maybe kids. Hell, even just the next five years. But every time I asked, you pulled back.โ
He ran a hand over his face, tension bleeding into his jaw. โItโs not that I donโt love you.โ
โI know you love me,โ you said. โThatโs never been the problem.โ
He looked at you thenโreally lookedโand you saw it in his eyes: the panic, the guilt, the ache. He stepped toward you like he was going to say something, fix it somehow, but you shook your head.
โI canโt keep making myself smaller just to fit into the life you want. Iโm tired of waiting for you to choose me in the way I need to be chosen.โ
Silence fell between you. Roscoe whimpered softly from the corner, and Lewis crouched down to pet himโanything to avoid the finality settling in the air.
โI thought we had more time,โ he finally said.
You swallowed hard. โWeโve had five years.โ
His eyes filled, but he blinked it back. โWhat if Iโm not ready now, but I will be? What if I justโฆ need more time?โ
You stepped forward, pressed your palm to his cheek.
โI believe you,โ you whispered. โI really do. But I canโt build my life on maybe.โ
Lewis closed his eyes, leaned into your hand like it was the last time heโd feel it.
โI donโt want to lose you,โ he whispered.
โI know,โ you said, tears slipping down your cheeks. โI donโt want to lose you either. But I want more. And I deserve someone who wants that with me.โ
You kissed him once, gently, like a goodbye.
And then you turned, picked up your overnight bagโthe one youโd packed quietly over the past few daysโand walked toward the door.
You didnโt look back until your hand was on the handle.
He was still standing there, frozen in the middle of the living room, Roscoe sitting beside him like he knew something had shifted forever.
โIโll always love you, Lewis,โ you said softly. โBut I have to start loving myself more.โ
And with that, you left.
Not because you didnโt love him.
But because you did.
Too much to keep breaking your own heart waiting for him to be ready.
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mid 2016
The podium ceremony is over. The champagne has dried, your fireproofs cling to your skin from the heat, and the Italian air smells like speed and summer and everything you used to love about this sport. You should be elatedโanother win, your third in a row, your sixth of the season. The championship fight is tighter than ever, and youโre right in it.
But youโre not smiling when you step into the back hallway of the paddock, only slowing when you hear a familiar voice behind you.
โStill making it look easy,โ Lewis says.
You turn.
Heโs leaning against the wall, arms crossed loosely over his chest, his cap pulled low, still in his Mercedes race suit. Heโs not smiling either. But thereโs that glimmer in his eyesโyou remember it well. The look he used to give you across hotel rooms and pit walls. The one that always said, youโre the only person I want to beat, and the only one Iโd lose to gladly.
You give him a small, controlled smile. โSomeoneโs got to give the fans a show.โ
He chuckles softly. โYouโre giving โem more than that. Youโre flying this year.โ
You shrug, keeping your arms wrapped around yourself. โTrying.โ
A pause. The kind that stretches just slightly too long. Neither of you moves.
Then, quieter: โCongratulations. Really. I mean that.โ
You nod. โThanks.โ
It should be easy, polite, brief. A conversation like any other between two top drivers. But the silence after crackles with something left unsaid.
You glance at him againโhis eyes are tired. Heโs been fighting Nico tooth and nail all year. And you know him well enough to recognize that somethingโs weighing heavier than usual tonight. You wonder if itโs the race. Or if itโs seeing you lift another trophy without him beside you.
He shifts, straightening off the wall. โI, uhโฆ saw your dad in the garage earlier.โ
You nod again, softer this time. โHe asks about you sometimes.โ
Lewis smiles, almost sadly. โTell him I say hi.โ
โI will.โ
Another pause. Another almost.
And then, like nothingโs wrong, like nothingโs ever changed, he nods once and turns to go.
โHey, Lewis,โ you call out.
He stops. Looks back.
You swallow. โYou drove well today.โ
A flicker of somethingโpain, maybe, or gratitudeโpasses over his face.
โYou too,โ he says.
And then he walks away.
You donโt move for a while.
The hallway feels quieter than it should.
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end of 2016
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f1gossipgirls : The champ. The legend. The heartbreak weโre all still not over. In a plot twist straight out of a Hollywood script, YN Sainz has officially retired from Formula 1 after clinching the 2016 World Driversโ Championshipโedging out Lewis Hamilton in a finale that felt more like poetry than sport. After years of rewriting the rules and becoming a motorsport icon in her own right, she walked away with a mic drop: โI have nothing left to prove. I did what I came here to do.โ
Sources say Lewis was one of the first to congratulate her behind closed doors. No cameras. No press. Just history, heartbreak, and everything that couldโve been. One era ends. Another will never forget her.
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end of 2016
The garage is still humming with celebration โ engineers high-fiving, champagne sprayed across toolboxes, your team principal wiping tears behind sunglasses. Youโre at the edge of it all, perched on the steps of your motorhome, hands clasped between your knees, still in your race suit but already half in another world.
Youโve said the words quietly to your team. No press release yet. No statement. Just a private truth shared in the back of the garage: This is it. Iโm done. Iโm going out on top.
It feels peaceful. It feels right.
And then you hear your name.
โYN.โ
You look up.
Lewis stands a few feet away, still in his race suit, his gloves off, hair damp from the helmet. Thereโs sweat at his temple and something unreadable in his eyes. Everyone else is too caught up in the post-race madness to notice this moment. Itโs like the paddock makes space for the two of you.
You nod slightly. โLewis.โ
He walks toward you. Slowly. Like heโs unsure what heโll say until the words come out.
โI heard,โ he says quietly.
You raise a brow. โThat I won the championship?โ
He smiles, but itโs hollow. โNo. I meanโyes, that too. Congrats. You were incredible today. All year.โ
You donโt reply, just study him. The way he looks like heโs holding something back. You already know what heโs going to say.
โYouโre really retiring?โ
You exhale softly. โYeah.โ
He looks away for a moment, jaw tight, then back at you. โWhy didnโt you tell me?โ
You shrug, keeping your voice even. โIt wasnโt your news to carry.โ
โBullshit,โ he mutters under his breath. โI was yours. Once.โ
The words hang heavy in the air. They taste like the past. Like Monaco mornings and hotel beds and silent car rides when you both knew love wasnโt going to be enough.
