#charcater study

9: Generally honest, but not really open. Never lies to Rose and kind of shares in random bunches. Never says he is something he isn’t or nearly over hides things after he let’s rose in End of The World. What you see is generally what you get with him, he’s impossible and saves the day but rose sees him break down with the auton mind(rose) pretty early and in Boom Town, he never contradicts what Blon says. Doesn’t want others to see how he feels but less of a game player. 

7/10 Honesty, 5/10 Openness

10: Not a liar with rose, but stuffs down the darkness. Liar liar to Martha, she calls him out like a boss (Gridlock), get’s him to open up when she puts her foot down. He doesn't let her in, she has to see it for herself and then call him on it. 

Donna, he can’t be totally closed off cus she saw him at his worst, but still not open and she calls him on it. So not totally dishonest but still trying to hide.  (Runaway Bride/Doctor’s Daughter).

Usually lies by omission but some straight-up lies, but will trauma dump.  He’s playing a game of the reckless dashing hero with the all-powerful yet powerless broken survivor. Doesn’t let others see that quite a bit. Hides parent side a lot and an older wiser side that we know he can have.

5/10 Honesty, 4/10 Open

11: He’s got the “rule one the doctor lies” but there is something honest in his dishonesty? Amy knows that he is this kind of god but that he doesn’t tell her everything (Flesh & Stone), knows he is playing a game around her. He tells her that yeah I don't’ tell you everything but trust me cuz I’m trying to get it. in God Complex we also see him tell her to stop having the allusions and that he’s really just being vain in his old age.

River knows and accepts it. Most liar level to Clara about knowing her past lives, but she knows he's a liar and he’s like yup I be lying (Journey to the centre of the TARDIS) and in Day of The Doctor Clara comments on how he talks about the Time War with her and her is able to ground him. 

It’s a lot like his personality in general, incredibly young and old at once, goofy with this bitterness, silly but deadly. That paradox is really on display, but to some extent he let’s more people in on the game? 

4/10 Honesty, 7/10 Openness

12: Generally pretty honesty Clara already knew the darkness in him and he asks her for info on him. They trade secrets in season 8 with her and Danny (caretaker) and when he manipulates the situations (Mummy on the orient express/Kill The Moon). Doesn’t really play with her after that maybe learning a lesson, and learns about who he is. And is a lot more chatty about the past overall? River knows about him in her episodes, and then Nardole knows a version and he never really lie straight up to him. He talks more about the past with Bill, and while he doesn’t want to let her know what he's seen, he doesn’t lie to her in Thin Ice when she asks him if he’s killed people before. Biggest lie moment is to protect his feelings of vulnerability with being blind. 

Not playing a game really, can control others

6/10 Honesty, 6/10 Openness

13: Never talks about anything and lies by omission only straight-up lying a few times. Fam calls her out on it and she says like the bare minimum to get by. They still know jack about her as a person (Spyfall pt 2). The only time she like owns up his to say like nah bro you don’t know me, and then they like yeah we do. It’s sweet but they are wrong. (Fugitive of The Judon) Been weeks in-universe and IRL and they still don’t know Galifrey has burned. 

5/10 honesty, 3/10 openness

These cloudy days make me feel like I am underwater, a sort of calmness that sinks like a stone. After such a hectic period of pre-term exams, which I think have permanently damaged my brain in one way or another, I feel so strange to just...relax. Another reason to why I feel like the human embodiment of an invisible and gorgeous garbage can...(okay I don’t actually feel like a garbage can but for the sake of my reputation of a tortured artist let’s assume I have taken down a peg or two from my narcissistic scale)... is the fact that I am, in my reality, surrounded by people who end up in the most ridiculous of problems, come to me for advice, then just do what people usually do which is mess things up even more. This is my role as a bystander to just watch their lives burn.

So I thought what a great idea for a project!(you can call it a diary but I will be very offended). I have decided to profit from other people’s misfortunes, mishaps, and other various incidents that have just simply caught my eye. I hope to write little entries about the people in my life: family, friends and strangers alike in hopes that it will improve my skills of observation, writing and talking shit about others. It could be anyone. No one is safe from my pen.

This whole ominous tone doesn’t really paint me in a good light but let me explain. In truth I am mesmerized by people. Every one I have ever met throughout my relatively short time on this Earth has been such a character, so unique and so special. Contradicting personality traits, motions and movements, micro facial expressions, behavior, all of it.

Another point I need to make clear, is that I am not judging anyone. It is not my place to do so. I am just simply giving a very opinionated retelling of things that I see. Which is basically the essence of judging isn’t it? A nice paradox.