#chatter post

I'm always glad to see someone return to Tumblr but may I ask if you changed your username? You must've been a blog I followed years ago but I don't recognize you in I'm sorry welcome back! 😭😭😭

benji!! it was really hard for him because he couldn't imagine how they will continue to work together after a failure (and something like this really happened so it was lane's turn to do something)

this was a little breakdown moment for benji because he had to torture a girl what became kind of a daughter for him (i call her 'thirteenth' like apostle and imagine her as pom klementieff. i can tell about her more in other post) and he refused what called into question his right to be a leader of syndicate. this is a standart procedure for every one who wants to become a part of syndicate's core, sort of a loyalty test, and benji decided what they must stop do this bc they have a truth serum now. so he had a first really bad row with solomon and had this thought again what he really doesn't deserve to be a leader. when solomon realised he can't hurt thirteenth either he went to calm benji down and this became a talk about their weaknesses.

"it seems, it's me who doesn't fit for the leadership anymore" solomon said after with a quiet chuckle, thus agreeing with benji's wish to stop the torturing tests. he had this kind of face, like he really believed what he said, and this hitted benji for the most.

"don't say that!" benji thought he grabbed lane's shoulders to be more convincing, but this moment he felt like ground is slipping from under his feet. "there's no way someone could be better than you. there will come the time when we'll need to step aside and let the syndicate to grow further with others in charge, and i would lie if i say i'm not scare of that. i don't want it to repeat the ancient macedonia's fate because i know nobody will care about syndicate more than you do. you are the syndicate, solomon, and it still alive just because of you. it changes, and so do you, and it's okay... for me, you are perfect."

Hello! I’m Meg, reader and writer of fic and meta, appreciate-er of everything else! I can currently be found over at my Star Trek: Discovery and effectively-main (though-on-a-technical-level-it’s-a-side-blog-because-that’s-not-inconvenient-at-all) blog @starfleetdoesntfirefirst​, but, since I want to keep it generally DSC-focused, I’ve been considering for a while whether to make another blog for Everything Else, and this is it! My old main blog is @warp6​; it’s semi-defunct these days and I use it mostly for signal boost reblogs (since it’s where I have far and away the most followers) and occasional bits and bobs that don’t fit on my DSC blog--some of the latter of which will now be here, making it even more defunct, but it’ll still exist in its chill lowkey semi-defunct state, probably sipping virgin piña coladas and making a B) face.

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