โI left,โ you say, not unkindly. โAnd I kept going. I had to.โ
โI know.โ He runs a hand over his face. โI justโฆ I thought I had more time. Toโฆ I donโt know. Fix things.โ
You give him a small smile. โWe were never broken. We were just moving in different directions.โ
He crouches slightly in front of you now, close enough that you can see the shimmer in his eyes.
โI loved you,โ he says.
You donโt look away. โI know.โ
A long pause.
โI still do.โ
You feel your chest tighten. But you donโt let it show. Not now. Not today.
โIโm proud of you,โ you whisper. โAnd Iโll always want the best for you.โ
Lewis nods, but he looks like a man whoโs only just realized what heโs lost.
โYouโll be missed,โ he says, standing again.
You rise to your feet, steady. โYouโll be okay.โ
He hesitates. โWill you?โ
You smile, and this time, it reaches your eyes. โI already am.โ
Then you step past him, toward your team, your future, your peace.
And Lewis? He doesnโt stop you this time.
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end of 2018
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f1gossipgirls : Former F1 World Champion and living legend YN Sainz tied the knot this weekend in a private but star-studded ceremony in the Spanish countryside after two years with billionaire investor Lorenzo Valdรฉs.
In a full-circle moment that had everyone misty-eyed, she was walked down the aisle by both her father and Carlos Sainz Jr., who was seen wiping away tears (same, tbh). Guests included royalty, top athletes, Hollywood A-listers, and more than a few familiar faces from the paddock. Word is, no cameras were allowed inside the ceremony โ but those who were there say she wore a custom Dior gown, Lorenzo cried the entire time, and the vows were โso intimate it felt like a dream.โ
No sign of a certain seven-time World Champion ๐ but you know the timeline is about to explode anywayโฆAnyway. Sheโs a wife now. And still a legend.
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december 29, 2018
The celebration is quiet now.
The music has faded to a low hum, guests are lingering with wine in hand, and Lorenzo is somewhere across the terrace, laughing with your brother. The night smells like jasmine and champagne and the warmth of old stone walls. Everything is perfect.
You step away for just a moment, standing beneath a hanging light in your gown, barefoot now, phone in hand.
One unread message.
Lewis.
Your chest tightens before your thumb even hovers over it. You already know itโs not meant to be replied to. He knows that, too.
You open it anyway.
I know todayโs not about me. It never was. But I wanted to say congratulations. You look happy. You deserve that. Always have. I hope he knows what he has. Take care of your heart. Itโs one of the best Iโve ever known.
You stare at the screen for a long time. The world softens around the edges.
You donโt cry. You donโt smile. You justโฆ feel it. Quietly.
Then you lock the phone and slip it back into your clutch.
And when you turn to walk back to your new husband, your brother, your familyโyou carry Lewisโs words with you, like a small scar tucked beneath satin and lace. Still there. Still yours. But no longer open.
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present day
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f1gossipgirls : Another love story endsโฆ and not quietly. After nearly six years of marriage, YN Sainz-Valdรฉs and investor mogul Lorenzo Valdรฉs have officially filed for divorce โ with court documents confirming the separation was finalized earlier this week in Monaco. Sources close to the former F1 champion say the split had been โbrewing for a while,โ but things exploded in recent months after whispers of Lorenzoโs alleged infidelity with a much younger tech entrepreneur started circling private circles in London and Madrid. Neither party has publicly commented, but fans noticed YN deleted all photos of Lorenzo from her profile, including their wedding anniversary post from last year. (And yes, the ring is very much gone.)
Carlos Sainz was reportedly a โconstant supportโ during the breakdown of the marriage โ spotted with her several times in recent weeks, including an emotional lunch in Madrid earlier this month. And while no one wants to say it out loudโฆ people havenโt stopped wondering what a certain seven time world champion might be thinking right now.
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username000 : sources say lorenzoโs side piece tried to soft launch a week ago and got DRAGGED. deservessss
username55 : he went for someone younger even though his wife LITERALLY MOGS HIM AND IS A WORLD CHAMPION. hm
username00 : she is so stunning. why do men even exist?
username75 : divorced, rich, iconic, and still the only person who ever beat lewis in his prime. mother is mothering.
username17 : carlos has been REAL quiet on socials lately. heโs either plotting revenge or helping her move out.
username88 : we really watched the most powerful woman in motorsport waste six years on a glorified finance bro.
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Itโs late. Almost midnight. The Sainz family home in Madrid is quiet, except for the soft ticking of the old hallway clock and the occasional hum of a passing car outside the window. Youโre curled up on the living room couch, still in jeans and a sweater youโve barely taken off in three days. Thereโs an untouched glass of wine on the coffee table. Your phone is upside down. Notifications off. Headlines muted.
The divorce paperwork is in your bag. Finalized. Stamped. Done. You stare blankly at the TV, but itโs not on. It hasnโt been all evening. Carlos walks in slowly, drying his hair with a towel after his shower. Heโs in sweatpants and an old Toro Rosso t-shirt โ the one you bought him before his first season in F1. His expression softens when he sees you, still sitting exactly where he left you hours ago.
โDid you eat?โ he asks gently.
You shake your head without looking at him.
He disappears into the kitchen, and you hear the familiar clinking of plates and a microwave door opening. When he comes back, heโs holding a small plate of tortilla and grilled vegetables. He sets it down beside you and doesnโt say anything when you still donโt move.
Finally, you whisper, โI feel stupid.โ
Carlos lowers himself to the floor, sitting at your feet. โYouโre not.โ
You scoff bitterly. โI stayed too long. Ignored every gut feeling. Let him make me feel like I was the problem. Even when the truth was staring me in the face.โ
Carlos leans his head back against the couch, looking up at you. โYou were in love. That doesnโt make you stupid. That makes you human.โ
You finally look at him. Your eyes are tired. โHe made me feel small, Carlitos.โ
He flinches. You never call him that when you're sad. Only when something's broken.
