#chasingdownagoodtime

you were/are my everything. i feel like a part of me is now gone. our story was not supposed to end here or like this. i still feel like there is more to “us” but i guess ill never know or just have to wait. talks of children and a life long lasting together were just on our tongues a few hours ago and now here we are. drunken actions and words have wounded what was supposed to be something beautiful. my heart was so full the other night we spent together. it looked so promising and perfect. laughing, kissing, joking ect.. it was like we had never stopped. and when you put your ring back on, how my world had hope again! i could see things looking up. I cant take back the way i acted last night i cant take back the fear i put in you. the only thing i can say is im sorry. and i know sorry just won't cut it but know from the bottom of my heart i would never do anything to hurt you. i let my pent up anger/annoyance get the better of me on top of being drunk. i should have just went home when micah called me i should have quit while i was a head. I was selfish in love and wanted to take advantage of the good night we had had previous and ride the wave. if you see this please know that i love you more than words can or will ever be able to describe. and i pray that one day ill find you in my arms again for you will never leave my heart. i love you lex. forever and always. 

no one has shit on my girl like yea we fight sometimes yea shits tough right now but at the end of the day i only got eyes for her. shes fucking perfect to me i dont want anyone else. girls can come at me with all they got but at the end of the day i got no interest in anyone but her. shes my best friend, my ride or die, the love of my life and hopefully god willing my wife one day. i love this girl with so much that it makes me question all my past relationships.. like i was hung up on my high school girl my first love for like 4 years after we broke up. i was crushed was in a really dark spot and thought it was the end to my love life i didnt see myself with anyone but her. but now fuck i was dumb. this girl has opened my eyes to so much. shes shown me the life i want to live. shes shown me that real love is more than just sex and social media posts. when im around her its like all my troubles go away. nothing else matters. i look into her eyes and i can see the rest of my life. i can see myself growing old with her. i can see a family and a house with a yard. i can see vacations and and struggles. i can see so much that it makes me want to cry because i just want it all right now. i thought i had it all before but i can say now that she is my all no one else matters. if shed take me id ask her to marry me today. its been a rough few weeks being on this brake i have hated every moment of it but today seeing her and spending time with her has given me hope that this will work. we will work. and if you happen to see this babe just know that i will prove to you my endless love for you. 

This album has been on repeat! #countrymusic #randyhouser #firedup #chasingdownagoodtime