#cheeeesy

here comes a very very cheesy boyfriend appreciation post. sorry in advance. but honestly, he's the best. he truly brings out the best in me and i could never thank him enough for what he does. bpd is kicking very hard atm but he's always there for me, bringing me cool packs or ordering stuff online for my skills kit. i don't have to feel ashamed in front of him. i had a breakdown a couple of days ago because i thought i looked ugly in every outfit i tried on but somehow he gassed me up and calmed me down. eventually i was even able to go outside again so we went for a picknick on this beautiful field full of flowers in the middle of nowhere. we put on some music, got up and just danced in the most stupid way. he carried me and we were spinning in circles, laughing the whole time as if nothing bad had ever happened that day. i felt like i was in some alternate reality or movie really. i already know that i'm going to look back at this moment for as long as i live. he makes me feel things i have never felt before or that have been gone for a long time. i struggle so hard in believing that he's really mine and that he won't leave me, simply because of how perfect everything is with him and my brain tells me that i don't deserve anything even close to perfect. but sometimes he even manages to kill those thoughts in my head. my last breakup was horrible and i didn't really believe in love anymore because i thought i'd already found and lost my true love. oh how wrong i was. your person is waiting somewhere outside there for you. it really is how all these people tell you: sometimes these things just happen when you least expect it.

Rhysand : ouch! can you get me a bandaid.