โI know,โ he says softly. โAnd I hate that. I hate that I didnโt see it sooner. That I didnโt protect you better.โ
You reach down, brushing his hair back off his forehead โ just like you used to do when he was a kid and had nightmares before karting races.
โYouโre not supposed to protect me. Iโm the big sister.โ
โDoesnโt matter.โ His voice is quiet now, heavy. โYou were my hero growing up. Still are. And heโhe doesnโt get to take any part of you with him.โ
Your throat tightens. You swallow hard. He stands up slowly and takes your hand.
โYouโre coming with me to Barcelona,โ he says firmly.
You blink. โCarlosโโ
โNo.โ He squeezes your hand. โYou need air. You need to be reminded who the hell you are. You havenโt been to a Grand Prix sinceโฆ since you gave it all up for him.โ
Your mouth opens, but he beats you to it.
โI already called the team. Youโre coming with me. Youโll be in my garage, in your goddamn sunglasses being a badass and terrifying engineers. Just like old times.โ
You laugh. Itโs small. But itโs real.
โAnd if you cry,โ he adds with a smile, โIโll pretend itโs hay fever. Like always.โ
You finally exhale, leaning your head on his shoulder. โWhat if people talk?โ
โLet them,โ he says. โLet them remember.โ
He pauses. Then, quieter:
โLet him remember.โ
You close your eyes. And for the first time in a long time, you let yourself believe you might be okay.
โ
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f1gossipgirls : SHE. IS. BACK. ๐ญ Former World Champion and newly single certified legend YN Sainz made her first paddock appearance in years at todayโs Spanish GP โ and letโs just sayโฆ nobody was ready. Wearing custom Ferragamo, dark sunglasses, and that signature โdonโt mess with meโ walk, she strutted into the paddock like she hadnโt just lived through a very public, very messy divorceโฆ and looked better than ever doing it. Word is sheโs there supporting Carlos, but letโs be honest โ she owned the paddock the second she stepped out of the car. Mechanics froze. Engineers stammered. Cameras sprinted. And weโre pretty sure three drivers walked into walls (one of them mightโve been Lando).
AND YES โ Lewis saw her. And no, weโre not okay. Welcome back to the grid, Queen. We missed you more than you know.
โ
The paddock hushes โ just for a second. Just long enough to make it obvious. You step out of the black SUV in tailored, black Ferragamo trousers, a crisp black tank, oversized sunglasses, and the quiet confidence of someone whoโs endured the fire and emerged with diamonds in her blood. Your hair is swept back, your lips painted soft rose, and your heels click like punctuation on concrete.
Carlos is already waiting by the entrance to the Williams hospitality, dressed in blue, arms crossed, sunglasses on. But the second he sees you, he grins โ wide, proud, no nerves.
โYou look like trouble,โ he says, offering you his arm.
โGood,โ you reply, sliding your hand through. โThatโs exactly what Iโm here to be.โ
Across the paddock, heads are turning โ media, mechanics, even a few drivers who were born after your first podium. You ignore the cameras. Itโs easier now. Youโre no longer here to prove anything. Youโve already done that. Youโre just here to be seen. And boy, are you being seen.
โIs thatโโ โHoly shit, thatโs herโโ โShe looks like she never leftโโ
And thenโ โOH NOPE. NOPE. I NEED A SECOND.โ
Lando Norris appears from around a corner, sunglasses falling halfway down his nose, nearly knocking over a poor McLaren intern holding coffee.
Carlos mutters, โHere we go,โ under his breath.
Lando stops in front of you, blinking. โI mean. Wow. Sorry. You justโyou look like you're about to slap a man and walk away with his car keys and his soul.โ
You raise an eyebrow, amused. โThatโs oddly specific.โ
โIsnโt it?โ he says, still staring. โI should go. Iโm gonna go. Good to see you. Welcome back. I love you. Wait, whatโโ
Carlos grabs him by the shoulder and gently shoves him back toward the McLaren motorhome. โAnd thatโs enough from you.โ
You laugh โ truly laugh โ for the first time in weeks. Then, just as you and Carlos begin walking again, a familiar voice cuts through the hum.
โWell, well. Look whoโs breaking the internet.โ
You turn. Jenson Button stands near the Sky Sports setup, dressed in a pale blue linen shirt and sunglasses. Next to him, Nico Rosberg is shaking his head with a smile and raising a water bottle in mock salute.
โThought the paddock felt colder without you,โ Jenson says, walking over to hug you. โNice of you to bring the sun back.โ
โYou lot just missed my dramatic exit,โ you smirk, hugging him back.
โMissed?โ Nico grins. โIt was all they talked about on air for two weeks. Half the grid thought youโd come back in 2019 just to spite them.โ
You laugh again, warmer this time. โTempting.โ
Carlos watches quietly, a hand resting gently on your back as you chat. He knows this is healing. The recognition. The warmth. The respect thatโs still there โ even after all this time, all the change, all the heartbreak. After a while, he leans down and whispers in your ear.
โYou ready to keep walking?โ
You nod. โYeah.โ
And as you and Carlos move deeper into the paddock, the noise returns โ the clatter of tyres, the clinking of tools, the hum of energy. But for a moment, the paddock had stopped for you. And in your silence, youโd reminded them why they ever cared in the first place.
โ
The motorhome is quieter than expected. Press hours are over. Mechanics are back in the garage. Carlos is still in meetings. And for a moment, youโre alone in the hallway, walking slowly, trailing your fingers along the dark wood paneling of the familiar red-and-black walls. Youโre about to turn the corner when a low voice stops you in your tracks.
โWasnโt sure Iโd see you here.โ
You freeze. Then you turn. Lewis stands a few feet away, leaning against the wall like heโs been waiting โ or maybe like he needed a second to build the courage. Heโs in his race suit, half unzipped and tied around his waist, the black fireproofs tight against his chest and arms. The red of Ferrari suits him in a way that makes your throat tighten. It shouldnโt be surprising โ but somehow, it is. He still carries that gravity. That calm. That heartbreak you remember too well.
