Get into thiiiiis. 🍵🥄 . Watched Queer Eye for the Straight Guy yesterday for the first time. Cried my eyes out. Decided to show my man how much I appreciate him. Had some candles 🕯 going, made some fluffy ass blueberry pancakes, and decided to make virgin sangria (he don't drink). It was a hit. Used seltzer water or as we call it "fizzy ass water" + added red 🍷 to mine. . Anyway, feeling like a hippo 🦛 giving birth today and can't wait to start taking BCP again cuz my cramps leave me in tears. 😨Today is my final free week before starting my new job. I'm glad I took a week between jobs (no PTO for first year). I was scared I'd fall back into depression with nothing to keep me busy. I did end up taking some shifts at the museum of art (but it doesn't feel like work because I enjoy it so much). It was very hard to do but a few things that kept me centered were: ✔️making plans with friends I hadn't seen in a while ✔️going to the gym 3x (gonna try to see if I can eventually get there 6am since my new start time for work is 8am) but I didn't pressure myself to try that out this week. ✔️celebrating what I did in a day no matter what it was (like vingingg Charmed an Queer Eye) ✔️eating food I love/never treat myself to... I ordered a lobster and shrimp pasta dish + peach cobbler from my favorite restaurant ✔️reading for 15-30 minutes before bed to help transition ✔️Bae asked what I wanted to do this weekend to round out the week of celebrating and showing up for myself. I said let's go to Pittsburgh. So that's happening . Am I doing life right? Idk. But I'm glad I didn't stew in doubt and anxiety. I definitely experienced them even with things being "steady" (I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop it using my breath). But I'm glad I let go a little bit and embraced the long AF journey. Stay tuned betches. K. Bye. #softandbrave #queereye #charmediswhitewashedAF #wine https://www.instagram.com/softandbrave/p/BwLK-nNnK1b/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=vnwll0ent1da
