#cheat rat

I just acknowledge that im non binary and I fucking hate it, I'm the one and real enbyphobic cause I hate myself. Why cant i just be a girl, a trans man would also be amazing, why cant i be on the binarysm, being on the binarysm would be amazing. Why did i born like this, why tf women clothes have to be my only option and they're so thin, so short, the sleves are so high, they're so fem, and of course they're fem those are women clothing and I'm not a woman but life insists they're for me and make me a hater of them and I feel bad about it, so frustrated, the hatred cant go away, the sickness the ickness; feminity is so gross to me. But it's not fair. I'm so biased by my experiences, it's not fair to any femenine or related to femenity person to be the target of my hatred but the fe elings can't just go away. And above every thing that i hate, every experience that made me feel like shit, I hate my mom, I fucking hate my mom.