โDid Carlos tell you?โ you ask, your voice steady, guarded.
He shakes his head. โNo. I saw you on the screens. Coming in with him this morning.โ
You look down briefly, your fingers grazing your bracelet. โRight. Gossip girl Lando probably had a field day.โ
Lewis smiles faintly. But it doesnโt reach his eyes. He watches you for a moment too long. Not as a fan would. Not even like a friend. But like someone remembering the exact curve of your face. Like someone who still dreams of you and wakes up alone.
โAre you okay?โ he finally asks, voice lower now. Raw.
You meet his gaze. โI will be.โ
He nods once. But he doesnโt move. You can see the hesitation in his posture, the way his hands flex slightly like he wants to reach for you but doesnโt know if he has the right anymore.
โYou lookโโ he pauses, laughs quietly under his breath, โโlike yourself again.โ
You let out a breath you didnโt know you were holding. โThatโs the nicest thing anyoneโs said to me in two years.โ
Another pause.
โDoes it feel strange?โ he asks. โBeing back?โ
You tilt your head slightly. โYes. And no. It feels like I never left. But Iโm not who I was when I walked away.โ
He nods. โNeither am I.โ
You donโt say anything. You just watch him. For a second, it feels like you're back in those quiet hotel rooms in Monaco. Like the years didnโt happen. Like you hadnโt married someone else. Like he hadnโt let you go.
โI saw the news,โ he says finally. โAbout the divorce.โ
Of course he did.
You give him a tight smile. โEveryone did.โ
โIโm sorry,โ he says. โTruly.โ
You nod. But you can feel the dam starting to crack, just beneath your skin.
โI thought I loved him,โ you whisper. โI really did.โ
Lewis doesnโt flinch. He doesnโt speak.
โI tried so hard to build a life outside of this. Outside ofโฆ you.โ You shake your head. โAnd I thought I had it. The house, the marriage, the safe choice. I thought it was enough.โ
His voice is barely audible when he speaks. โAnd was it?โ
You donโt answer. You donโt need to. You look at him, really look at him โ at the man you once built your future around in your head, the man who broke your heart out of fear, the man who still feels like unfinished business even after all this time.
โWhy didnโt you ever call?โ you ask. The question slips out before you can stop it.
Lewis blinks. โAfter the wedding?โ
You nod.
He exhales slowly, something like shame brushing over his features. โBecause I thought I had to let you go. I thought thatโs what you needed.โ
You feel the tears sting your eyes, but you blink them back. โI hated you for that.โ
โI hated myself for it,โ he says, without hesitation.
Silence falls between you. Not heavy. Not tense. Justโฆ full. Then he steps forward. Not too close. But close enough that you can smell his cologne โ soft, familiar, the same one he wore the last time you kissed him.
โCan I ask you something?โ he says quietly.
You nod.
โAre you happy?โ
You want to say yes. You want to say Iโm getting there. But your voice breaks when you whisper, โI donโt know yet.โ
Lewis looks at you like he wants to take every shard of your heartbreak and carry it himself.
Then he whispers, โMaybe you donโt have to figure it out alone.โ
You inhale sharply. Your heart stutters. The words sit between you like an open door. And for the first time in years, you donโt feel afraid to walk through it.
โ
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f1gossipgirls : World Champion exes Lewis Hamilton and YN Sainz seen having a very private dinner in a tucked-away corner of a restaurant last night. No press. No entourage. Just two glasses of wine, one shared dessert, and the kind of eye contact you donโt have with just anyone. Are we screaming? Yes. Are we coping? Not at all.
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username000 : daniel wtf r u doing here?
โณ danielricciardo : lando tagged me and i got excited my bad
โณ username000 : lando again? really
โณ lando : I TOLD YOU ALL. I AM A FULL TIME YN STAN. I AM AN F1 DRIVER SECOND.
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username10 : let them have their second act. weโve matured. we can handle it. (cue hysterical crying)
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The restaurant is quiet. Not empty, but discreet โ the kind of place where silence is respected, and no one dares to stare too long. The lighting is soft and golden, casting a low glow over the white tablecloth and untouched wine glasses.
You sit across from him, nerves disguised by steady hands and polite smiles. Lewis looks just the same โ older, wiser, maybe a little more tired around the eyes โ but still him. Still the man who knew your heartbeat by feel, not sound.
The waiter disappears after dropping the menus. Neither of you have opened them.
โI almost didnโt text you,โ he says quietly.
You glance up, lifting a brow. โBut you did.โ
โI didnโt expect you to say yes.โ
You let out a soft exhale, not quite a laugh. โI almost didnโt.โ
Thereโs a beat of silence, and then your fingers trace the rim of your glass. โItโs been a long time.โ
He nods. โToo long.โ
You study him. Heโs dressed down, no jewelry tonight, save for the silver cross heโs always worn. The one that used to tangle in your sheets. His eyes are gentle, but thereโs something beneath them โ that old ache neither of you ever dared name.
โWhen I saw you in Spain,โ he says eventually. โYou lookedโฆ strong.โ
โI didnโt feel it,โ you admit.
โI figured.โ He hesitates. โYou smiled for the cameras. But it wasnโt the one I know.โ
You blink. Something in your chest stirs painfully. โYou still know my smiles?โ
โI never forgot them.โ
You donโt know what to say to that, so you donโt. He lets the silence linger, as if he understands that there are things you both need to feel in the space between words.
โI meant what I said in that message,โ he murmurs. โOn your wedding day.โ
โI know.โ You swallow. โI read it a hundred times.โ
โDid he treat you well?โ
Youโre quiet.
โThatโs my answer,โ Lewis says gently.
You meet his gaze then, really meet it โ and itโs like 2015 again, like the finish line hasnโt been crossed, like the years havenโt passed and neither of you ever left that moment where love lived and time hadnโt touched it yet.
โI never stopped thinking about you,โ he says, voice low. โEven when I didnโt want to. Even when I told myself I had to.โ
You shift, the emotion catching in your throat. โIt was easier to pretend we were just drivers after that.โ
โBut we werenโt. We never were.โ
You both fall quiet again. Then he reaches across the table, slow and careful, like he isnโt sure if heโs allowed โ and places his hand over yours. Itโs warm. Familiar. Earth and gravity.
โDo you hate me?โ he asks softly.
Your chest tightens. โNo,โ you whisper. โI loved you. Thatโs what hurt.โ
His fingers tighten around yours just a little.
โI shouldโve been braver,โ he admits. โI shouldโve given you the future you wanted.โ
โYou werenโt ready.โ
โI still lost you.โ
Your lips part, but thereโs nothing to say that wonโt split you wide open. So instead, you hold his hand tighter. The waiter eventually returns, and you both pretend to look at the menu. But no one brings up the elephant at the table: that even after all these years, with all the time and choices and people in between, you still fall into each other like itโs the easiest thing in the world. When dessert comes, itโs one plate. Shared. Of course it is.
โ
The night air is warm, with just enough breeze to carry the salt from the water and the hum of distant engines echoing off the buildings. Monte Carlo at night always felt like a dream โ one you never quite woke up from. The marina glitters like a spilled necklace below, yachts gently rocking, their reflections broken across the rippling black sea. You walk side by side, not touching, not quite. But close enough to feel him.
โIt still looks the same,โ you murmur.
โSo do you,โ Lewis replies, voice quiet. โYou havenโt changed.โ
You glance at him. โYou have. In a good way.โ
He smiles, hands in his pockets. โIโve learned a lot. About life. About how not to lose the things that matter.โ
You stop at the edge of the stone railing overlooking the harbor. The sea glows under the moonlight. Your arms fold loosely over the edge, chin tilted down. He stands beside you, close enough that his shoulder brushes yours. Neither of you pull away.
โI used to picture this,โ you admit. โUs. Older. Still walking like this.โ
Lewis tilts his head toward you. โDid you imagine weโd still be pretending not to want to hold hands?โ
You let out a soft breath thatโs almost a laugh. โNo. I imagined Iโd have married you, if Iโm honest.โ
He closes his eyes. โYou donโt know how many times Iโve wanted to go back.โ
You turn to face him. โYou donโt get to go back. But youโre here now.โ
โI am.โ He takes a breath. โAnd Iโm not going anywhere this time. I mean that.โ
You search his face โ the tenderness in his expression, the vulnerability in his eyes. It's not the same boy you once loved. Heโs a man now. A man who finally knows what he wants and isnโt afraid of it anymore. He hesitates, then gently reaches for your hand. This time, you let him take it. Fingers laced, palms pressed together like itโs the most natural thing in the world. You walk in silence for a while, hand in hand, the sound of the sea cradling you both.
When you reach the far end of the harbor, near the private docks, Lewis stops. He looks at you under the lamplight โ soft and golden against your skin.
โI donโt want to rush anything,โ he says. โBut Iโd like to see you again. Outside the past. Outside the press. Justโฆ you.โ
You nod, voice barely above a whisper. โIโd like that too.โ
And then he leans forward โ not a kiss, not quite. His forehead gently touches yours, and itโs more intimate than anything else he couldโve done.
โGoodnight, love,โ he murmurs.
You close your eyes. โGoodnight, Lewis.โ
But neither of you let go just yet.
โ
The marble floor beneath your heels feels cold, the sharp click of each step slicing through the stillness of the hotel lobby. The world outside has quieted to a whisper โ distant waves, murmurs of laughter from late-night bars, the soft hum of city lights.
You push open the door to your suite, your breath catching slightly at the sudden warmth inside. The muted glow of the television flickers across the room, but itโs the presence of someone else that makes your heart skip โ Carlos.
Heโs sitting on the edge of the sofa, eyes fixed on you, calm but searching. His arms are crossed loosely, a protective barrier and a promise all at once. His brow is knitted, but not in anger โ more in worry. Itโs the look of a brother whoโs seen too much, felt too much, and wants to shoulder your pain if only he could.
โYouโre late,โ he says softly, voice low but steady. Thereโs no chastising there โ just a quiet observation that holds a thousand questions.
You shrug off your coat slowly, the exhaustion of the evening weighing heavy in your limbs. โI lost track of time,โ you say, voice brittle but honest.
He stands, moving closer but careful not to crowd you. His presence is grounding, like an anchor in the swirling sea of your emotions.
Carlosโs gaze never wavers. โI saw you,โ he says simply, like a confession, like a reassurance.
Your throat tightens, and you swallow hard, the lump of words and feelings caught between your ribs.
โYou donโt have to say anything,โ he continues, stepping even closer now. His hand brushes yours lightly, a silent offering of comfort. โIโm not here to pry or judge. I just want you to know that Iโm here. Always.โ
A fragile tear slips down your cheek before you can catch it. You blink rapidly, desperate to hold yourself together, but the dam is breaking โ the weight of the last two years, the divorce, the loneliness, the unexpected warmth of tonight โ it all floods through you.
Carlos doesnโt speak. He just wraps you in a hug โ slow, sure, and filled with the kind of strength only a brother can give. His arms hold you steady as if to say: Youโre not alone. Not now. Not ever.
You lean into him, finally allowing yourself to release the grief youโve bottled up for so long. Your tears fall freely onto his shirt, and he murmurs softly, โItโs okay. Let it out.โ
You breathe in the familiar scent of him โ aftershave, worn leather, something comforting and home โ and for the first time in ages, you feel a flicker of peace.
Pulling back just enough to look into his eyes, you whisper, โThank youโฆ for being here. For not giving up on me.โ
He smiles gently, brushing a stray lock of hair behind your ear. โNever. Youโre stronger than you know, but even the strongest need someone to lean on.โ
You rest your forehead against his for a heartbeat longer, feeling the solid, unspoken promise in that touch. And in that quiet room, surrounded by shadows and soft light, you let yourself believe that maybe โ just maybe โ the hardest chapters are finally behind you.
โ
several month time skip...
The warm evening air drapes over the city like a soft blanket, the sky painted in hues of lavender and gold as the sun slips behind the horizon. The distant sounds of laughter and music drift up from the streets below, but here on the balcony, itโs just you and Lewisโquiet, tentative, like two old souls slowly finding their way back through the fog.
The fading light catches in your eyes, and you realize how much youโve missed thisโthe stillness, the simple presence of someone who once knew you better than anyone else.
Lewis stands beside you, just close enough for comfort but careful not to crowd you. His hands are tucked into the pockets of his trousers, but you can see the tension in his shoulders. Heโs been here a thousand times before, but tonight feels different. Fragile.
โI never thought weโd end up here again,โ he says softly, voice almost untraceable.
You turn to look at him, searching his faceโthe lines around his eyes that werenโt there before, the way his mouth twitches like heโs holding back a confession. โNeither did I,โ you admit. โAfter everything.โ
He nods slowly, his gaze dropping to the floor for a heartbeat before meeting yours again. โI was scared. Back then. Not just of losing you, but of losing myself without you.โ
Your chest tightens, the ache you thought was gone bubbling back up. โI tried to build a life without you. I really did. But every time I thought I was okay, Iโd catch myself looking for youโin a crowd, in a whisper, in the silence.โ
Lewis steps closer, a breath away, and you feel your heart stutter like it used to in those reckless, beautiful early days. โI thought I could move on too,โ he confesses, voice breaking. โBut loving youโฆ it never went away. It just got buried under everything else.โ
You swallow hard, the vulnerability in his words unlocking a part of you youโve kept locked away for far too long. โI still love you,โ you whisper. โMaybe I never stopped.โ
His eyes widen, a mixture of relief and disbelief. โYou have no idea how long Iโve wanted to hear you say that.โ
For a moment, the world narrows until itโs just the two of you, suspended in this fragile space where old wounds ache but hope flickers.
โIโm scared,โ you admit, voice trembling. โScared of what comes next. Scared that this time, we might lose each other for good.โ
Lewis reaches out, his fingers brushing your cheek with a tenderness that sends warmth flooding through you. โThen letโs promise something. No more pretending. No more running.โ
You close your eyes against his touch, feeling the weight of yearsโthe heartbreak, the distance, the silent goodbyesโmelting away.
โLetโs try again,โ he says quietly. โNot for the past. Not for what we lost. But for what we still have.โ
You nod, tears spilling down your cheeksโnot of sadness, but of relief and a fragile, blossoming hope. As the sun finally dips below the horizon, you lean into Lewis, letting the silence say everything you both have been too afraid to say aloud. And for the first time in a long time, it feels like home.
โ
You almost forget what England smells like after the rainโgreen, earthy, familiar. The countryside rolls out in quiet hills around you, the trees just starting to bloom again, a subtle reminder that life always comes back.
Lewis pulls the car up the gravel drive, his hand reaching to rest gently over yours in your lap. Youโve been here before. So many times, it should feel routine. But this time is different. This time, youโre not just visiting the houseโyouโre returning to a life you once walked away from.
He glances at you with a soft smile. โYou okay?โ
You nod, a little breathless. โYeah. Justโฆ memories.โ
The moment the engine cuts off, the silence of the countryside is replaced by a distant thump.
โWait for itโฆโ Lewis grins, eyes twinkling.
And then you hear itโpaws on gravel. The door hasnโt even opened before Roscoe barrels out from around the house, older now, a little slower, with grey threading his fur, but his bark still full of joy.
โRoscoe!โ you laugh, barely getting the door open before heโs in your lap, whining and tail wagging so hard it shakes his whole body. โOh my god, you remember me!โ
Lewis chuckles as he watches you sit back on your heels, hands buried in Roscoeโs soft fur. The dog nuzzles into you, letting out a long, contented sigh like heโs been waiting years for this.
โHeโs missed you,โ Lewis says quietly, a certain awe in his voice. โWe both did.โ
You look up at him, eyes shining. โItโs like no time passed.โ
And then the front door swings open.
โOh my god, is that our girl?!โ
You look up and see Carmen, Lewisโ mum, standing in the doorway with a hand over her heart. Beside her, Anthony has the warmest, most knowing smile on his face.
The moment you step onto the front porch, Carmen pulls you into her arms like she never let go. โYouโre home,โ she murmurs, kissing your temple. โFinally.โ
Anthony hugs you next, steady and comforting. โHeโs better when youโre around,โ he says quietly into your hair. โHe always has been.โ
Dinner is easyโfilled with laughter and old stories and subtle glances between you and Lewis across the table. Roscoeโs asleep at your feet, his head resting on your slipper, and Carmen keeps refilling your wine glass like sheโs afraid youโll leave again.
Later, as the night quiets down and the fire crackles in the living room, Lewis rests a hand on your knee, brushing his thumb back and forth gently.
โYou what we need,โ he says, voice low, just for you. โYou always have been.โ
You lean your head on his shoulder, heart full, heavier and lighter all at once. Because thisโthis home, this dog, these peopleโthey never stopped being yours. And for the first time in a very, very long time, you let yourself believe in staying.
โ
You wake to the sound of rain tapping softly against the window, a grey English sky casting the bedroom in a silver sort of glow. The sheets are warm, the air smells faintly like linen and whatever detergent Carmen still insists on using. For a second, you forget where you are. Then you feel it โ the weight of Roscoe curled against your legs, the steady rise and fall of Lewisโ chest under your cheek.
You blink slowly. Heโs still asleep, arm slung around you loosely, mouth slightly parted, curls messy against the pillow. Thereโs something achingly peaceful about him like this. Like the years have melted away and youโre just two kids again, in love and unburdened by all the things that came after.
You donโt move, afraid to break the spell. But Lewis stirs anyway, murmuring something half-asleep before his hand finds yours beneath the blanket and squeezes.
โMorning,โ he says, voice gravelly with sleep.
โMorning.โ You smile into his skin. โDidnโt mean to wake you.โ
โBeen awake,โ he murmurs, shifting just enough to look at you. โWas hoping if I didnโt move, youโd stay like this a little longer.โ
โI wouldโve,โ you whisper.
He leans in and presses the softest kiss to your forehead โ not rushed, not desperate. Just a quiet promise. From the foot of the bed, Roscoe groans dramatically and rolls over, nose pressed into your ankle.
Lewis laughs. โHe missed you even more than I did.โ
You give him a look. โImpossible.โ
Itโs the first time youโve joked like that โ the first time something flirty slips out without being heavy, without being weighed down by what-ifs and old heartbreak. You both freeze for a moment, then relax. Because itโs okay. Youโre here. Together.
Later, he pads barefoot into the kitchen in grey sweatpants and a hoodie, hair wild, dragging his fingers through it. Youโre curled on the couch in one of his old Mercedes shirts, sipping the tea Carmen made before disappearing for a morning walk.
He hands you a mug of coffee, careful not to spill, and sits beside you, thigh pressed to yours, Roscoe jumping up and flopping across both your laps like a bridge between two hearts that never really stopped beating for each other.
Neither of you say it out loud. That thisโcoffee and rain and Roscoeโfeels dangerously close to home. To love again. But maybe, just maybe, you donโt have to. Not yet. Not until you're ready. And in the quiet, wrapped in old love and new warmth, you think...Youโre getting there.
โ
You walk side by side, boots crunching against the damp trail, the rolling hills around you glowing golden in the soft afternoon light. The clouds have cleared just enough to let the sun through, casting everything in that perfect, fleeting kind of glow โ like nature itself is holding its breath.
Roscoe trots ahead of you, occasionally looking back, as if to make sure you're still following. You and Lewis havenโt said much in the past few minutes. But the silence hasnโt felt empty โ itโs been full. Full of all the things unsaid, all the memories stirred up by being back here, all the newness of whatever it is youโre growing into.
You stop near a wooden fence that overlooks a valley. The wind plays with your hair as you rest your arms on the rail, letting your eyes trace the curve of the earth. Lewis stands beside you, close enough to feel his presence.
โI used to come here when things got loud,โ he says quietly, almost like a confession. โAfter we broke up... I think I came here every week. Just to breathe.โ
You turn to look at him. His eyes are already on you.
โDid you ever hate me?โ you ask, the words slipping out before you can stop them. โFor walking away?โ
He shakes his head, slowly. โNo. I hated myself for not being brave enough to give you what you deserved. I thought... if I let you go, youโd find someone who would.โ
You exhale shakily. โI thought you didnโt want me.โ
Lewis steps closer, his voice low and full of something raw. โI wanted you every single day. I just didnโt know how to hold on to you without destroying everything else.โ
You meet his gaze, and itโs like time folds in on itself โ youโre back in Monaco, back in a hotel room in Singapore, back in every moment where you almost said what you meant and chose silence instead.
โThings are different now,โ you whisper.
โThey are.โ He pauses. โIโm different. And I think... maybe you are too.โ
โI am,โ you admit. โIโm tired of pretending Iโm not still in love with you.โ
The confession hangs in the air between you, trembling and terrifying and true. Lewisโ expression softens in a way youโve only seen a few times in your life โ itโs all hope and heartbreak and something like awe.
He steps even closer. โOne more time.โ
You laugh, a little tearfully. โIโm still in love with you.โ
And then he kisses you. Itโs not rushed. Itโs not cautious. Itโs the kind of kiss that says finally. The kind that burns slow and deep, like coming home to something youโve dreamed of every night but never thought youโd feel again. His hands cradle your jaw, thumbs brushing your cheek, grounding you in the moment as if heโs afraid youโll disappear.
When you finally pull away, your foreheads stay pressed together. Youโre both breathless, your heart beating so loud you swear he can hear it.
Lewis smiles softly. โI love you too. I never stopped.โ
You close your eyes, letting the warmth of him and the wind and the countryside wrap around you. For the first time in years, your heart doesnโt ache. It blooms.
โ
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hi, loves!!
i canโt believe weโve reached 3,000 of you here โ thatโs absolutely wild to me ๐ฅน๐ฉท this little corner of the internet has become such a cozy, happy place, and itโs all thanks to you. every reblog, like, kind message, and quiet read means the world. youโve made this space feel like a warm cup of tea on a rainy day.
so, in proper celebration, weโre having a month long tea party! (with different special guests each day!) ๐ think soft lace, pastel treats, dainty cups, and laughter spilling like sugar. thereโll be smauโs, drabbles, headcanons and lots of love to go around โ because you all deserve it! ๐๐ซ
thank you for being here, for supporting my writing, and for making this blog feel like home. hereโs to more reading, more love, and more tea shared together โก i love each and everyone of you so much.
scheduled appearances!
๐ฅ๐๐ฐ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ก๐๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ๐ญ๐จ๐ง + ๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐๐จ ๐๐จ๐ฅ๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ง๐ญ๐จ โ 10/14
lewis hamilton x !wife reader x franco colapinto (smau + written)
โฆin which 22 year old franco finds himself enamored with both lewis hamilton and you, his beautiful wife, & will stop at nothing to make sure you both know it.
read here!
๐จ๐ฌ๐๐๐ซ ๐ฉ๐ข๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐ซ๐ข โ 10/16
oscar piastri x !driver/singer reader (smau + written)
โฆin which you release music in your spare time and drop a particularly conspicuous song regarding unrequited love. the grid is in shambles trying to decode who itโs aboutโฆturns out it was about your teammate the entire time.
read it here!
๐ง๐จ๐ฅ๐๐ง ๐ฌ๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ฅ โ 10/17
nolan siegel x !med staff nurse reader (drabbles/blurbs)
...in which nolan has minor injuries after a crash and falls in love with the nurse who patches him up.
read here!
๐๐ก๐๐ซ๐ฅ๐๐ฌ ๐ฅ๐๐๐ฅ๐๐ซ๐ + ๐ฆ๐๐ฑ ๐ฏ๐๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ง โ 10/19 (smau + written)
charles leclerc x !popstar reader x max verstappen
...in which charles leclerc and max verstappen have been soft launching the you for weeks and the internet is in shambles.
read it here!
๐ข๐ฌ๐๐๐ค ๐ก๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ซ โ 10/20 (drabbles)
isack hadjar x !female reader
...in which you get your nails done for the first time and really struggle with small tasks but perfect boyfriend isack is always there to save the day.
read it here!
๐ค๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ ๐จ๐ฆ๐๐ฌ โ 10/21 (smau + written)
kika gomes x ! verstappen vs angel reader
...in which kika attends the vs fashion show and spots you on the runway and can't get you out of her head.
read it here!
๐๐๐ง๐ข๐๐ฅ ๐ซ๐ข๐๐๐ข๐๐ซ๐๐จ โ 10/23 (smau + written)
daniel ricciardo x !dts netflix crew member reader
...in which you are the only always interviewing daniel and he flirts with you every. single. time.
read it here!
๐๐ฅ๐๐ฑ ๐๐ฅ๐๐จ๐ง โ 10/24 (drabbles/blurbs)
alex albon x !chronically fatigued reader
...in which you struggle with chronic fatigue syndrome and alex is by your side no matter what.
read it here!
๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐๐๐ง ๐จ๐๐จ๐ง โ 10/26 (smau + written blurbs)
esteban ocon x !actress reader
...in which esteban meets you at cannes and is instantly starstruck...he manages to get your number and a kiss on the cheek, all thanks to his wingman, pierre.
read it here!
๐ญ๐จ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฅ๐๐ + ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ข๐ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฅ๐๐ โ 10/27 (smau + written blurbs)
toto wolff x !single mom russell reader x susie wolff
...in which toto and susie have always admired your dedication to your work and to being a mother and they step in exactly when you need them to.
read it here!
๐ฅ๐๐ฐ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ก๐๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ๐ญ๐จ๐ง โ 10/28 (drabbles/blurbs)
lewis hamilton x !plus size reader
...in which you are lewisโ everything and his muse and he always makes sure that you know it.
read it here!
๐จ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐ซ๐ฆ๐๐ง โ 10/29 (smau + written)
ollie bearman x !popstar reader
...in which your fame is growing at an incredible rate and no one on the grid actually believes you are dating ollie.
read it here!
๐ฅ๐๐ง๐๐จ ๐ง๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ข๐ฌ + ๐ฆ๐๐ฑ ๐๐๐ฐ๐ญ๐ซ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ โ 10/31 (smau + written)
lando norris x !childhood best friend x max fewtrell
...in which both of your childhood best friends have been in love with you for years and you are completely oblivious to their advances...and they are oblivious to the fact that you've always loved them back.
read it here!
๐ฅ๐จ๐ ๐๐ง ๐ฌ๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐๐ง๐ญ + ๐จ๐ฌ๐๐๐ซ ๐ฉ๐ข๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐ซ๐ข โ 11/2 (smau + written)
logan sargeant x !albon reader x oscar piastri
...in which logan has been in love with oscar for as long as he can remember but then you waltz into the williams garage one day in support for your brother and he is torn between you both. little does he know...he can have both.
read it here!
๐๐ฅ๐๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐๐๐ซ๐ฅ๐ โ 11/4 (smau + written)
flavy barla x ! gasly med student reader
...in which you and flavy suffer through medical school together and in the midst of all the pressure and strain...you both find something so soft and sweet...your love for each other.
read it here!
๐ค๐ข๐ฆ๐ข ๐๐ง๐ญ๐จ๐ง๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ข โ 11/6 (smau + written)
kimi antonelli x !hamilton fashion designer reader
...in which you and kimi have been dating since he joined mercedes but no one knows...not even your father. however, people start piecing things together when kimi starts showing up in all designer and having impeccable style.
read it here!
๐๐ฅ๐๐ฑ๐๐ง๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ข๐ง๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฅ๐๐ฎ๐ฑ โ 11/9 (smau + written)
alexandra saint mleux x !actress reader
...in which your girlfriend, alexandra, attends your movie premier with you and everyone believes that you are both friends...until the internet does what it does best and decodes both of your soft launch crumbs from the last few months.
read it here!
๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐๐๐ง ๐จ๐๐จ๐ง + ๐ฉ๐ข๐๐ซ๐ซ๐ ๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ฅ๐ฒ โ 11/10 (smau + written)
esteban ocon x !ex childhood best friend x pierre gasly
...in which you and esteban fell out years ago...no one to blame but distance and difference. everything changes the day he sees you in the paddock with his teammate.
read it here!
๐ง๐จ๐ฅ๐๐ง ๐ฌ๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ฅ (nolan made another appearance! love my nolan girls) โ 11/12 (smau + written)
nolan siegel x !norris reader
...in which you and nolan finally get a break from work and spend the summer with your family.
read it here!
๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ฉ๐ซ๐ข๐ฌ๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ ๐ฑ ๐ซ๐๐๐๐๐ซ ๐ฑ ๐ฐ๐๐ ๐จ๐ง ๐๐/๐๐!
read it here!
hope that you all are as excited as i am! requests will still be accepted at this time but just a warning that they may take longer as i will be working on the tea party! much love to all of you.
i love a baddie who defends her man๐ค๐ป smack em again, eli<3
kimi is an incredibly talented YOUNG driver who had one tiny slip on track โ something that literally happens to every driver, every season. it was an honest mistake, nothing more, nothing less. the way some people (and certain teamsโฆ) have twisted it into something intentional is not only unfair, itโs honestly just heartbreaking.
this is a kimi loving space. a safe space. a place where we support our boys through highs, lows, podiums, and incidents. im not entertaining any hate, accusations, or negativity toward him or any other drivers here.
kimi deserves kindness. he deserves patience. he deserves the same grace every other driver gets when things donโt go perfectly. heโs doing his best โ and heโs already doing amazingly. he is a ROOKIE. a 19 year old kid. these grown adults bullying him have me so FUCKED UP rn.
no hate will be tolerated โ not towards kimi or any other driver for that matter.
stay kind, my pretties! i love you all๐๐





